Cemo saqarTvelo

aleqsandre lazi

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oTxmocdaaTiani wlebis dasawyisi iyo, saqarTveloSi

Savi qariSxali boboqrobda, aravis emRereboda maSin... gzad, quTaisSi, restoran `imereTSi~ Seviare... patara avans-scenaze ionika idga. SezarxoSebulma Warmagma mamakacma restornis momRerals gasZaxa: `Cemo saqarTvelo mimRere, gulatirebuli saqarTvelosio!~

momReralma Txovna umal Seasrula. _ vin aris avtori am simRerisa? _ anazdad vkiTxe

iuza brolaZes, romelmac umaRles doneze Seasrula eg simRera.

_ avtors ar vicnob, magram am simReras mTeli saqarTvelo mReriso.

wlebi gavida da bedad mergo avtoris gacnoba, aseve gamecno misi lamazi Semoqmedeba da davrwmundi, rom yvela misi leqsi sasimReroa, sityvebi ki, namdvilad, sulis siRrmidan aris amoqarguli...

marTalia, arc dRes ulxins saqarTvelos, misi simRera igive tirilia, glovaa, sulis simfoniad rom esalbuneba yovel sityvas, raSic samSoblosadmi da yoveli keTili nebis adamianSi didi siyvarulia gamoxatuli.

vulocav aleqsandre lazs am lamazi wignis gamocemas da vusurveb did warmatebebs SemoqmedebaSi.

naro kolxeli (nariman iaSaRaSvili)

ISBN 978-9941-9440-6-2

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Sen, mamulo, ar moxaro qedi... Citis WikWiks mohyolia sevda, gazafxulis gulic nela scemda... sio surnels arsaidan fevda da yvelafers irgvliv sevda sdevda. irgvliv xenni afoTlilan mwvaned da elian ukve meramdened... vin gamoxces grZnoba ise mwvaved, gazafxulis gacocxlebis mrwamebr. erTi wamiT gaqvavdeba gedi, mere rxeviT kvlav aidgams enas, Sen, mamulo, ar moxaro qedi, erTad SevxvdeT ganTiadis Cenas.

18 maisi 1995 w.

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Cemo saqarTvelo

Cemo saqarTvelo, Cemo sayvarelo, rogor agitires guli, TiTqos yofiliyav ucxo planetidan gadmosaxlebuli mdgmuri. Sen rom Caixute eg simarTlis kverTxi, mitom dagikawres guli, magram ar mokvdeba, fexze wamodgeba SenSi eg qarTuli suli. suli Zlieria, imaTze Zlieria, vinc Sen dRes Tavze gazis. ar gadaSenebula da arc gadaSendeba fesvebi qarTuli vazis. isev wamodgeba Seni Tbilisi da im foTs dauZaxebs faziss. Sen ki ayvavdebi, isini gaqrebian, vinc Sen dRes Tavze gazis. im Rimilis biWebs, Sen rom gverdSi gedga, guli eZaxoda SenTan, magram imaT Soris bevri aRar aris, ukve aRar aris CvenTan... guli dagikodes Senma qarTvelebma, erTad im sxva kanis ferTan... ase yofila da ase Tu gagrZelda, raRa Civili gvaqvs RmerTTan.

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Cemo saqarTvelo, saTayvanebelo, Sen nu miecemi fiqrebs, isev iRaRadebs SenSi uRrublo ca... maSin gadawmindavs Crdilebs. kvlavac moveswrebiT mag Sens lamaz tyeSi mijnur furebsa da irmebs, Sen rom aRar iyo, cotne mokvdeboda, suli gahyveboda fiqrebs...

1994 w.

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qarTveli mainc Tavisas ityvis

ramdenma ramem gadaiara qarTuli miwis lamaz titebze. im qartexilma cremlic SeaSro WaRara dedas Tavis Svilebze. radganac CvenTan, saqarTveloSi aRar glovoben cremliT gmirebze, eris mokeTe mSobliur miwis CamosaTvleli darCa TiTebze. unda SevignoT yovel qarTvelma eg siyvaruli mSobliur miwis da unda gavxdeT winaparT Zvlebze wmindad Semsrule im mtkice ficis. Tu ver SevigneT, rom erTad viyoT, yvelas mogviwevs is bedi kvicis! bedi kvicisa... mgelma rom Wama, didma, pataram, eg yvelam icis. rom `Cveni Tavi Cven gveyudnodes~, didma iliam maSin sTqva igi, magram jer ar Cans gardmosaxedze, rom damdgariyo qarTvelTa rigi. dro movida da uceb davkargeT... isev qarTvelma dakarga igi... qarTvelma Tvisi gautanlobiT sxva ers dauTmo Tavisi rigi.

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am saukunis qartexilebSi orjer gamoCnda iudas flidi. cixis karebi Signidan tydeba, mitom Cautyda qarTvelsac xidi. qarTveli mainc Tavisas ityvis, radgan ze aris gangeba didi. erTad davdgebiT ilias rCeviT, isev mogviva gzad Cven eg xidi...

1994 w.

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mglis muxla unda izardo

me ar msmenia mglis lekvi masxara gamosuliyos, an naSierni mglisani mel-turaT ahyoliliyos. Sen gaizarde mglis muxla, qarTvelo, Torem mtris iyos, lomi minaxavs wkepliTa scenaze amosuliyos. axsovdes yovel qarTvelsa, mglis muxla unda izardnon. maTma momaval Taobam maT Zvlebze unda idaron. Cven aRar davTmobT goj miwas, mtrebma rac unda ixaron. iberT dazrdilma lekvebma javr mtrebze unda iyaron! Cven Tu gons movalT, qarTvelno, vficav winaparT me Zvlebsa, vficav siyvaruls dedisa da mis danTxeul cremlebsa. unda SevikraT erT muStad, rom SiSi hqondeT Cvens mtrebsa, Torem gaTelavs yorani sveticxovels da beTlemsa.

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qarTveli eris wamqcevi me ar msmenia sxva eri, qarTvelma isev qarTvelsa wamouqcia saxls Weri. iyo dro saqarTveloSi erTad rom idga did-beri, maSin ki am Cvens mamulSi bednier iyo is eri. vax! eg ra cud dros mozvavdiT svavebo am Cvens mamulSi, gana daviTi ara gvyavs an Tamar Cvens samSobloSi. Rrmad ver isunTqavT, svavebo, afxazeT _ samaCabloSi. kidev iyivlebs mamali Cvens mSobel saqarTveloSi.

1994 w.

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Cven ar davuSvebT Sindisfer droSas

ver davemsgavseT mejRanuaSvils, ara gvaqvs qarTvelT modgmai misi, sarCo-sabados marjveniT vqmnidiT da sul sxva gvqonda, sxva ridi sxvisi. magram droebam avbedma CvenSi, SaiTnis SanTiT rom idga fexze, damkidrebasac ecada erSi... mxolod efiqra, mxolod Tvis bedze. am bedukuRmarT cxovrebis kvalze TiTqos misustda im brZolis arsi da avad dasTmen im taZris gzaze iq mimavali sicocxlis azri. Cven Tavs ar mivcemT... da im dinebas aRar gavyvebiT fexdafex kvalSi, kargadac viciT wuTier vnebas ar mohyolia kargi ram cxadSi. qarTvelo ero! Sindisfer droSas, nuRar dauSveb golgoTas gzaze. yuri mivugdoT Cvens ukvdav SoTas, Tu marTla vfiqrobT Cvens momavalze!

1994 w.

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Rele Rurdani erTi aqvs qarTvels

rionis piras Suagul egrisSi davibade da avidgi ena, Cemma mSoblebma me Semayvares Cemi samSoblos sunTqva da kera... Cemi bavSvoba iq gavatare, dro rasac hqvia ze aRma frena. mama rom warsuls momiyveboda, xSirad mqonia gulSi cremlT dena... da roca ukve im siWabukem fexi Semodga Cems cxovrebaSi, kuTxe aWaras me mivaSure swavlis fiqrebiT ymis ferobaSi. mivel da damxvda laRi baTumi, fexi Semovdgi mis dinebaSi, qarTuli suli aq rom sufevda, ver inatrebdi TviT ocnebaSi. lamazi kuTxis Cems megobrebTan Semoviare misi mTa-bari, visac gavecan, yvelam dastova Taviseburi sikeTis kvali. maTi fiqrebi saqarTveloa, Cauqrobeli sanTlis lampari, de, yvelgan iyos qarTul miwaze, iseT silaRe, rogorc aq ari.

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qarTuli miwis yvela kuTxes vcnob, Cems sicocxleze maRla dgas yvela. TviT Tu ar giyvars mSobeli kuTxe, ver Seiyvareb sxva kuTxes, vera! Rele Rurdani erTi aqvs qarTvels, sxva gza aqvs imas, visTvisac bnela. Cemi kolxeTi da iverT mxare mudam iqneba Zmad ficis kera!

1994 w.

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baTumo

evraziis gasayarze gSvenis Seni silaRe, saqarTvelos burjad dgaxar, daqancul suls miameb. Sens quCebSi yrmobis wlebi megobrebTan viare, Sen ixare, idRegrZele, Tan iSene simagre. ... maradidSi maxsovs Seni godeba, SvilTa SenTa suli zecas trialebs, dRes Sveba gaqvs da iSuSeb iarebs, isev davcli mogonebis fialebs. idRegrZele, Cemo baTum qalaqo! bevri codo-madlis qveynad nanaxo, siyvarulis ulevelo marago, udrekelo, Cemo baTum qalaqo! miyvars Seni zRva da Seni ferebi, Sens gul-mkerdze moseirne mtredebi, lamazebi, mxiarulni, celqebi, damijere, mitom mec geferebi. Seni seni gadaedos sxva qalaqs, eg silaRec mosdebodes sxva mTa-bars, Sens budeSi mSvidad sZinavs Zus da xvads, gaumarjos baTumlebis lamaz bans! idRegrZele, Cemo baTum qalaqo, bevri codo-madlis qveynad nanaxo, siyvarulis ulevelo marago, udrekelo Cemo baTum qalaqo.

1994 w.

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Sen zixar Cumad irgvliv siCume _ arvin ar gakrTobs, Sen zixar Cumad oTaxSi marto. fiqrebsi modis, rogorc talRebi, saukeTeso aris balRebis. mere dedis da mSobeli miwis... da rac mohyveba CamoTvla miWirs... magram yovelis saTave qveynad iyo da aris im didi niWis...

1996 w.

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SemosZaxeT Zveleburi dardiani

SemosZaxeT! rom akvnesdes Cemi guli, yvelam viciT Tu raca gvaqvs dakarguli, qarTvelebi xSirad iyvnen galaxulni, magram mainc ar yofilan daglaxulni. SemosZaxeT! vinc atira dedis guli, vinc pirvelad SemouSva CvenTan mdgmuri, vinc pirvelad masTan Sesva vaxtanguri da ficis qveS vinc gatexa sityva Zmuri.

SemosZaxeT! rom Seignon qarTvelebma, erT droSis qveS dairazmos erma-berma da erTobiT rom imZlavros saZirkvelma, av-muxTloba ver gabedos Cvenma mterma.

SemosZaxeT! Cems sayvarel barsa da mTas, erTad davdgeT, yuri vugdoT ilias xmas, samSoblosTvis yvela uxmod gaswiravs Tavs, yvela erTad Tu davdgebiT da vuxmobT gvars...

SemosZaxeT! rom gaigos boZma Zvelma, im daviTma, Cvenma aRmaSenebelma, qarTvelT laSqriT rom gaivsos mindor-velma, mters uganos viwroebSi erma Cvenma.

SemosZaxeT! rom aenTos gulSi cecxli, rom sikvdilic airiTmos dabadebad da am soflad rasac vscodavT RvTis winaSe, sinanuli mohyvebodes gulSi cremlad.

SemosZaxeT! Zveleburi dardiani, RvTis-wil miwa dailocos madliani, rom gamravldnen Zuebi da xvadianni, dailocos madliani dardiani...

1994 w.

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win, vainaxno, giorgis droSiT!

(daiwera groznoze Tavdasxmis Semdgom)

win, vainaxno, Zlierno suliT, giorgis droSiT, Samilis SubiT... da SemarTeba kavkasiuriT, gamarjvebisken marTali guliT! rkinis yuTebi, viT SeSa wiflis ise iwvodes gmirTa miwaze, vali ar dagrCeT mamulis sisxlis, mters ki ewvodes terfni qviSaze. urCxulTan brZola gmirTa xvedria, Tavisuflebas rom axSobs mudam, dRes rom Cumad varT, esec bedia, RmerTo, dagvixsen am wumpe rudan. gul-dakodilni qarTvelni CvenSi emalebian sibneles tyeSi, male vixilavT gverdi-gverd TqvenSi, da maSin vnaxavT mters bedSav dReSi. ra SemarTebiT Tqven ebrZviT mtersa... mand saqarTvelos wvlili devs dResa, erTad movkveToT is Tavi gvelsa, rom ar gadacdes amave welsa... Sen, dido ero, Svilebsa uxme, mand rom blomad gyavT vaJkacni geniT, mas saZirkveli ara aqvs uqme, Tu erT droSis qveS vibrZolebT rwmeniT.

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dro movida da droa vsTqvaT sityva, aRar vacaloT mters amosunTqva, ise vekveToT viT grigal setyva, rom erTmaneTis gvesmodes sunTqva. erTad davdgebiT, imarjvebs rwmena, kavkasielTa gmirTa xvedrisa, ena, mamuli, WeSmariteba, samnive Cveni gadamrCenisa...

Tebervali 1995 w.

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RmerTo, agvixile Tvali

ase naRvliani, ase dardiani arsad gamigia eri, nuTu dagviCoqes cotne dadiani an WaRara xevis beri. quCas mivyvebi da sevdian saxeebs veRar movaride Tvali, ratom davemsgavseT gaSiSvlebul xeebs, nuTu vinmesi gvaqvs vali... Cven eg sazRauri ufro RmerTis gvmarTebs, vinem im urCxulis vali, CvenSi rwmenis ngrevas eSmas suli anTxevs, xelidan gvecleba fari. droa gamovfxizldeT, yvela droSi, Zmebo, sanam gadagvTelen fexiT. Tavisufleba mxolod brZoliT mova da is aRar mova nebiT. nuTu, RvTismSobelo, gaswirav Cvens ers, RmerTo, agvixile Tvali. Torem daekarga rwmena TviT xevis bers, davkargeT warsulis kvali.

marti 1995 w.

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9 aprili

is ra dRe iyo, is ra lamazi, erTianoba eris, magram ar iyo is dRe cxra martis, urCxulTan damarcxebis. aqeT Savlegos, iq salaRobos mRerodnen qarTvelebi... da eris Zala veRar SeboWen, erTad rom idgnen Zmebi. da ros SeigrZno urCxulis gulma erT muStad Sekvra eris, maSin ki SfoTva dauwyo sulma, moicva fiqrma bnelis. lamaz qarTvelebs, romlebic idgnen wminda sanTlebiT xelSi, tankiT, niCbebiT ver moerivnen da ver gastexen welSi. is ra dRe iyo, is ra lamazi, erTianoba eris, sul rom ar hgavda is dRe cxra martis, urCxulTan damarcxebis.

9 aprili 1995 w.

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Sen afxazeTo

Sen, afxazeTo, gulis tkivilo, yovel WeSmarit mamuliSvilis... aba, miTxari, vis ra SevCivlo, rodesac guli sevdiTa tiris. sevdiTa tiris aTasis guli, asi aTasis cremliT namuli, vin dagvibrunos Cven dakarguli, mSoblebi, Zmebi, debi... mamuli. vin SemogvCivlos iberT miwaze, rom ar exaros moSurne TviT mters da gasayofi wil-xvedr mamulSi, aba ra hqonda afxazs da qarTvels. magram rac moxda, eg ZmaTa omi, wuTisoflisa Wiri devs masSi, cota met xans rom gvyoloda lomi, eSmaks vnaxavdiT Cagdebuls WaSi. iranis Sahmac datova sityva, „rom qarTvels sZliebs, mxolod qarTveli“, Tavze dagvatyda viT grigal-setyva, grZneuli Sahis naTqvami Zveli. misTvisac vimkiT aseT mosavals, im uTvistomo qarTvelTan erTad, mitomac gvTxrian mtris SanTiT Cven Tvals, rom eg sibnelec gamoCndes TeTrad.

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kmara da gveyo erTurTis mtroba, sanam daclila sisxlisgan eri... da gonivruli dRes gvmarTebs bWoba, Torem wagviqces samSoblos Weri. Weri maradJams Seudrekeli, Weri daviTis, Tamar dedoflis, Weri aTasis avis mnaxveli, magram naSeni qarTvelTa modgmis.

aprili 1995 w.

yvavilis sunTqva

me yvavilis sunTqva mesmis, yvela TiTqos geubneba, nu momwyvitav are-mares, raRa guli geurCeba. nu damkrifav, nu momwyvitav, gana amiT ra dagrCeba, Cems sicocxles, yvelam icis,s feri uceb ekargeba.

viyo mindvrad, baRSi viyo, vilaRo da vinarnaro, marto Seni ki ara da sxvebis gulic gavaxaro.

1995 w.

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Tvalaxveulno

mamis ar gjeraT, imitom, rom gzaze gayenebT. mamis ar gjeraT, amitomac mas ar ayenebT... dedis ar gjeraT, imitom, rom moyvass ver xedavT. dedis ar gjeraT, amitomac masTan ver bedavT... Zmobis ar gjeraT, imitom, rom Ralats sCadixarT. Zmobis ar gjeraT, amitomac TviT laCari xarT. maS visi gjeraT, Tqve xvadebo da Zud qceulno, saiT gascqeriT Tqvens momavals Tvalaxveulno. RmerTo, Seminde eg codvebi daseril gulSi, da ganminqarve eg bodvebi areul sulSi. ise matare me im qveynad, rogorc xvedria da glaxakisa miyav mcvelad, Tu eg bedia...

maisi 1995 w.

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mamuli dagvrCa fexze sadgomi

zogjer agiyvans moymis fiqrebi, winaparT Zvlebi rom aginTeben, CaJangul xmalsac daeWidebi, mamulis mtrisTvis rom aiReben. cxensac Sekazmav moreul grZnobiT da krwanisisken gzas auyvebi, isini dganan giorgis droSiT... mxolod samasi aragvelebi. samas-meerTed Sen CaiTvlebi, Tuki gaclian gzas banakamde, magram ram mospos CvenSi mstovrebi, kargad givlia kidev am gzamde. da am fiqrebSi xedav bilikze raRac aCrdilma gadairbina, tertera ijda marTla im virze, Sadimanma rom gadaibira. ox, es Ralati saidan modis, wiTel xalad rom ers daSTenia, nuTu eg aris winaparT modgmis, saukeTeso, rac dagvrCenia. gaxedav, erTgan RalatiT mohkles, RalatiT mterTan wavageT omi, TviT saqarTveloc RalatiT mospes, mamuli dagvrCa fexze sadgomi.

maisi 1995 w.

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axalgazrdobav frTebi aisxi

axalgazrdobav, frTebi aisxi, wyvdiadis gzebi alagmeT CvenSi, rom tyveobidan ixsnaT maisi da ukvdaveba aRanToT erSi. nu modundebiT da nu mohyvebiT mRvrie mdinaris aqaful wyalSi, isedac blomad iSva mstovrebi, rom mogvaqcion yvelani xramSi. de, gaiRviZos genma Zlierma, musrs rom avlebda mters mamulisa, Cveni erTobiT ixaros erma da siyvaruliT Cveni Zmurisa... Tu gadagvarCens, mxolod erToba da siyvaruli qristes rwmenisa, erTad davdgebiT, wyvdiadis dReni ganwirulia imav welisa. rom naSierni daviTis, laSas, Tamaris, ninos, ilias, vaJas, Sehqmnian suliT WeSmarit laSqars da cremls moswmendnen dedis tkbil nanas. axalgazrdobav, sxivi maisis, nami aprilis rom dagvSTenia... kldeze misulma frTebi aisxi, hqeni naxtomi, Sen rom gCvevia.

ivnisi 1995 w.

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SeiyvareT qarTvelebo erTmaneTi

SeiyvareT! qarTvelebo erTmaneTi, miwa-wyali, eg mamuli Cven gvaqvs erTi, samSoblosi siyvaruli gvenTos erSi, mtris winaSe rom gvfaravdes maRla RmerTi. im Rimilis lamaz biWebs davuCoqoT, mtris winaSe vaJkacurad rom ibrZodnen, rom daecnen brZolis velze da saxeze mSobel miwis siyvaruli rom ukrTodnen. sanTlad, sanTlad aenTeba saxelebi, lamaz biWebs sikvdilamde rom dahqondaT, saqarTvelos siyvaruli mkerdSi edoT da sicocxle Cvenze metad rom undodaT. damijereT, qarTvelebo, dedis guli, verasodes, verasodes gaixarebs, Tuki erTad ar davdgebiT mtris winaSe, RmerTic gviwyens, arasodes gagvaxarebs. SeiyvareT! qarTvelebo erTmaneTi, miwa-wyali, eg mamuli Cven gvaqvs erTi, samSoblosi siyvaruli gvenTos erSi, mtris winaSe rom gvfaravdes maRla RmerTi.

1994 w.

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cxeniswyali _ bazaleTi

cxeniswyalze bazaleTi ganmeorda, qarTvelebi kvlav pirispir idgnen erTad, daiviwyes mSobel miwis siyvaruli, iaraRi gaixades saloc RmerTad. TmaWaRara deda idga Suagul xidze, RmerTs SesTxovda qarTvelebis Serigebas, magram Zmebi momarTulni idgnen ise, rom elodnen sisxlis damqcev Serkinebas. cxeniswyali, cxeniswyali, bazaleTi, TiTqos gaWril vaSlebiviT iyo erTi... qarTvelebo! exla mainc SeikariT, dedis kalTiT rom gvfaravdeT maRla merTi. qarTvelebo! damijereT, Cvens mamulze, vis SeeZlo aewia SuriT xeli, magram bedkrul saqarTvelos mudam hyavda, isev misi gamozrdili ZuZus mteri. dedis cremlma da godebam ver uSvela, ZmaTa sisxliT SeiReba cxeniswyali, beds vemduriT qarTvelebi xSirad ise, gvaviwydeba istoriis mware kvali.

1994 w.

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nu mogvakleb sxivsa mzisa

mzis sxivebi maRla cidan moferebiT imzireba, zRvis talRebi boboqari isev zRvaSi iZireba... rom gaxedav zRvis napirebs, mxolod celqebs umRerT guli da ra xdeba ama qveynad, jer vera grZnobs maTi suli. isev balRebs, isev celqebs, mohyavT igi gazafxuli, Torem vinRa gaamzerebs, rac ars sevdiT dadaguli. zogi sevda samSoblosi, misi mrude siarulis, dedis, mamis monatrebis, ufro meti siyvarulis... dido mamav, zeciuro, nu mogvakleb sxivsa mzisa, Cemma erma rom iwamos ukeTesi momavlisa.

ivlisi 1996 w.

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Cemi akvani maS rad dairwa

megobrisaTvis kelaptrad viyo, rom gauWirdes, misTvis daviwva, megobrisadmi eg siyvaruli Cemi bavSvobis wlebSi dairwa. samSoblosaTvis me is yma viyo, mas gauWirdes, misTvis daviwva, mamulisadmi eg siyvaruli Cemi bavSvobis wlebSi dairwa. patara kaxis medroSe viyo, da im droSis qveS xmalze avicva, raa igi Cemi sicocxle, Cemi mamuli Tu ver davicva. me siyvarulis is mona viyo, rom am grZnobisTvis ferflad daviwva, rad ginda mkerdSi rom gedos guli, usiyvarulod Tuki daiwva. mSobeli dedis is cremli viyo, nakadulebad guls rom daiqca, madli im cremlis Tu ar mecvreba, Cemi akvani maS rad dairwa.

1996 w.

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iesos mcnebiT

cxovrebis Sara SaravandebiT vis gauvlia dRe gaCenidan, daimsaxuro eg sidiade, unda iwamo siymawvilidan. visac dideba zmanebiT mosdis, nisliviT qreba misi gza-kvali, im mwvervalebis eklian gzebze Casafrebuli aris mzakvari. brZoliT da SromiT, iesos mcnebiT unda ewamo Seni cxovreba, rom Sen am gzaze im Canafiqris, ar mogecalos wrfeli ocneba. igi natvraa sulTa mokleTa... da amas natrobs cru miwieri, me mirCevnia sulis simrTele... viyo glaxaki da bednieri.

1996 w.

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saqarTvelos mTlianoba damiloce axali wlis mobrZanebas gaumarjos! maS SeavseT!.. sadRegrZelo axlis mTqmeli... dro iseTi mosuliyos mtris jinaze, saqarTvelos mtrebisaTvis sakvirveli. menatreba Cemi Zveli mindor-veli, winaparTa salaRobo mTa da mdelo. maS, Seavse, meriqifev, sasmisebi! erTad SevsvaT axali wlis sadRegrZelo. Sen, Tamadav, erTi stumars damixede! Tu ara svams, sufrasTan ar gaaCero! saqarTvelos sadRegrZelos Tu ar dalevs! rad aCereb, aseT stumars maspinZelo! Cemo ero, TmaWaRara myinvarwvero, didi SoTas da ilias akvnis mrwelo, damiloce saqarTvelos mTlianoba, winaparTa rom davlioT sadRegrZelo. welo, welo, momavlisTvis bevris mTqmelo, qarTvelebis amisrule natvra erTi, saqarTvelos mTlianoba damiloce, patarebma rom iwamon maRla RmerTi.

1996 w.

31

Savi wigni

qarTvelebo, waikiTxeT Savi wigni, im mokeTis, buaCiZis dawerili, saqarTvelo sizmariviT gagviqreba, Tu ver CavwvdiT, iq rac aris aRwerili. saqarTvelos irgvliv mtrebi asevia, is yornebi, daWril arwivs rom erCian, gulubryvilo qarTvelebi taxtze zian, da uRmerTod qirqileben: _ ras gverCian... qarTvelebo, eg fiala amoivso, RviniT savse ki ara da cremliT savse. vinc adina qarTvel dedas igi cremli, miawodeT! eg fiala isev masve. im aprilis saqarTvelos kvlav movuxmoT, mters rom misi gaxseneba SiSis zars scems, mefistole sanTlebiT rom ukuagdes da erTobis Zala Cven rom dagvanaxes. `Savi wigni~ saqarTvelos mtrebs Tu akrTobs, samreklodan zarebis xma Tuki gvesmis, yvav-yoranTa, alesili mzera makrTobs, dafleTili saqarTvelos kvnesa mesmis.

1996 w.

32

iqneb droa

ra satana gadmogvyurebs, vin dagvwyevla agre krulad? Cveni vinmes ara sjera da gviyurebs yvela mtrulad. ugunurTa Cveva _ wesi, moinaTla uwmindesad, yvela mstovars fari misces, rom gairyvnas uaresad... kaci! Tavze aras fiqrobs, Tugind warsdges gansasjelad, winaparTa adaT-wesi, rad migaCniT ukve Zvelad. erTxel ganvsjiT, cxrajer gavsWriT, agveria gza da kvali, mamas vTelavT, jvarze vacmevT, maminacvlis ki gvaqvs vali. zeciuro, gadmogvxede, iqneb Senc Tqva Cvenze Zviri, iqneb droa saqarTvelom samudamod misces Zili...

1997 w.

33

deda

dedam Soba ama qveynad, rac rom irgvliv suldgmulia da is wyaroc nakadulad misi cremliT namulia... is fesvebi, razec vdgevarT, misi ZuZus naJonia, ama qveynis siyvarulic misi sulis nayofia. Cemo dedav, bevri Rame TeTrad gagiTenebia, da cremlebi igi mware CvenTvis ar ginaxvebia. dedav, Cemo tkbilo dedav, menatrebi, rom ver gxedav, me siyvaruls masze utkbess, am samyaros vera vxedav. mapatios yvela dedam, ver gadmovscem rasac vxedav, RvTis naboZeb yvela madliT, idRegrZelos tkbilma dedam.

1995 w.

34

mteri erTi hyavs algeTis Svilebs

iberT miwaze or ZmaTa Soris gaiba omi usastikesi, igi ar hgavda brZolas didgoris, magram tyviebi quxdnen viT kvesi... orTav Zma iyo, egrisis Svilni, urCxuls ki maTken eWira Tvali, Zmeb gadahkida, unaxa droni da ZmaTa Soris avarda ali. im qarcecxlian dReebSi mteri mstovarT WurvebiT amaragebda, adre mocela Wkviani beri, ZmebSi rom idga da ganagebda. axali weli rom Tendeboda, baTu afxazi gumisTas midga. qarTvelsac guli rom ukvdeboda, mdinaris miRma uCumrad idga. baTum SesZaxa: Sen, he, qarTvelo! Tu SenSi aris qarTuli suli, gadmod, davlioT Cven sadRegrZelo da am axal wels gavixsnaT guli. daCim Seixsna saWurvi Tvisi da gadacura mdinare gumi, iq baTu daxvda, rogorc Zma misi, maT sadRegrZelo dalies Cumi...

35

isini erTad isxdnen ciskramde, fesvebs locavdnen mSobliur miwis, aRar eZina `aRa mahmad xans,~ SuriT moSurnes am ZmaTa niWis. alionisas zeze wamodgnen, daemSvidoben Zmurad erTmaneTs, xviCas da goCas Zmebi gamodgnen, rom ar indobdnen mtrisTvis mis algeTs. gaTenda dila, isev Caagdo, mterma Zmebs Soris axali tyvia, Zmad Seficulni ise aagdo, isargayrili guli rom hqvia. Semouties Zmebma erTmaneTs, sisxlisfrad iqca mdinaris wyali, baTu da daCi mohkles im algeTs da aRar darCaT arafris kvali. maTi Svilebi oblad izrdeba, da ar ician Zma mohkla Zmama, magaT miwaze mteri mkvidrdeba, aRar adardebs arcerTis mama. da zecad axla baTu da daCi winaprebisgan dganan xizanni, ujavrdebian, droze ver ynosen da ver gaiges mtrisa mizani. maTma sulebma unda STaberon darCenil oblebs im miwis suli, am siyvarulSi rom Seaberon Cvenma oblebma Cagruli guli.

36

mteri erTi hyavs algeTis Svilebs, TviT rom Tavisa mtrebi arian, saqarTveloSi vin mosTvlis gmirebs, mteri Seikras ragind Zalian. bevri momxvduri aq dalewila, bevric momavals dailews cxvirsa, gvels rom Caisvam ubeSi, Zmao, unda gaxsovdes modgmai misa... da Tu es kidev ar gamodgeba did gakveTilad Cveni modgmisa, axia Cvenze yvela tkivili, gangebisagan rac rom mogvdisa.

1997 w.

37

yvelaze Zliers daumonebels yvelaze Zliers daumonebels, ra hqvia qveynad, aba, vin metyvis? iqnebac vinmes monebs aCrdili... moRrublul caze grigali setyvis... iqnebac vinmes monebs aCrdili, sadRac stepebSi mborgavi lomis, iqnebac vinmes monebs aCrdili _ uRrublo caze gavardna Tofis... iqnebac vinmes monebs aCrdili, Tavis uiRblo dacdili bedis, iqnebac vinmes monebs aCrdili qaris motanil oqros da vercxlis... yvelaze Zliers daumonebels hqvia taZrisken mxned siaruli, xolo meufes uZlevelobis RmerTisa rwmena da siyvaruli.

1999 w.

* * * ganagde fiqri yoveli, uflisgan dasawunia, da moiSvele simdable, eSmakTa dasaTrgunia.

1999 w.

38

Sen mezurnev daukari

mSier qarTvels, mwyurval qarTvels, magram mainc, mainc qarTvels venacvale. vinc ar yidis Tavis rjuls da vinc leSisTvis ar gascems suls, me im qarTvels, me im qarTvels venacvale. riT gadavrCiT da SemovrCiT qartexilebs, droTa trials, yvav-yornebi Tavs exvia saqarTvelos istorias, saqarTvelos istorias... Sen mezurnev daukari, kvlav mouxme aragvelebs, gorgasalis xmals mouxme, arsakiZis marjve xelebs, arsakiZis marjve xelebs... lazebo da afxazebo, aWarlebo, gurulebo, svanebo da raWvelebo, imerlebo, argvelebo, qarTlelebo, kaxelebo, xevsur-fSavel-mTiulebo,… erTad davdgeT erTi suliT, mtris wyurviliT sneulebo, mtris wyurviliT sneulebo... mSier qarTvels, mwyurval qarTvels, magram mainc, mainc qarTvels venacvale.

1999 w.

39

ar minda vismes etkinos guli

Tqvens fiqrs vkiTxulob, me giTanagrZnobT, gindaT rom gaxdeT yvelgan pirveli, magram fiqrebi nuTu vera grZnobT, agekviataT gasakvirveli. lamazi qali Tvalis Cinia, sxarti leqsi ki gonis talkvesi, ar unda gaxdeT guliT finia, rom ar mogakldeT drois alersi. lamazi qalis giyvardeT suli, kargi leqsis ki mwveli grZnobebi, ar minda vismes etkinos guli, me Cems ialqnebs davelodebi.

1995 w.

40

eris sulo daqanculo

yvela tkivils, yvela wuxils dro hyavs mxolod mkurnalio, ver uSvelis, Tugind Rvaro dRe da Rame kurcxalio.

magram didi Sveba aris TanagrZnoba sanatreli, yvela tkivils musrs rom avlebs da im sulis gadamrCeni.

da es niWi TanagrZnobis yvelas rodi abadia. zogsa qurqad sikeTe aqvs, zogsac kide nabadia.

ufals madlobs morCilebiT, visac avsebs ze madlio, radgan sulgrZels veRar hmonebs oqro, vercxli, sxva ganZio.

me qarTvelis, Cemi eris, Sig ZarRvebSi miCqefs sisxli, moTmineba Wir-varamis, magram mtrisTvis Zalze ficxi.

Sen, tkivilo, zRvars misulo, eris sulo, daqanculo, aRar Sedrke mtris siWarbiT, saqarTvelov, dacmaculo...

dRes gvWirdeba erTad dgoma, ise, rogorc arasodes, mters aRvudgeT viT maxvili, mas aseTi ar axsovdes...

1999 w.

41

vercxlze gavyideT

oazisiviT lamazi iyo Cemi samSoblos is gazafxuli, wminda sanTlebi Ramis wyvdiadSi varskvlavebiviT ganaTebuli. sadRac urCxulis ismoda gminva, damarcxebulis, gaavebulis, aq ki qarTvelTa xmebi hfaravdnen lados simReriT gamarjvebulis. saukuneni gadmohyurebdnen qarTvelTa dedis cremliT namuli, ra axlos iyo Tavisufleba, egre nanatri Cveni mamulis. vin moigona Cveni simcire, an vis dasWirda igi zRapari, monobas aros ar SesCvevia, Cveni WaRara mama-papani. ver davicaviT, vercxlze gavyideT, Cven qristesaviT is gazafxuli. jojoxeTsa hgavs dRes es mamuli, caSi afrenas natrulobs suli.

1997 w.

42

dRe daudgebaT Sadimnebs

miwier saqarTveloSi papaTa Zvlebi marxia, zeciur saqarTveloSi maTi sulebi anTia. qvewarmavlebi momravldnen, TeTri gamoCndes bnelada, suls gaufrTxildiT, qarTvelno, xorci miugdeT leSada. gamoangreven saflavebs egrisisa da qarTlisa, aenTebian sulebi im Cveni mama-papisa... maSin ki naxe CoCqoli CvenSi cocxlebad mkvdarisa, dRe daudgebaT Sadimnebs grigalisa da warRvnisa. rwmena imediT aRvudgeT yovelgvar borotebasa, ufliT naTeli daurCes im SoTas sibrZnis mcnebasa. da ros ciskarze vixilavT mzisa amosvlas sxvagvarsa, mjera, rom Cemi qarTvelic alaRebs missa mTa-barsa.

1999 w.

43

deda

dedav, mudam Tvalwin midgas Seni Tbili Tvalebi, damyveba da ar mSordeba, sadac daviarebi.

dedav, Cemo tkbilo, dedav, bevrjer guli gatkine da wuxili ama soflis vera, ver agacile.

es cxovreba Cemma bedma boSasaviT matara, da Sens gverdiT, SenTan yofna, ara, ar damacala.

damijere, Cemo dedi, sulze ufro miyvarxar, uCemobas im tkiviliT siberemde mihyavxar.

RmerTi aris, Cemo dedi, Cveni sulis mfarveli, sxva wyaloba arc mqonia, arc minda da arc veli.

mjera Cveni mzec gamova, Cvens quCazec inaTebs, dagvaviwyebs warsul tkivils, mogviSuSebs iarebs.

Cemo dedi, idRegrZele, mudam dedis dRe aris, gareT vxedav rom anaTebs, albaT Cveni mze ari.

3 marti 1999 w.

44

he, mamulo, gaiRviZe! gazafxulze afeTqdeba, CvenTan yvela yvavili, Citis WikWiks mohyolia, sunTqva yvelanairi. mTaSi Tovli dneba Cumad, nakadulad Camodis, mze ciskarze almasebiT, sul sxva feriT amodis. he, mamulo, gaiRviZe! brZolaSia sicocxle, Tu momavals ar adgebi, me rad minda sicocxle. es golgoTa SenTan erTad fexSiSveli viare, erTad dgoma Tu momirCens, wylulmoreul iarebs. iqneb Tavic Segvaxsenon, borotebis gmirebma, da kvlav aRsdges mamulisTvis, saqarTvelos Svilebma.

9 marti 1999 w.

45

Segoneba

roca Svili ibadeba, Ze aris Tu asulio, movla unda, aRzrda unda... ara Tavze gasulio. nebivrobiT Svilis aRzrda Semdgom isev masve avnebs, verc mSobels da verc qveyanas, sasikeTos aras argebs. mere gvian dagirCebis, godeba da grZnobis boWva, boRmiT aRvsils ver giSvelis, TanamgrZnobTa garemocva. erTsac mogagonebs RmerTi, Tu gikiTxavs “gamzrdelio”, amis Semdgom Sens saqciels, rad hpatiob, rad Svelio. mokled iTqva igi sityva, `viT Sairi meleqsisa~, vinac Svili egre zarda, keTil nayofs ver eRirsa.

1999 w.

46

aRsdeq saqarTvelo!

Sen aWarav, ZirZvelo da gatanjulo mxarev, Seni sunTqva amaRlebiT guli gamiRale. mSobel dedas daubrundi, vici rac iwame, saqarTvelos siyvaruli frTebiT daifare. mociqulTa madli gecxos mTvaris Caqrobamde, momavali xmas gawvdides akvnis gamoTlamde. varskvlavebi kvers gikravdnen ciskris gamosvlamde, me ki Seni mona viyo sulis amosvlamde. minda Sevsva sadRegrZelo! myinvarwveris Tavze, kavkasions gadavxedo siyvaruliT savse... ZmaTa CemTa mteri vacva saakaZis xmalze, Tavi davdo cotnesaviT, mxolid erTobaze. eg fiala momawodeT! xvanWkaraTi savse, minda davdge winaparTa, ZvalTa namuxlarze, da davloco, maTi sulTa Zliereba savse, rom kvlav dadges saqarTvelo, erTi rwmenis gzaze.

1999 w.

47

mainc momavals moaqvs naTeli

moRrublul caze Rrubeli dakrTis, viT angelozni gariyul cisa, foTlebi rweviT ifantebian, gaSiSvlebuli tirifis xisa. giorgobisTvis civi niavi, Weqa-quxils da fantelebs uxmobs, da zamTris susxis karis Wriali, wylulmoreulebs iarebs uqrobs. sadRac dilegSi oboli suli, im uflis rwmeniT wyvdiadSi borgavs, da moTmineba viTarc RvTiuri, zeciur madlis samosiT mosavs. viT Semodgomis foTlebi rweviT, ifantebian samoTxis karad, dagegebian Zveli wylulebi, WeSmaritebis xidad da farad. moRrublul caze Rrubeli dakrTis, viT angelozni gariyul cisa, swored dRes xdeba apokalifsi da dgeba Jami uflis mosvlisa.

1999 w.

48

daakvirdiT bolo Jamis niSnebs

cis mnaTobebs daekargaT feri, da sisxlisfrad ifereba mTvare, rwmena ise iTeleba uflis, TviT ieso Semogvikravs zarebs. daakvirdiT bolo Jamis niSnebs, ninevelTa brZola midis mware, am tanjvaSi vinc iwama uflis, imav rwmeniT gadarCeba male. SemohkariT, SemohkariT zarebs, warsul JamTa udebebiT mkrTalebs, Torem RmerTi Tu gagviwyra mwared, dagvixuravs sasufevlis karebs. Tund am qveynad SemiZulos yvelam da zvarakad Sevewiro sofels, iberia _ jvari aris Cemi, Ze uflisam rom ukurTxa mSobels. ninevelTa brZola midis mware, daundoblad ikortneba Zera, am brZolaSi gaimarjvebs igi, vinac rjulis ar gayida rwmena.

2000 w.

49

uflis saxlSi macxovari moTminebiT gvelodeba

iberias gadaarCens guliT locva da RvTisadmi sinanuli gadaarCens, arc erT mefes aRar ZaluZs qveynis marTva, Tuki suliT miwieris mona gaxda... rac ki tanjva da wameba gaviareT, kidev bevri gansacdeli gvelodeba. uflis saxlSi macxovari moTminebiT mobrunebas da Cvens xilvas elodeba. qarTvelebo, davuCoqoT jvarze vnebuls da xelmwifec avad aRar gagvixdeba, Cveni Txovna da vedreba uflisadmi sizmariviT, sizmariviT agvixdeba. zurgSeqceva uflisadmi aras gvargebs, mxolod misken mobruneba gadagvarCens, boRmiT aRvsil da momarTul mtris maxvilsac bneli Ramis da wyvdiadis sanTlad aqcevs. yvelam, visac SeuZlia Tavis moxra-vedreba, sanam wyvdiads daupyria, sanam irgvliv bneldeba, dReSi Svidjer aRavlineT uflisadmi vedreba, mere naxeT Cveni sulis da mamulis mSveneba.

2000 w.

50

undaT mohklan saqarTvelo marad

vxedav wylulebs emateba wyluli, eriskacebs Cafiqreba gmarTebT, antiqristes mosrialebs suli, Cagvilewavs sasufevlis karebs.

siZva-garyvnis da mruSobis mcnebebs aswavlian umankoTa gulebs da aclian RvTismSobelis keras unetares RvTiv boZebul sulebs.

Canafiqri Tu gauva mtarvals, Cven mogvkveTavs jojoxeTis celi, gaudgeba sodomsa da gomors wamebuli RvTismSobelis eri.

moZRvari xar, beri xar Tu eri, gaviRviZoT, avaxiloT Tvali, xedavT, rogor modis niaRvari, win aRvudgeT da SemovkraT zari!

bneleTidan didi fuli modis, rom mzakvrulad CaiTrios eri, aba, kargad CaufiqrdiT, xalxno, vis ras argebs uwminduri gveli.

Sxams gvimzadebs antiqriste wynarad, undaT mohklan, saqarTvelo marad, aras gvargebs, dadumeba arad, qristes rjuli CavixutoT farad.

SemohkariT, SemohkariT zarebs! eklesiis karibWesTan mdgarebs, dedis kalTas SevafaroT Tavi, wuTisofels darCenia wami.

2003 w.

51

qarTvelno, locvas eSurneT!

firosmaniviT ganwiruls, muxlad vuCoqeb RmerTs, momeci Zali moTmenis, mxolod amas gTxov erTs. udabnos qari Caivlis, Rrublebs gahfantavs mze, wyvdiadis damtyvevebeli ciskriT gamoCndes dRe. maS, rad vuwodebT Cvens mamuls RvTiv wil xvedrobis dars, bevri qarTvelis sikvdili iesos sikvdils hgavs. radgan moSurnes mokeTed vaqcevT, gavuxsniT guls, xolo Zmasa da moyvassa SanTiT vuwamebT suls. qarTvelno, locvas eSurneT! cremli apkureT Tvals, rom suli rwfeli dabados am Cvens uZRebsa gvams...

2002 w.

52

giorgi (iuri) anuas da mama andrias (yuraSvilis) xsovnas

Cven rom davSordiT erTmaneTs qarTvel afxazi Zmebi, mitom iwyina ufalma, dRes gvian, magram, vxvdebi. sul sxva enaze daviwyeT bWoba, gansja da fiqri... Sen mogviteve, ieso, muxls Sens winaSe viyri. giorgim xidi aSena qarTul-afxazur Zmobis, eklesiebi amSvena, Cveni iq erTad dgomis. ar gavaxaroT mamulis qveSemZromTa mRrneli, guda-nabadi avakraT, gzas gavuyenoT mteri. giorgis, mama andrias, sisxlma gvikurTxa eri, droa, afxazno. CavWidoT erTmaneTs mWidrod xeli. kamanis caze rom enTo mWer-oqropiris sveti, mas moemata naTeli da orjer gaxda meti.

53

Tqveni Wirime, afxazno, erTgulno mSobel miwis, Zmad Seficulno qarTvelno, damcvelno mtkiced ficis. Svil-daRupulo dedebo, mware tanjuli bedis, Cvens Serigebas ruduniT ufali TmeniT elis. da Svilni RvTisa giorgis gulSi ikraven jvarsa, mamis nakvalevs mihyveba sanTel-sakmevel gzasa. mama andriav, daloce! afxaz-qarTvelTa mxare, Tqvens saflavs unda vemTxvio, me muxlmoyrili male.

2000 w.

54

emigrantebi

ver davicaviT aprilis sisxliTa monapovari, ar dagvelia qarTvelebs manqurTni ZuZus mstovarni. iuda CamoabrZanes, im susxi Crdilo mxaridan, zogi tyidan-tye garboda, zogic mezoblis karidan. vici ra cremliT datoveT, saxl-kari, deda, mamao, guli gewodaT codosgan, me Tqveni egre mwamao. datoveT Svilni da Zmanni, karis zRurblebTan mdgaria, tanjva-wamebiT atareT, eris umwikvlo jvaria. ramdeni Rame aTeneT, cremlebiTa da dardiTa, mjera gfaravdaT ufali, RvTismSoblis kalTiT madliTa. me Svili vnaxe, Svilis win, muxl-moyriT iyo mdgaria, leqsos akrTobda mZinares, dedis cremlebi mwaria.

55

geamborebiT, qarTvelno! margalitebo erisa, Tqveni jvarcmuli cxovrebiT gadamrCenelno kerisa. bolo Jamia, gaxsovdeT, Cven davutevebT wyenasa, rom antiqristec dasTrgunos, erTobam Cvenis cqerasa. uwmindesisa visminoT, ara ras ambobs Znelasa, samSoblos wiaRs mogixmobT, didsa pataras yvelasa.

2012 w.

56

maswavlebeli

rusTvelsac hyavda moZRvarni rCeul... netar arian isinni dResa, da maT gareSe veRar SeigrZnob, maRliT zenas da anTebul mzesa. veRar SeigrZnob mSoblisa amags, mamulis tkivils da mwuxrs zecisa, maswavlebeli kelaptaria, wuTisofelis gzebis bnelisa. vinc Seiyvara gogebaSvili, da deda-ena Caikra misi, ufali gansjis, TviTon miuzRvavs, Tu is amqveynad risia Rirsi. saqarTveloSi ostat-moZRvarni, iyvnen rCeulni ubadlo niWiT, albaT droebam gamwira ise, maTze moyola Zalian miWirs. sanam mze mzeobs cis kabadonze, gaifanteba Rrubeli eSmis, radganac ukve aq mefistolis mware gvema da Rmuili mesmis. guliT vusurveb yvela pedagogs, WeSmarit moZRvars wuTisoflisa, uRrublo zeca dRiT danaTodnen, Ramis wyvdiadSi varskvlavni cisa.

2 oqtomberi 2002 w.

57

Seni Wirime, vaJao!

Seni Wirime, vaJao! TqveniT midgia sulia, zecaSi dabadebuli, wuTisoflisa mdgmuria. Tqveni naTeli bilikiT mival, mivyvebi gzasao, ver gadavixdi mgonia, Tqvenebr WeSmarit valsao. tanjva-wamebiT davdivar, sisxl cvarad mamdis tansao, uflis Sewevna rom ara, ver gavuZlebdi avsao. ver gavuZlebdi samSoblos, Tavze moxveul Wirsao, Cvenze moweul codvaTa... yoveli misTvis gvWirsao. bolo Jamia etyoba, iqnebac morCes yoveli, da ganiwmidos maradis, codvisgan wuTisofeli.

2000 w.

58

Cemo lazika

samegrelov, iavnana Seni momnatrebia, Seni mTa da Seni bari iasamnis feria, jvari RvTiTa Tu itvirTe, egec Seni xvedria, enguri rom azvirTdeba, vici, Seni cremlia. rom golgoTa gasavleli Tav-aweviT iare, RmerTi male mogiSuSebs wylul-moreul iarebs, SenTa SvilTa saqmeebi aq Cvens irgvliv trialebs, saqarTvelos siyvaruli mag Sens gulSi frialebs. sanam qriste moevlina im beTlemSi madliTa, mamam Seqmna samyaroSi kolxTa miwa lazika. evraziis gasayarze galaRebda Savi zRva, istoriis qariSxalma eg walkoti gariya. suli borgavs, nostalgiiT mainc midis cxovreba, dakarguli ar gasvenebs, sevda aRar gSordeba, iveria da egrisi Tavis sxeuls Sordeba, amitomac mesmis Seni samreklodan godeba. samegrelov, Seni siTbo maSina sTqva iliam, saqarTvelos siyvaruli gulSi rom gailia. vinc ar icis samegrelo, visac ar uxilia, rogor ityvis, rom is eris Rirseuli Svilia. ibrZodi da saqarTvelos mTlianobas icavdi, mjera kvlavac ar Sedrkeba mtris siuxve siWarbiT, iq dadgeba lazi mudam, sadac qariSxalia, saqarTvelos siyvarulSi rom ara aqvs valia.

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samegrelov, gansacdeli, aba ra saTqmelia, qristesaviT jvarze gakvra Seni wili xvedria, ra dros Seni borkilia, ra dros Seni mtrebia, saqarTvelos dRes sWirdeba cotnes jiSis Zmebia. mameluqis nana mesmis im udabnos xramidan, Wyondidelma rom aRzarda mefe akvnis navidan, zviadi da saqarTvelo erTi iyo Tavidan, Sen RvTismSoblis kvarTi

gfaravs qristeSobis wamidan. vsasoeb da guliT mjera, kvlav aRsdgeba fazisi, iqneb kvlavac ganmeordes didgori da krwanisi, axla gvmarTebs erTad dgoma gandgomili da-Zmisi, mterma rom ver aisrulos Canafiqri Tavisi. Cemo nanav, tkbilo nanav, egrisis da qarTlisav, vxedav, rogor dagifliTes, kalTa samos kabisa. mwyurvals SanTiT gasves Zmari,

moCvenebiT wyalisa, mainc veRar dagaCoqes rwmeniT momavalisa. Cemo tkbilo samegrelov, nanav, sulis Cambero, bevri codo-madlis qveynad

da tkivilis mnaxvelo, SvilTa SenTa erTgulebis,

uflis kalTiT mfarvelo, loculobdi, kvlav iloce _

RmerTi da saqarTvelo.

2000 w.

60

eris mamao

jvarcmuli qveynis Svili xar, iliav, Cveno mamao, qedze gadena mamuli, golgoTas agaqvs Tanao. sudara gadafarebul gergo wilxvedri xanao, jvari atare ubiwod, madlmac ar daaxanao.

aSene eklesiebi, amravle mwyemsTa farao, zenam gikurTxos yoveli da vinc gimRera nanao. bevrni vcodavdiT Sens wina, veras vigebdiT, ar-rao, Sen mogviteve yovelTa, RvTiv kurTxeulo, mamao. bewvis xidze dgas is eri, Sen rom mwyse bolo xanao, axla gvWirdeba is sibrZne, guliT rom dagaqvs Tanao. didxans sicocxles gisurvebs eri iberTa modgmisa, ase mxne, laRi menaxeT uflis meored mosvlisas.

4 ianvari 2012 w.

61

uzenaeso zenao

bindmoreulma sofelma ar daayovna xania, veRar Camacva perangi, cocxal migvema gvamia. spa Semiyara urdoTa, damaqcevari xamia, tanjvis cremlebiT amivso samadlobeli jamia. gmadlobT Sen yvelafrisaTvis, uzenaeso zenao, Txovna maqvs, erTi aTasSi, SeniT davZlio wyenao. rom ar ixaros mtris rjulma, ar damayaros fstvenao, tanjvad ar gadamiqcios maradisobis lxenao.

2012 w.

62

gaumarjos jvarze nagvem

iberiis Semovevle, yvela kuTxis mTas da mdelos, gaumarjos jvarze nagvem, Cems margalit saqarTvelos. aq dairwa nanas hangiT, is hamaki quji lazis, aq gaisma fici Zmobis, da erTobis farnavazis. aq marjvenas uta lazis, salocavi augia, vinc ki dasdo Tavi misTvis, samoTxis bWe gauRia. aq Wyondidels mefisaTvis, Tavs gvirgvini daudvia... mefes, mtrisTvis im didgorSi muxanaTi daugia. kaxisaTvis aspinZis oms, lekTa belads dauvlia, malaCilas Tavi iqve patara kaxs waugdia. svav-yornebi dasevian, am Cems baRnar saqarTvelos, da iyofen urjuloni winaparTa mTas da mdelos. he, mtarvalno! dageliaT! CvenTan yofnis dro da Jami, moemzadeT gasaqcevad! vinc gvimuxTla... dagrCaT wami!

2012 w.

63

imereTi

imereTo, saqarTvelos gulo areo, fexiTa maqvs Semovlili Seni mxareo, quTaiso, imereTis dido qalaqo, siyvarulis, megobrobis wminda alago. Tu rioni amRvreuli gverdSi Camogdis, SerigebisaTvis Zmebi gelaTs Camodis, quTaTurebs mizani aqvT arc ise didi, rom aSenon siyvarulis da Zmobis xidi. quTaiso, Cemo tkbilo, koxta qalaqo, gelaTis da safiCxias wminda alago, imereTo, saqarTvelos turfa mxareo, dailocos Seni mze da Seni mTvareo. quTaiso, dasavleTis qaris budeo, siyvaruliT amevseba zogjer ubeo, lamaz imers dainaxav TeTri mandiliT, TaraSoba mogindeba vefxis wadiliT. edemiviT damSvendeba Seni alagi, quTaiso, Sen gaxdebi Zmobis qalaqi. arasodes geRalatos, iyav Jamier, saqarTvelos siyvarulSi mravalJamier!

1997 w.

64

siRaribe, siRaribe

aba, kargad daakvirdiT, vin ra aris dRes, glexi miwas uyurebs da boqauli mzes. zogi baqlavas miirTmevs, zogi pursa xmels, zogsa wyali enatreba, zogi ki svams rZes. damijere, glexis biWo, nu gaitex guls, visac kaci ejavreba jojoxeTic Surs... eg cxovreba golgoTaa urmiT savali, RviniT savse doqSi aris misi wamali. Rvinos dalev megobrebSi, sevda morCeba, sicocxle da siyvaruli aRar mokvdeba. siRaribe, siRaribe, aba vis ar sZuls, iseT wixlsa Cagaqolebs, ver moiTqvam suls.

65

xuTi TeTric Tu gaklia, ar mogcemen purs, mogiklaven patarebis umankoTa guls. me Tu mkiTxav, erTsa vityvi, sxvisi ara mSurs. yvela kaci! miyvars qveynad da aravin mZuls.

1996 წ.

66

TeTri Rame

67

TeTri Rame

me Senze fiqriT TeTrad Rame miTenebia da ganTiadis burusiviT Sors gavbneulvar, lamaz Tvalebze wrfel ocnebiT miferebia da am fiqrebSi zRapris gmirad gadavqceulvar. Sen Semiyvardi mag lamazi Tvalebis mzeriT, Tanac simSvide damikarge Cemi morCili, rac moxda CemSi Zneli aris aRwero eniT, im naTel Rames me vinatre mudmivi Zili. === magram Tendeba dila CemTvis anTebul rwmeniT, guli karnaxobs, Segonebas nu elferdebi, rasac vercerTi sulieri ver aRwers eniT, SenTan saubars me gulaxdils RmerTs vevedrebi. gaivlis dro da dro yvelafris TiTqos mkurnali Sens lamaz Tvalebs momanatrebs Tugind wamiTac, netav mesmodes me winaswar am niWis kvali da Senze fiqrSi me daviwve cecxlis aliTac. rac unda drom gaiaros, ZilSiac momenatreba... Seni lamazi Rimili saflavis karze Camyveba, quCas mivyvebi ocnebiT, aCrdili Seni damyveba, eg Seni guli CemTvisa, mijnurad mudam darCeba.

1994 w.

68

amjobinebda aq SenTan yofna

dilis riJraJze Tvaleb axelils me Seni saxe win xatad menTo. viT atmis totze yvavils afeTqils, veRar umzerde, rac unda enTo. Seni Tvalebis lamazi mzera guls ise kodavs, viTarca Zera, sul Tu eg aris, is bediswera, de CemTan darCes momavlis rwmena. uceb gaivlis eg dro, me vici da sanTeliviT uceb dadneba, RmerTo, gaxade es grZnoba mtkici, Torem TovliviT gulSi Cadneba. Sen dedofali yofilxar Turme, meToTxmetejer qveynad mosuli, is yma viyavi, amqveynad sul me, dRes rom miyureb da midevs suli. da Tu eRirsa sxva planetaze Sens sulTan erTad Cems sulsac yofna, yvela survils da fiqrebs netaze amjobinebda aq SenTan yofna. Tu kidev cxrajer unda movlinde, Tan Cemi sulic iq dagvxvda stumrad, ecade axlos aRar moxvide, Torem mokvdeba es guli Cumad.

1994 w.

69

Cavisvam mkerdSi

da roca ambob, rom suls aq toveb, ar miekaros niavi grili, me mas arasdros ar mivatoveb, ar gaitexo amisTvis Zili. ocnebis frTebiT vatareb mTebSi, ze yvela varskvlavs Semovatareb, rom daiRleba, Cavisvam mkerdSi da Cems fiqrebsac mas mivabareb.

1994 w.

CemTan Cemi dardebi

Tvals moswyurda Seni xilva, sulsac xom enatrebi, damijere gulis dardo, ZilSic ki melandebi. ra mSveneba Segqmna RmerTma suliT ze-Semkobili, ver vikmaro Seni sunTqva, mxolod Seni morCili. mudam CemTan megulebi, mainc ver gekarebi, Sens simSvides vemalebi, CemTan Cemi dardebi.

1995 w.

70

ase lamazi arsad ar dadis

mivdivar TiTqos Soreulidan da ialqnebi imoklebs manZils, dReni gasuli im warsulidan xSirad magonebs Sens lamaz mandils. TiTqos gembanze vdgevar da CemTvis... ver gaveqeci im fiqris nawils, Tu miviwyeba hqvia mas SenTvis, amaod vumzer me sulis napirs. da rom mjerodes sxvisi xar, sxvisi, uceb Sevxsnidi ialqnebs afrebs da amouxsnel mimarTulebiT gems gavatandi undobel talRebs. wyvdiadis seni me Tu mawvalebs, drom undobarma dabada CemSi, ra damaviwyebs Sens lamaz Tvalebs, grZnobis gamcemi rom aris SenSi. Cemi guli ki grZnobas karnaxobs, rom hpova igi aw da maradis, Cvens planetaze sxva suli misTvis ase lamazi arsad ar dadis.

1995 w. * * * rad eZeben eg Tvalebi erTmaneTs, miTxar, qalo, Torem guli Tan gaskdes, eg cxovreba xom ara hgavs erT maneTs, daxio da Seni dardic Tan gahyves.

1995 w.

71

ver manugeSebs me Seni mzera ocnebiT mTvrali videq sarkmelTan, Seni aCrdili gverds medga CemTan, Cven jvars viwerdiT wminda sanTlebTan, mjdari pirispir gangeba RmerTTan. Cemi ocnebis da netas wyaro vrcel okeaned gadamqcevia, moxval da metyvi, Sen giJi xaro, aba meti me ra damrCenia. ver manugeSebs me Seni mzera, eg mxolod guSin iyo saamo, RmerTma ara qmnas Sens gulSi wyena, fifqiviT davdne, esec gaamo... ver manugeSebs me Seni mzera, minda rom viyo Sens gulSi mudam, RmerTma ara qmnas Sens gulSi wyena, Torem wyaliviT gavqrebi rudan. ver manugeSebs me Seni mzera, eg cxrajer mosvlis mxolod Sen gjera, RmerTma ara qmnas Sens gulSi wyena, me Seni xilvis sxva dros ar mjera. Tu manugeSebs, me manugeSebs, Sen rom arsebob qveynad nugeSi da rom mogitan afeTqil fiqrebs, mjera Caikrav Tbilad ubeSi.

1999 w.

72

me Cems ganwyobas leqsebSi vriTmav

me Cems ganwyobas leqsebSi vriTmav da rasac vambob, guliT mCvevia, Sen ra gind cudad gamigo, kargo, me sxva gza Sensken ar damrCenia. zogjer zvarakad gagwiravs fiqric, wyvdiadma STanTqos navsayudeli, meteoriviT umiznod mihqri, iwvi sanTlad da Tavs ver uSveli. da am ocnebiT, grZnobiT anTebuls, gsurs rom ipovno burusSi sxivi, magram amaod daSvrebi mzeriT. Tuki Rrubelma dafara igi.

1995 w.

73

daimaxsovre Zvirfaso

Tvals moadgeba cremlebi, roca Sen guli gewvis. Tuki siyvaruls iwameb, xidze gadixar bewvis. Tavbru dagesxmis gasuli... wyarosTan mixval iqve da Tu rodesme miwameb, me SenTan uceb mixme. itireb, bevrsac itireb, Tvalebic agiwiTldeba, daimaxsovre Zvirfaso, siyvaruls movla sWirdeba. Seni cremlebis Wirime, minda me igi viwamo, Tuki odesme Sevecdebi, leSad mimiRos miwamo. me Seni sunTqvis gareSe mainc ar minda sicocxle, isic metia amqveynad, rac Sens gareSe vicocxle.

1996 w.

74

daviarebi salocavs

ekesiaSi mimavals cremliT mevseba Tvalebi, ubeSi midevs siwmindis gamomxatveli sanTlebi... da roca mival im saydars, im winaprebis salocavs, muxlmodrekili xatis win

angelozebi damlocavs.სს mere sanTlebiT Tan xelSi daviarebi salocavs, RmerTi amisTvis ki ara, wminda grZnobisTvis damlocavs. wminda sanTlebi iwvis, iwvis Cumad da nela, Sen rom ara xar CemTan, me mainc ara mjera. sanTlebs avanTeb xatis win, Cemi ocnebac enTeba, Sengan natkeni es guli arasdros ar gamrTeldeba.

1996 w.

75

magram idga SavTvaleba sxvisken

Semodgomis yviTel foTols hgavda, daserili siWabukis guli, TiTqos igi zamTars tyved mihyavda, viT morigi patimari suli. suli Cumad mihyveboda zamTars, da ugulod sadRac Jins iklavda, Camohgavda unayofo TavTavs, Tan aCrdiliT Zexorciels hgavda. wamlad, wamlad siyvaruli surda, mas mkurnali wyluliani wlebis, ar undoda zamTris TeTri gunda susxiani jojoxeTur grZnebis. karTan misuls jojoxeTis gzaze, kidev erTxel SeebrZola suli, da Semosva siymawvilis raSze, moqanculi da fermkrTali guli. gulmac igrZno mobruneba mzisken, TiTqos marTlac viRac imzers misken, da es raSic gauyena gzisken, magram idga SavTvaleba sxvisken.

1995 w.

76

iqneba Senac marTali iyav

iqneb hgonia me qals veZebdi, an masze xvevna menatreboda, Cemi sicocxle sanTliT geZebdi, Torem sxva qali meyvareboda. SeniT vaSene Cemi samoTxe, Sen erTi mosmiT is damingrie, me Sens nakvalevs roca vixseneb, Tvalze madgeba kurcxali mRvrie. iqneba Senac marTali iyav, mofereba da alersi geklo da uceb erT dRes sxva airCie, sul dagaviwyda gverdSi rom gexlo. ver avitane, ver gavuZeli, ver gavuZeli me am cdunebas, guli damewva akvnis bavSviviT, rom me mivende Sensa bunebas. me siyvarulis mona viyavi, Sen Semayvare igi sicocxle, me Tu momkali, Sen xom iqnebi, Sen xom darCebi, Cemo sicocxlev. me qandakebad gadaviqeci, saxeze sisxlis feri damedo, RmerTma ar momca me imis niWi, rom igi grZnoba adre gamegdo.

77

arcerTi wuTi ar micocxlia, rac gagicani, me Sens gareSe, exla ki droa im mwvervalidan CoqviT asulma freniT daveSve.

1995 w.

78

movedi da veRar gnaxe

geZebe da veRar gpove, guli ise momikvda, wyaros wyalTan rom misulxar, wyarosaviT

mominda. saxlSi wavel, Senze fiqrSi guli namiT momilba, im ocnebis totze vijeq, sanam qari movida. movida da Searxia eg lamazi totebi, yvela ise irxeoda, TiTqos iyvnen tolebi. qari ise gaZlierda, gaacala foTlebi, is lamazi da ocnebis gulis danatolebi. sicocxlis gza viwro aris ekliani bardebiT, ar egonos vinmes es gza mofenili vardebiT, lamaz-lamaz xaliCebiT an moxatul fardebiT, es gza mTas hgavs dagrexili da gaSlili

kalTebiT. vinc am gzaze siaruli Tavidanve irCia, TviT aRudga borotebas da Tan mospo is Wia, dafiqrdebi, gaocdebi, Sen vin raRa girCia, rac ki modis eg sikeTe, siyvarulis niWia. `aranlugma~ Tu leqsebis wera damawyebina, rom gaivlis saocnebo eg lamazi wlebia, rom gaxdeba `aranlugic~ sayvareli bebia, rom ara sTqvas, eg warsuli rogor damviwyebia. mitom davwer me am strofebs, gaaxsendes warsuli, sxva ra iyo, riT sunTqavda, TviT ra iyo asuli. misi guli ise sunTqavs, rogorc mTvare Casuli, mitoma aqvs am cxovrebas eg wertili dasmuli.

79

Sen iare im gediviT... mas rom uyvars sicocxle, me Tu veRar moveswari, Sen ki didxans icocxle. da Tu vinmem CagiSxama eg lamazi sicocxle, guls nu itken, genacvale, icocxle da icocxle...

1995 w.

* * *

vaglax Wirs ver moerio, gulSi gaCndes sevdiT wyluli, maSin kargad moigone gzebi Seni da warsuli.

1995 w.

80

wuxel RamiT

wuxel RamiT daginaxe sizmarSi, Seni cremli okeanes erTvoda, gameRviZa, Sen Cems gverdiT gigule, gigule da Seni sunTqvac mesmoda. rad gawire eg lamazi grZnoba Sen, vin dagwama codo-madli, raSi, Sen Tu awi Cemad veRar gigule, Cemi suli gafrindeba caSi. gafrindeba, gafrindeba jojoxeTs, mas sxva kari arsada aqvs caSi. daisjeba yvela guliT mijnuri, visac goni ekargeba TavSi. magram gamcem iqneb Tvalebs daswamo, rac rom moxda, Senac iyo bralSi, me xom Seni siyvarulis mjeroda, rad Camagde aRelvebul zRvaSi. me xom mainc Cemi Sxami mwamlavda, eSmakma rom maTqmevina maSin, mapatieb, RmerTi ar mapatiebs, Tu codvili mxolod me var maSin. maSin axlos, axlos ar gamikaro, nurc cremlebi mogadgeba TvalSi, igi cremli mware aris CemTvisac, mirCevnia erTi viyo bralSi.

1996 w.

81

wminda sanTlebi iwvis

risi viwamo qveynad xatis win CoqviT mdgarma, sanTlebs vanTeb da RmserTs vTxov, rom ar Camiqros qarma. rogor mjeroda Seni, Tavsac davdevdi ficiT, dRes rom Soridan gimzer, Tvali mevseba nisliT. wminda sanTlebi iwvis, maTi cremlebis mjera, Sen rom cremlebad iqce, ver damajereb, vera. sneulebaTa mkurnals amqveynad droni hqvia, yurSi Camesmis exlac, rac Sen saxeli gqvia. wadi, Sors wadi, kargo, Sens naiarevs virCen, SenTan rom viyo axlos, verasdros ver movirCen. wminda sanTlebi iwvis, maTi cremlebis mjera, Sen rom cremlebad iqce, ver damajereb, vera.

1996 w.

82

nostalgia

iqneb erTxel kvlav ixilo is sizmari, Sen rom Cumad momiyevi gazafxulze, Tovlis fifqi mosuliyo im dRes Turme, da is fifqi damcvenoda TeTrad gulze. salocavad miaSure eklesias, Sen xom ase momiyevi eg sizmari, da sanTlebi rom aminTe, maSin vigrZen, rom Sens gulSi raRac gaCnda boboqari. gaixsene, mxolod erTxel gaixsene, acremlebul TvalebiT rom damixate, me ki dResac ise miyvars Seni Tavi, pirvel dRes rom gulSi marad Cavixate. im xilvaSi aba kargad gaixsene, rogor Tbilad momexvie, momefere, Cemo kargo, eg sizmari gamimrTele, mxolod cxadSi, mxolod cxadSi damajere. Senze fiqri ar masvenebs anTebuli, da am fiqrSi icremleba igi guli, Sen ki albaT moiglove Cemi suli da mohkali is pirveli gazafxuli.

1996 w.

83

sanTlebi aminTeT

gaivlis es wlebi, TovliviT dadneba, Tvalebze cremlebi fifqiviT adneba, arCamqral siyvaruls imediT vatareb, Sens saxes, Sens Tvalebs varskvlavebs

vadareb. bavSviviT Rimili uxdeba Sens saxes, Sen ise gamwire, ver vambob Sens saxels, mjera rom iaras moarCens, dro rom qris, kvlav dadges darebi siTbos da niavqris. jojoxeTs magonebs uSenod sicocxle, miwame, kvlav moval me SenTan, icode, me Seni siTbo da alersi matarebs, uZilo Rameebs ra dalevs, ra dalevs... me Cems guls vendobi, iqnebac matyuebs, sanTlebi aminTeT, Camqrali sanTlebi, saydarSi xatis win daCoqils giwameb, oRond Sen dabrundi, dabrundi, miwame.

1996 w.

84

mainc moval gipovni

wlebis ukan Camqral grZnobas Sen aunTe alebi da im wlebma Tu gamwira, arc mas ar vemalebi. netav SenTan vyofiliyav, Sens Tvalebze memzera da leqsebi didi grZnobiT mxolod Senze mewera. me am grZnobis amocnoba ver SevZeli adrian, Cafiqrdebi, momiteveb, Tan Tu miwyen Zalian. axla minda mogefero, magram gzebi gveyreba, warsul dReTa mogonebiT guli sevdiT mevseba. okeane gadalaxo, mainc moval, gipovni, radgan grZnobas, ase mzians sxvagan versad vipovni. daviRale qarbuqiviT ocnebaTa zvirTebSi, RmerTs amas vTxov, Tu macocxlebs mxolod Senze fiqrebSi.

1996 w.

85

iqneb sul ar damenaxe iqneb sul ar damenaxe, drosac ise gaevlo, Senze fiqri, Cemo kargo, gulSic aRar gamevlo. iqneb gesmis Cemi sunTqva, Seni xilvis sadari, RmerTma nu qnas vinmes vkiTxo, Cemi suli sad ari. Sen ki, kargo, gamixseni Zveli naiarevi, wuxel RamiT damesizmra wablisferi Tvalebi. ase Cumad gaipara is lamazi wleebi, nuTu isev damimonebs darCenili dReebi. Seni fiqri iqneb dahqris im aziis tramalebs da vera grZnob aq Tu vinmes Senze fiqri awvalebs.

1996 w.

86

me ver gavZleb uSenod

kocna gTxove RviniT mTvralma, veRar Semomibede, mere Tmebi Segiswore, grZnobiT Semogibede. daviRale Senze fiqrSi, uSenoba Znelia, siyvarulis grZnobas Turme aseTi ram sCvevia. axali wlis dResaswauls xe amSvenebs naZvia, Cvens sicocxles ama qveynad siyvarulis ganZia. iqneb erTad moviaroT gelaTi da mTawminda, me uSenod eg sicocxle erTi wuTiT ar minda. minda erTi mogefero, zeca Semogataro, Seni siTbo da alersi wminda guliT vataro. iqneb erTxel makocnino, rom aminTo alebi, me xom mudam menatreba Seni Savi Tvalebi.

87

siyvaruli momaSvelo gadavardnils navidan, Torem wlebi siWabukis gafrinda da wavida. eg cxovreba mainc midis, mainc miqris uCenod, Sen xom ici, me ver gavZleb, me ver gavZleb uSenod.

1996 w.

88

vis sWirdeba piramida agebuli

siWabuke gavida da sizmrad qreba, Tanac guli Zveleburad aRar Tvreba, firosmanis sevda Tvalwin damidgeba, guli Cumad aenTeba, atirdeba.

im siyvaruls me ar veZeb arasodes, im warsulis tkivilic ki maviwydeba, iqneb sunTqva kvlav SevigrZno gazafxulis da zamTari kvlav mieces daviwyebas.

Torem droni qariSxalze Zlier qrian, varskvlavebi meteorad ibnevian, iqneb RmerTo Sen amixsna anTebulni ratom ase daundoblad iwvebian.

cas avxedav, oazisebs davuCoqeb, udabnoSi martonic rom ar qrebian da im evas da im adams vadRegrZeleb, erTmaneTis gareSec rom ar kvdebian.

Sen sicocxlev, CvenTan rad xar wamebuli, ekliani gzebi rad gaqvs dagebuli, vis sWirdeba piramida agebuli, misi xilviT Tu ar datkba Cemi suli.

Tu ocnebam frTebi misi ar gaSala, laJvard caze da gediviT ar imRera da Tu gulma sicocxleSi erTxel mainc wminda grZnobiT ar ilxina, ar iZgera.

CauketeT yvelam sevdas gulis kari, rom sikeTe iyos Cveni grZnobis fari da sicocxle Cqefdes rogorc wyaros wyali, ama qveynad nu dagvrCeba misi vali.

1996 w.

89

Cemi xatia

sevdian Tvalebs rad Semomacqer, eg Cemi guli isec mTvralia, ar daijero, Cemo Zvirfaso, rom yvelaferi Cemi bralia. yoveli wami Sengan maSorebs, wlebi gadian, wlebi gadian da anTebuli kelaptariviT is siyvaruli mainc anTia. Rvinos davlev da mogeferebi, Seni Tvalebi Cemi xatia, Tvalebs davxuWav, gulSi Cagikrav da es sizmaric Cemi xatia. me firosmanis sevdam Semipyro, dRes Cavixede mis ukvdav sulSi, siyvarulisTvis dabadebulma ar gaikara sxva grZnoba gulSi. mfarvel angelozs Semovavedreb, wminda siyvaruls am qveyanaze, rom siyvaruli dedamiwaze varsklavebs hgavdes anTebul caze.

1996 w.

90

roca mTvrali var

roca mTvrali var, kargo, ratom dageZeb, ici? Senze fiqrebi maTbobs, Sens siyvarulSi viwvi... ratom damkarge, kargo, me sad gipovno awi, guSin Sens gverdiT viyav is bednieri kaci. Tasebs Sevavseb RviniT, Sens sadRegrZelos davlev da Cems sicocxles, kargo, Senze fiqrebSi gavlev. roca vixseneb warsuls, tiali wlebi midis, Sen isev sulSi zixar da guli mainc mimdis. ratom damkarge, kargo, me sad gipovno awi, an rad dageZeb netav, es ganwiruli kaci...

1996 w.

91

siyvarulis dRe

siyvarulis dRe weliwadSi erTxel vina sTqva, siyvarulisTvis weliwadSi yvela dRe ari, siyvarulisTvis ar arsebobs, arc dro arc xani, guli gaxseniT da siyvaruls gauReT kari. me ia miyvars, zogs enZela, zogsac SroSani, siyvarulisgan siZulvili marTlac Sors aris, iloceT mudam siyvarulis wminda grZnobaze, rom Cven gvdagavdes, siyvarulis cisferi ali. pirvel siyvaruls siymawvilis SfoTian wlebis, ra dagvaviwyebs TeTr Rameebs uZilo sityvis, erTi ram mjera, unazesi im RmerTis niWis, marTal siyvaruls ar sWirdeba mtkiceba ficis. usiyvarulo ar arsebobs arc erTi leqsi, usiyvarulod vin aago igi taZari, vefxistyaosans vin Seqmnida usiyvarulod, SoTas da vaJas muzis qnari aba sad ari. yvelas gisurvebT erTgulebas uflisa RvTisa wmindaTa-wmida rom gfaravdeT WirSi da lxinSi, ise gagevloT am cxovrebis golgoTas gzebi, rom siyvaruli gagyolodeT samoTxe tkbilSi.

1998 w.

92

cisferTvaleba qalo

cisferTvaleba qalo, rad Semayvare Tavi, me Seni xilvis Semdeg ver gavaxile Tvali. ase mgonia qveynad erTi xar, erTad-erTi, Tu ratom Semiyvardi, amas gamigebs RmerTi. mTvrali var, mTvrali-mTvrali, daviarebi mTvrali, radgan sul Tvalwin midgas cisferTvaleba qali. ratom xar ase Cumi, xom ar gatkine guli, iqneb Sen sul sxva giyvars da mitom gewvis suli. roca sevdians gxedav, axlos ar gekarebi, magram icode kargo me sul Sen menatrebi. mTvrali var, mTvrali-mTvrali, daviarebi mTvrali, netav sad aris exla Cemi ocnebis qali.

1998 w.

93

Cemo cicinaTelav

anTebuli koconi xar da arasdros ar qrebi, uSenobas ver avitan, sizmariviT gavqrebi. iqneb fiqrob damekargo, me mainc iq gavCndebi, jojoxeTSic rom waxvide, sanTlad gverdSi davdgebi. eg ra siTbo da alersi fanteliviT gadmogdis, mainc mwyurvals vemsgavsebi, mec ar vici ra momdis. da rom gxedav afeTqebuls, rogorc yvavils atmisas, amas vnatrob TeTr RameSic SenTan yofna maRirsa. anTebuli koconi xar, bneli Ramis naTeba, ciskris varskvlavs emsgavsebi, Cemo cicinaTelav. ialbuzzec rom avide, Seni siTbo gamaTbobs, wyali masva, wyaros wyali, RvinosaviT damaTrobs.

2001 w.

94

ar vitkinoT gulia

vinc miyvarda ama qveynad, yvelam guli matkina, vinc megobrad davigule, cremli Rvarad madina. Sen rad javrob, Cemo kargo, RmerTs am qveynad ar vici, mec SensaviT im koconSi sanTeliviT daviwvi. eg cxovreba me magonebs dariSxans, wuTisofel gamcilebel qariSxals da cxovreba gabrielas baRidan, vxedav darCa asawyobi Tavidan. Tu sikeTes Tesav, isic icode, da nu yvedrob, cecxlis alSic iwvode, ukvdaveba mTawmindaze ar aris, ukvdaveba zecaSia, icode. Tuki RmerTma ar gawira, moabruna sneuli, mova, mova, Cagekreba Seni gadareuli. eg cxovreba naadrevad ar vitkinoT gulia, Semodgoma da zamTari ufro saamuria.

2001 w.

95

anTebuli sanTlebi

eklesiis gumbaTebze jvari naTobs naTeba, netav, qalo, rad miCrdilavs, yvelgan Seni xateba.

Rvino masviT maTrobela, rom gamiqres dardebi, Torem damwvavs me ucecxlod, qalov, Seni Tvalebi.

eklesiis gumbaTebi, anTebuli sanTlebi, eklian gzebs gvikafaven, sveticxovlis saZvlebi.

maS, davlioT sadRegrZelo, wminda siyvarulisa, adamis da evas modgmis, wamebuli sulisa.

angelozad movlenilxar, siosaviT narnari, iqneb miTxra, Seni guli, visTan aris, sad ari.

davangrio im qajeTis cixe koSkis sangari, Caumqrali gamovstaco, Cemi gulis baRnari.

2001 w.

96

uflis rwmeniT davinamo

TibaTvis Tves moevlina, visTvis qeTi, visTvis mano, mkaTaTves rom moevlina, misTvis cremlad davinamo. mariamobis Tves gaCnda, CemTa SvilTa deda amo, yvelam ise Caiqrola, meteoris qrolvis wamo. RmerTma netav rad marguna eg wyaloba, an ris gamo, iqneb sulis gansawmendad uflis rwmeniT davinamo. iqneb birTvad momivlina, evas rjuli wami-wamo, ar davece leSisaTvis, maTi suliT ar viamo. sxva salocavs mivaSuro, miwieri sxva viwamo, sanam droa gamovfxizlde, sikvdilis Jams ar vinano. muxlmoyrili salocavebs, mivaSuro sulis gamo, amqveyniur siamisTvis, cremlad aRar daviRvaro.

97

rom udabnos mSier-mwyurvals, mxolod sulma gamitanos, Jamis mosvlis gardasaxvis, maRla RmerTma amiyvanos. ekliani gzebi dResac wuxil damrCa amis gamo, da is RmerTi STagvagonebs, salocavi ra viwamo. rom golgoTa gasavleli TavaweviT gaiaro, ofli sisxlad mogdiodes, magram sxva gziT ar iaro.

27 ivlisi 2001 w.

98

pirvel gazafxuls

saukunis da aTaswleulis pirvel gazafxuls moveferebi, iqneb sul sxva rig iqmnas yoveli, sxva rig ayvavdes mTa da velebi.

iqneb gamoCndes vefxistyaosnis megobrobis da grZnobis gmirebi, adamis modgmam igrZnos yoveli, rogor feTqdeba xeTa kvirtebi.

gazafxulia irgvliv yvavilTa da netarebis gvaTrobs surneli, vin aris qveynad uaryos igi da rom ar iyos misi msurveli.

pirvel gazafxuls me qarTvel dedas da qarTvel qalebs mivulocavdi, wrfelad etaroT qalis mandili, eris saxeliT maT davlocavdi.

da mere yvela planetis qalebs me vusurvebdi ganTiads mzians, ulev sixaruls keTil grZnobebis baRSi dakrefil yvavilebs cvrians.

3 martia, gilocavT yvelas aTaswleulis pirvel gazafxuls, sulis simSvide gqonodeT burjad da sixaruli maradJams Tqvens guls.

2001 w.

99

mxolod RmerTi Seiyvare

siyvaruliT mxolod RmerTi Seiyvare, siZulvili aravisi gqondes gulSi, Torem ise gaatareb wuTisofels, sevda aRar mogSordeba RvTis wil sulSi.

davrdomili Tu Semogxvda Sara-gzaze, misi wyluli gulTan unda miitano, da Tu SesZleb TanagrZnobiT mxari misce, ecade, rom taZris gzasTan miiyvano. yovel tkivils RvTis gangebas mivawerdeT, gvixarodes, ise, rogorc arasodes, morCil viyvneT da vemadlobdeT amisaTvis, radgan codvis gansawmendad gvkarnaxobdes. rom mudamJams vimeoroT Cumad gulSi, yvela miyvars, aravisi ar mwyenia, wylulebsa da im iarebs mogiSuSebs, sinanulis cremli Tuki dagdenia. maSin Zes da deda RvTisas davuCoqoT, rom kurTxeva mogvces, tanjva sixarulSi, da miwier sicocxleSi maTgan madli, gvecvrebodes da gvfaravdes siyvarulSi.

2001 w.

100

Semodgomis qari Semodgomis qari isev zuzunebs, yviTel foTlebs gulSi ikravs mTa-bari, siWabuke ise uceb gafrinda, ver vipove Cemi gulis saydari. iqneb sadRac Soriaxlo Srialebs, im qariviT gverds mivlis da dadis, Semavedre ufals deda mariam, Torem droni daundoblad gadis. fanteliviT cviva xeebs foTlebi, yviTel foTlebs afrialebs qari, sad veZebo, an sad vpovo netavi, an arada, vis gavuRo kari. Semodgomis qari sadRac zuzunebs, zamTris SiSi albaT masac dasdevs, mec ar vici ra maSinebs amqveynad, magram fiqri aCrdiliviT damdevs. fanteliviT cviva xeebs foTlebi, yviTel foTlebs afrialebs qari, iqneb, RmerTo, Semaxvedro odesme, da gamiRo wrfeli grZnobis kari.

2001 w.

101

TeTri raSiT mohyavda Rame ise gadavida, ciskars ufro mohgavda, Seni saxe muzas leqsSi TeTri raSiT mohyavda, ise swrafad mofrinavda, ise Zlier borgavda, albaT iyo dedofali, saqarTvelos rom hyavda. TibaTvisTvis mcxunvareba galaktions aTrobda, Seni kdemamosileba cisartyelas akrTobda, muza imdens mkarnaxobda, muza imdens marTobda, TiTqos vsvamdi vazis naJurs, Tanac Zlier maTrobda. vazis lerwams dagamsgavsa RvTiv bunebis kanonma, mag Sens gverdiT zRaparia, yvela prima madona, muzam gulSi gaiara da vardisfer gaJona, dailocos Senma tkbilma da mSobelma patronma. niWic uxvad mogafina suliwmidis madliTa, Tumc eklian gvirgvins mohgavs rac rom ganvle wamiTa, netav mergos eg sasmisi wuTisoflis jamiTa, davlio da avyve Saras zeciuri mamisa. Rame ise gadavida, aCrdil Tvalwin medeqi, exla mivxvdi warsul wlebis Tu ra iyo Sedegi, im sionTan davuCoqe wamebul xids metexis da im taZars davstrialeb, rogorc melqisedeki.

2003 w.

102

sicocxlis wyarov

Sen ise hSveni ia sicocxles, rogorc gazafxuls lerwmebis feTqva, rogorc tramalebs JuJuna wvima da rogorc qalwuls vnebis dros kvnesa. davrdomils sevdiT, momakvdavs seniT jojoxeTidan moabrunebdi da mxolod erTi Rimili SeniT TviT mefistoles Seacbunebdi. Sen ise hSveni ia sicocxles, uSenod igi cru lamparia, xeTa Sriali Ramis wyvdiadSi, Seni xilvisgan grZnobiT mTvralia. jvarT-amaRnebas movlenils, kargo, gfaravdes misi madli da zena, lamazo qalo, mSvenierebav, muza xar leqsis da misi ena. ocnebis wyarov, gamiRe kari, ar avRkvecilvar sanamde berad, Torem momvardes udabnos qari da Cems ocnebebs gahfantavs velad.

2008 w.

103

vagoni qroda vagoni qroda, Seni Tvalebis silamaze Cems sulSi axal sicocxles Sobda. vagoni qroda da qaric qroda, giorgobisTve risxvas lamobda, mze cis morbenal RrublebSi krToda da Cemi guli Sens sunTqvas grZnobda. vagoni qroda, cisfer bilikebs Cemi ocnebac Tan mihyveboda, gafiTrul titebs gulis tatamze saso sicocxlis ubrundeboda. vagoni miqris, gonebas micris, eSmas xarxari _ ugirglo Rrjena, me ki imav dros uZirod miTrevs Seni Tvalebis morCili mzera. saiT miqrian udabnos gzebi, warsawymendeli macdur-veranni, sad mimaqrolebs, netav vicode, Cemi lurja da Cemi merani. vagoni qroda, baqansac xmobda, suli gancdisgan tkivilsac grZnobda da am laqia wuTisofelSi saSvelad mxolod RvTismSobels xmobda.

2008 w.

104

mawvalebs Seni bageni

damewyo TeTri Rameni, sevda moreul dardisa, mawvales Seni bageni xilvad namTxvevi Ramisa. isev manaTebs Tvalebi, pir-bage saro saxisa, riT vamcno Cemi wuxili Suqsa mofenils mTvarisa. damibeCava soflisa waRma-ukuRma trialma, damawyebina bodvebi gulma veranma tialma. wuTisofelo, Sen vinca mogendo, guliT geZia, yvela mogude, moaxrCve, gaxade eSmas kerZia. Seni aCrdili Tan damdevs, viT kravsa mglebis xrovao, Senc mogkiTxaven yovelsa, roca msajuli movao.

2008 w.

105

veRar movToke es guli

ver vxvdebi, ratom ver vuZleb Seni Tvalebis mzerasa, veRar movToke eg guli, mainc mibrZanebs cqerasa. ra vqna, ra bedi viwio, veRar vuSvele Tavsao, Sen maRla-maRla miiwev, me dabla veZeb wyalsao. tial-WaRara gzad migebs kldeTa xriokTa xlarTsao, guli sagules qariSxlobs, ar davTmob me am qalsao. giJia gadareuli, ver dauteveb wamsao, Segiyvara da umuxTle, mainc ar gavnebs avsao. daelodeba im drosa, sinanuls miscem Tavsao, mere gaqreba uCumrad, miefareba Tvalsao. asea wuTisofelic, mwaresa urevs Taflsao, tanjva-wamebiT gimzadebs maradisobis saxlsao.

2012 w.

106

moRerebuli yeli

ver gagimxile gulisnadebi im siymawvilis Cemi, ver gagimxile is anTebuli, rom mqonda trfoba Seni. wlebma tialma gadaiara, iara madevs gulze, netav im drosa Seni xateba merCia ukvdav sulze. rogorc aCrdili ise damsdevda, Seni lamazi saxe, da is adgili menatreboda, pirvelac sadac gnaxe. wasuli wlebi qarma waiRo, damrCa naTeli feri, isev manaTebs Seni saxe da moRerebuli yeli. da Tu odesme kvlav Semxvdi, qalo, mijnuris trfobiT cxeliT, irmis wyurviliT migeaxlebi, Cagikrav mkerdSi wrfeliT...

2012 w.

107

kalTa cremlebiT ivseba

qalav, rad icxeb Tvalebze ferumarilis cximsao, Sen isemc hgavxar mTvaresa da mziT movardnil sxivsao. an rad Caicmev kabasa moklesa mkerd-SiSvlianso, aTasis gulis mbilwavsa, urcxvsa da codo-frTianso. fer-umariliT daferav Tval-wamwam bage-saxesa, sodomis keTildReobiT siyvaruls ugeb maxesa. arc adaT-wesebs dagvidev, arca rjulisa mcnebasa, mihyvebi warsawymendelis wuTisoflisa nebasa. sad gaqra qarTvel qalebis kdema, pativi, Rirseba, Cveni Semyure RvTismSoblis kalTa cremlebiT ivseba. mariam magdalinelis suli gfaravdeT yvelasa, RmerTsa vTxov Cemi qarTvelis boloJams gadarCenasa.

2012 w.

108

megobruli SarJi, milocvebi

da mogonenbebi

109

aleqsandres

eliaobas movlenils Segarqves leqso biWia, zenam gangebis madliTa mogmadla bevri niWia. suxiSvilebsac iqneba aswavlo erTi fandia, iseTi kaci izrdebi, me rom giyureb _ naRdia! ufros Zmebs xSirad jiqaob, bevrjerac dagirbevia, vai dedasa imasa, vinc magaT axirebia. dabadebis dRes gilocav, leqsi xar, leqso, leqsia, mamulis sadarajoze Senc myavxar erTi mwyemsia.

2 agvisto 2015 წ.

110

aleqsandres (sandros) (Cems naTluls)

am WiWyina martis TveSi, gaCnda sandro biWia, bavSvobidan rom dahyveba, sul celqobis niWia. erTxel CumaT gagvepara, rogorc irems nukria, mogvatara me da tarass, naxalovka-kukia. erisions dRes amSvenebs misi solo wriuli, aWaruli, yazbeguri, qarTuli Tu mTiuli. gaizarde Cemo sandro, mokaSkaSe mnaTia, da arasdros dagaviwydes, sxvebTan erTad naTlia.

12 marti 2015 w.

111

9 wlis giorgi ZiZigurs Cemo giorgi, me davinaxe patara eris gaqvs didi guli. Tuki ar kvdeba RRes saqarTvelo, SenisTanebiT mas udgas suli. mjera izrdebi mamulisaTvis egre lamazi medroSe biWi da im kalmisa xmaliviT basris madli hqonodes ubadlo niWis. male dadgeba axali weli, axal leqsebsac movismen Sengan, Sen ki Zmobilo patara leqsi dRes samaxsovrod miiRe Cemgan.

1996 წ.

112

Tengiz Turqias xsovnas (naTlias)

naTli maxsovs Seni saxe, moRimare Tvalebi, rom giyvarda maspinZloba, stumris, gulis karebiT, rom giyvarda qarTveloba, Cveni mama-papaTi. qristes rjulsa maziare, wesiTa da adaTiT. miyvars Seni gaxseneba, roca sevda mereva, da taZarSi sanTlebs vanTeb, cremli cvarad meRvreba. ise waxvel am qveynidan, guli veRar vijereT, da nayofi ama soflis, erTad veRar vigemeT. zecas RmerTi Segewios, naTliscemis jvariTa, aq ki svamdnen mogonebas, Senis, savse jamiTa. Tebervali 1996 w.

113

guram xaxutaSvilis xsovnas

sikvdilis karze misuli ar meSinoda mudam, sicocxle meti miyvarda, mitom miSvele, guram. gverdSi medeqi ZmasaviT, mitom mitiris guli, Sen ar mokvdebi arasdros, sanam midgia suli. yvelam gitira cremlebiT, me ar viyavi erTi, kaci iyavi amqveynad, gfaravdes zecas RmerTi.. visac aRsovxar megobrebs, albaT Segrovdes mrevli, suyvelas guli Sestkiva, Tvali evsebaT cremliT. sanTlad enTeba saxeli, kelaptariviT mudam, ardaviwyeba Sens saxels, Zmad Seficulo, guram.

1996 w.

114

cotne _ iuri tuRuSs me patara qarTveli var, RvTis moSiSi moyvaruli, Cemi turfa saqarTvelo aris koxtad moqarguli. RvTismSoblisa wilxvdomili mergo miwa da mamuli, winaparTa sisxliT aris gapoxili, danamuli. Cemo dedav, Cveno dedav, vxedav irgvliv rom binddeba, magram bindSi is jvarcmuli saqarTvelo gabrwyindeba.

7 oqtomberi 2008 w.

115

sergi kvantalians sergi, babu genacvale, Cemo laRo biWo, saqarTvelos momavalo, RvTis ganZo da niWo. mixaria Sen rom myavxar lamazi da nazi, genacvalos Sen babua aleqsandre lazi. minda viyo me Sens gverdSi, gefero da gzardo, muxanaTi sofelia, arc es daidardo. me xilvaSi ukve vxedav Sens tatamze gasvlas da urdoTa beWebs vxedav im tatamze gasvras. babu, kvercxeb genacvale, Cemo laRo biWo, saqarTvelos momavalo, RvTis ganZo da niWo.. dabadebis dRes gilocav, sami wlis xar, babu da Cvens Soris wyenas marad unda davsdoT tabu.

23 ianvari 2012 w.

116

konstantine „qarTvels“ dekanoz lekiSvils

(kukiis wm. ninos eklesiis winamZRvars)

ubralo mokvdavs sad ZalmiZs Tqvenze leqsisa werao, magram Tu guliT moginda, mogeSveleba zenao. ufali brZanebs, gaxsovdeT! Tu SemidgebiT Tqvenao, ar agcildebaT soflisgan gmoba, kicxva da devnao. gausaZlisi ram aris bnelT mociqulTa fstvenao, ocdaaT vercxlad gayiduls rogori ginda Tmenao. cisa da miwis despanad Tqven dagadginaT zenama, wyaloba RvTisgan naboZi viTar aRweros enama. `konstantine dids~ ufalma mohmadla `jvriTa~ wyaloba. xmliTa Semusra mtarvalni, ra zeciT esma galoba. Sen ki moZRvaro, jvriT ebrZvi farisevelTa modgmasa, miyvars, vsuldgmulob, mixaris, rac papaTagan mogvdgamsa.

117

dabadebis dRes gilocavT mrevlis saxeliT ninosa. TqvenisTanebiT samSoblom arasdros moiwyinosa.

27 Tebervali 2012 w.

118

poet eTer gogeSvil-isakaZes (Cems dasa da mamuliSvils) aTasSi erTi Tu aris Tqvenebr mebrZoli sulisa, samSoblosaTvis erTguli, misTvis damTbobi gulisa. guriis kalTas movlenils, ZirZveli kolxeTisao, nenam gSva RvinobisTveSi, ocdaxuT oqtombrisao. Tqveni leqsebis kiTxvis dros Jruantel mamdis tansao, gordasa vferav da vlesav mtrisa Semmusvrel xmalsao. winaparT sisxliT gapoxil da ofliT morwyul qvazeda, mjera giRvriaT cremlebi gul-dakodilis xmazeda. eg Cveni miwa mamuli deda RvTismSoblis xvedria, misi augad xseneba veravis gaubedia. imperiebi gamqralan mimtaceblebi qveynisa, gangeba arvis SearCens gamkiTxavs sxvisi bedisa.

119

celiT celavdnen qarTvelebs, moyvasisa da mtrisao, magram veraras gvaklebdnen, kalTa gvfaravda RvTisao. dabadebis dRes gilocav, Sevsvam naJursa vazisa, gTxov sulgrZelobiT miiRo locva kolxeli lazisa.

25 oqtomberi 2013 w.

120

eTer dao

tao-klarjeTs, saingilos Sen rom cremli giRvria, eg cxovreba samSoblosi siyvaruliT givlia.

sad mercxlebi Semogebnen Cvenze monatrebuli, taos irmebs nukri axldaT qedze yelmoRebulni.

Sen ki sevdiT mtredebs scqerdi, Camomsxdarebs qvazeda, uxarodaT rom ubnobdiT monatrebul xmazeda. winaparTa Zvlebi naxe, saflavT mimofantuli, am SaiTnebs rogor undaT wagvilekon qarTuli.

magram ara, ar moxdeba iberT gadaSeneba, jvarze gakruls gvelodeba gabrwyineba, mSveneba.

vaxtang mefes dRes ixsenebs suliT naRdi qarTveli, RmerTo, iverT mouvline qristes rjulis mmarTveli.

Sen ki, dao, dagilocos zenam garja, amagi, arasodes dagleodes siyvarulis maragi.

2014 w.

121

poet zurab gorgilaZis xsovnas

Sens mamuls zurab, tura-mela Semosevia, Tavis winapris nabodvari Semolevia, akakis boRmiT nanerwyvi auloknia, ugono moyvass aRasaTvis dauloknia. bolo Jamia, farisevlebs amosdiT kudi, cotani davrCiT, visac kidev axuravs qudi, nu geSinian, mcired sawymsos gvmoZRvravs ieso, demoniT pyrobil Roris koltsac Tvisi miuzRo. pirvelwodebuls trapizoniT Semouvlia, uqadagia aTi mcneba _ qristes rjulia, vnebaTa Soris uborotes mtroba Suria, iudas modgmis damTrgunveli isev fulia. riT ver gaZexiT, ubadrukno, eSmas msaxurno, saiT gascqeriT Tqvens momavals, Tvalaxveulno, an rogor gindaT mas miagnoT, gzaabneulno, RmerTma SegindoT eg codvebi gonamRvreulno. veRar SemusravT, saqarTvelo dedis xvedria da qristesaviT jvarze gakvra misi bedia, mkvdreTiT aRdgoma, viT lazares, axlo jeria da iberiis gabrwyinebac damijeria.

2010 w.

122

zaza gorgilaZes `uflisas~

Soba dilas dedam gSoba gorgilaZis biWia, RmerTmac uxvad mogafina sul feradi niWia.

yrmobis wlebi ise ganvle azas spetak kalTaSi, ar gigrZvnia Sen sicive arasodes zamTarSi.

mama TqvenTvis ver iclida, qveynis bediT gminnavs da naRvawi axla misi sanTeliviT brwyinavs.

SeniT jer ver daikvexnis mama maRliT caSi, daixsome eg sofeli... mwares urevs TaflSi.

iqneb ojaxs moekido, xeli hkido welSi, kvlav gaivsos marani da Rvino gvesxas qvevrSi.

dabadebis dRes gilocavs egriseli lazi, Sens saxelze unda davrgo kolxeTs erTi vazi.

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wuTisofels, Cemo Zmao, verc veravin sZlevda, Seni wasvliT dagvitove naRveli da sevda.

2011-14 ww.

123

Jurnal `pres-premieris~ redaqtors qeTevan sesiaSvils

siyvarulis dRe vina sTqva TxuTmeti aprilisao, an cxoveliviT elodo gZnobas am erTi dRisao. yvela dRe RmerTsa ekuTvnis da kacTa misgan qmnilsao, am wrfeli siyvaruliTa dadian moSiSn RvTisao. mariam iyo mamida mefisa daviTisao, gangebiT qmnili uebro, mrwamsiT moSiSi RvTisao. ori keisris sarecels iyofda basilisao, mainc ver daTvra, mijnuri irCia mSobel mxrisao. da Seiyvara grZnobiTa sardali Zmis-wulisao, aznaur iyo ucixo, vaJkaci iberT mxrisao. Sen rad indomeb, qeTevan, colobas keisrisao, rom nostalgias miece, Semdgom kvlav mSobel mxrisao.

124

asjer gazome da erTxel dahkar maxvili xmlisao, Torema gvian daurCes enis moTokva kbilsao. premierelebs dagCemdaT varskvlavTa krefa cisao, sul mcire kldesTan Widili, dapyroba mwvervalsao. rom warmovidgen Tqvens gverdiT Tqvens respondentebs frTxilsao, albaT kalamis aCrdilic hgoniaT wveti xmlisao. Seyvarebulsa qarTvelsa talRa ver apobs zRvisao, veRar akavebs enguri guls TaraS emxvarisao. tatos meranic gaurbis sofels fandebis mtrisao, tano-tatano, rad irCev mxares keisris mxrisao. qarTveli qalis mSveneba alRobs guls zogjer qvisao, `mis-msoflios~-ac daCrdilavs Seni Tvalebis mzrisao.

125

Sen momiteve, ufalo, gavkadnierde qlisao, es Cemi mxare xom aris mariam RvTismSoblisao. maS, dagilocav, Zvirfaso, momavals Seni dRisao, leqsi ki `SarJad~ miiRe erTi kolxeli Zmisao.

aprili 2005 w.

126

Jurnal `pres-premieris~ redaqtoris moadgiles qeTi yvelaSvils

virTxis welSi daibadeT, qalwulobiT iwerT niSnebs da ver itanT ama soflad wuTisoflis damqcev virTxebs. veRar itanT Cveni qveynis Sav-bnel ZalTa wyvdiad fiqrebs da gamogaqvT sinaTleze Canafiqri rac aqvT flidebs. iCqarian Tqveni SiSiT, agroveben oqros filebs, yiduloben sazRvargareT pawa qoxebs da did vilebs. samgzavrisad CemodnebSi ilageben windebs Tbilebs, magram is ki ar uwyian... bolos yvela daafqvilebs. Tqven ki `fanad~ moevlineT gasaWirSi presis mkixvels, amitomac ver gitanen uzneoni kreWen kbilebs. maRla-maRla rom adixarT, `dokumenturs~ kribavT firebs, paeqrobas rad ucxadebT Tqvens kolega `qeTi pirvels~.

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is `keisars~ eZebs sadRac, Tqven prezidents da mis fiqrebs, Tuki didxans gaajanjlebT, Tqvens ocnebebs daafifqebs. amiT dagemSvidobebiT, „SarJi“ ar hgavs „paterikebs“, dagilocavT, wrfel ocnebebs, uwyinar da lamaz fiqrebs.

aprili 2005 w.

128

Cems lamaz Svilebs

Tqven rom ar myavdeT, Svilebo, moSiSni RvTisa niWisa, Tqven rom ar iyoT dedebi mtrisa Semusvrel biWisa. ra gamaZlebda amqveynad datanjuls codo dardiTa, TqveniT var, TqveniT meamis, davdivar RvTisa madliTa. wuTisodeli bnelia, bnelis ZalebiT moculi, sikeTes veras daaklebs borotisagan mosuli. bolo Jamia, Svilebo, vilocoT wrfeli guliTa, vai dedasa imaTsa, vinc dadis boRma-SuriTa. ieso jvarze ewama, Cveni codvebis mxsnelada, tanjva tkivilis gareSe, ver gadavrCebiT verada. iqnebac bevrjer gatkineT, mosiyvarule gulia, tanjvaSi jvarcmiT iwrToba, Cveni ukvdavi sulia.

129

de aResrulos yoveli, gangebiT rac gviweria, RvTismSoblis kalTa gfaravdeT, gemusroT sulis mteria.

2009 w.

130

esma _ qali

iqneb Tovda, iqneb qroda, dekembrisTvis idga dari, camet ricxvSi saqarTvelos, moevlina esma qali. kolxeTia misi nanas, misi babas miwa-wyali, da sruliad saqarTvelo, rogorc xati saficari. da vinc pirvel iqadaga lazTa Soris mowifulad, RvTismSoblisgan iyo gzavnil, is andria mociqulad. da vinc pirvel moaSena, salocavi saxli RvTisa, iyo vaxtang gorgasali, deda-boZi Tbilisisa. andrias da vaxtang mefis, xsenebis dRes gaCndi kargo, imaT rwmenas gisurvebdi, RvTis saTnos da saamayos. dabadebis dRes gilocav, im lamazi Sobis Tvisa, uRrublo ca dagnaTodes, ukeTesi momavlisa.

13 dekemberi 2006 w.

131

Tamuna

giorgobis Tves Sobilxar, Sobis Tvis mogdis madlio, wuTisofelma garguna, bevri cremli da dardio.

mamis tkiviliT cremlebi ar SegSrobia Tvalzeo, dedac imav gzas auyva, zecaSi mamis kvalzeo.

mjera rom maTi sulebi, RmerTsa vedrian Senzeo, geferebian ZilSiac, sxedan sareclis gverdzeo.

meoxad RvTismSobeli hyavs qveynad qarTvelsa ersao, ar SeuSinde sofelsa, ar gahyve missa gzebsao.

guliT miage pativi, xsovnas dedis da mamisa, rom ginaTebdes amqveynad, Suqi mzisa da mTvarisa.

arc patara xar, arc didi, Tumc bevri ram gaqvs ganvlili, Tamar qaliviT getaros qarTveli qalis mandili.

dabadebis dRes gilocav! mudam menaxeT mziani, RvTismSoblis kalTa gfaravdeT, meoxi maradiani...

2006 w.

132

gigi oqropiriZes

jer ver gicnob, magram leqsi movismine Seni, gavifiqre meyvseulad, moyvasia Cveni. radgan ukve, jerac ymawvils, wyluli gadevs gulze, Seni qveynis momavalze fiqrob rogorc sulze. da rom Sescqer Sens mamulSi urjuloTa gniass, afxazeTs da samaCablos, sxva droSebis frials. gulSi ficxi gagielvebs, rogorc elva-mexi, da Zma iyo is iuda, rom Segvikra fexi. magram ara, ar Sedrkeba! iberT Zu da xvadi! gvirabs bolos ukve moCans Cveni ganTiadi. `raca RmerTsa ara swaddles.~ ar iqneba, gigi, mwuxarebis Jamsa Secvlis, sxarulis rigi.

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camet apniss movlenixar, Zlieri da nazi, dabadebis dRes gilocavs, egriseli lazi. da Senc moymev nayofi xar, im qarTuli Teslis, vinac unda gaagrZelos, wera SoTas leqsis...

2012 w.

134

levan

rad mohkali dedis guli, rad daferfle ase, mkaTaTves rom auyevi sasufevlis gzasve. muxlmoyrili daginaxes, xatebis win mdgari, da Tu RmerTi Seiyvare, Sen ara xar mkvdari. bevri cremli daiRvara, bevric gulSi tiris, Zneli aris wuTisoflad datireba Svilis. momiteve, Cemo levan, Tu vera vTqvi ise, magram mosaxsenebelSi maxsendebi myisve. zecas RmerTi Segewios angelosTa dasiT, aq ki Sensa mosagonars svamdnen savse TasiT.

17 ivlisi 2013 w.

135

Tamar meliqiZes (mama akakis qaliSvils)

saqarTveloSi ibadebodnen da isev masve swiravdnen Tavsa, samoTxis dari mamulisaTvis da RvTis winaSe ixdidnen valsa. dRes saqarTvelo dafleTilia, aTas moSurnes uamebs Tvalsa, maqvs sasoeba zeciur mamis, lazaresaviT aRadgens massa. Sen afxazeTSi dabadebulxar, odes egrisis zRvispira barsa, mociqulTa swors somon kananels manda aqvs bina, darajad dgasa. darajad dganan asi aTasni, qristes rjulisTvis rom debdnen Tavsa, nikofsiidan darubandamde kvlavac gadascems mamali bansa. dabadebis dRes gilocav, Tamar! anton martyoflis xsenebis dResa, rom caTa Sina uflis wiaRSi masaviT naTliT emsgavsoT mzesa.

2010 w.

136

TaTia abulaZes

(dabadebis dRes 7 oqtomberi)

RvinobisTves movlenila, egriss qali TaTia, moWikWike mercxali da mSoblis gulis xatia. miTxres kargad swavlobs qali, irgvliv yvelas axarebs, babus, bebos danatovars, aravis ar akarebs. aSantaJebs yvelas irgvliv, me var abulaZeo, lekvi lomis Tu sworia, me var babus gvarzeo. saqarTvelos dRes iara, gulze gadafenia, samaCablo – afxazeTi, guSindeli dRenia. male Rrublebs gadaferavs, mziT mosuli sxivebi, iberias SemosZaxebs, SenisTana Svilebi. erTad, erTad unda davdgeT, rom dagvadges saSveli, saqarTvelos patronobdes afxazi da qarTveli.

137

rom iaron Cvens miwaze, leqsom, TaTim, xatiam, da gvavsebdes wuTisoflad suli wmidis madlia. dabadebis dRes gilocav, Cemo TaTi, TaTia. Cveni wminda salocavi saqarTvelos xatia...

7 oqtomberi 2015 w.

138

das da mgosans erisao

rogor minda mogefero, das da mgosans erisao, nakuw-nakuw dafleTili, Wirisufals qveynisao.

Seni leqsis wakiTxvis dros gulSi cecxli elvisao, xanac cremli niaRvarobs, xanac jiqur mRerisao.

magondeba Savi Coxa Savleg taniT xmelisao, winaprebi rom ibrZodnen, muzaradiT mgelisao.

dro mova da gavigonebT, xavils irmis, Svelisao, nikofsia darubandiT, mamlis yivils elisao.

Sen ki, dao, mogavlina zenam zeciT Cvenisao, muxls vidrek da vmadlob ufals, megobrobiT Senisao.

da Tu krebuls elodebi, mowiwebiT Cemisao, qristeSobas emsgavseba, ebraelTa erisao.

vici, vici Seni gulis, Tu rarigad mRerisao. mraval am dRes daeswari, RvinobisTvis Tveisao...

25 oqtomberi 2015 w.

139

parlamenti qarTuli

visac uyvars layboba da mkerdze muStis braguni, airCios gasarTobad parlamenti qarTuli. visaca hyavs nene-baba, biznesmeni mSobeli, Semovides parlamentSi, erTi danis mflobelic. zogi dasavleTs gascqeris, zogi Crdilo mxaresa, erTi gverdebs gvilewavs da meore gvTxris Tvalebsa. rwyilsa Turme atyavebdnen vaneli da xoneli, bedukuRmarTs aRar darCa momkiTxveli mSobeli. visac skami Zlier uyvars, rogorc bavSvebs maliSe, brZola geliT, rom icodeT, yvela wesis gareSe. da Tu Cxubi ar gamogdiT winapridan gvarSia, maSin scadeT, rom moergoT prezidentis nalSia.

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parlamenti, parlamenti, zogi menti, zogi kenti, mere uceb sadRac pleti, parlamenti, parlamenti. parlamenti, parlamenti, Cacxe biWo, mardad keti! mere erTad gavaboloT, ~parlamenti – parlamenti”. 2003 w.

141

sarCevi: Cemo saqarTvelo

Sen mamulo, ar moxaro qedi 3 Cemo saqarTvelo 4 qarTveli mainc Tavisas ityvis 6 mglis muxla unda izardo 8 Cven ar davuSvebT Sindisfer droSas 10 Rele Rurdani erTi aqvs qarTvels 11 baTumo 13 Sen zixar Cumad 14 SemosZaxeT Zveleburi dardiani 15 win vainaxno, giorgis droSiT 16 RmerTo agvixile Tvali 18 9 aprili 19 Sen afxazeTo 20 yvavilis sunTqva 21 Tval-axveulno 22 mamuli dagvrCa fexze sadgomi 23 axalgazrdobav frTebi aisxi 24 SeiyvareT qarTvelebo erTmaneTi 25 cxeniswyali _ bazaleTi 26 nu mogvakleb sxivsa mzisa 27 Cemi akvani maS rad dairwa 28 iesos mcnebiT 29 saqarTvelos mTlianoba damiloce 30 Savi wigni 31 iqneb droa 32 deda 33 mteri erTi hyavs algeTis Svilebs 34 yvelaze Zliers daumonebels 37 Sen mezurnev daukari 38 ar minda vismes etkinos guli 39 eris sulo daqanculo 40 vercxlze gavyideT 41 dRe daudgebaT Sadimnebs 42 deda 43 he mamulo gaiRviZe! 44 Segoneba 45 aRsdeq saqarTvelo 46 mainc momavals moaqvs naTeli 47 daakvirdiT bolo Jamis niSnebs 48 uflis saxlSi macxovari moTminebiT gvelodeba 49

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undaT mohklan saqarTvelo marad 50 qarTvelno locvas eSurveT 51 giorgi (iuri) anuas da mama andrias (yuraSvilis) xsovnas 52 emigrantebi 54 maswavlebeli 56 Seni Wirime vaJao 57 Cemo lazika 58 eris mamao 60 uzenaeso zenao 61 gaumarjos jvarze nagvem 62 imereTo 63 siRaribe, siRaribe 64

TeTri Rame TeTri Rame 66 amjobinebda aq SenTan yofna 67 Cavisvam mkerdSi 68 CemTan Cemi dardebi 68 ase lamazi arsad ar dadis 69 ver manugeSebs me Seni mzera 70 me Cems ganwyobas leqsebSi vriTmav 71 daimaxsovre Zvirfaso 72 daviarebi salocavs 73 magram idga SavTvaleba sxvisken 74 iqneba Senac marTali iyav 75 movedi da veRar gnaxe 77 `vaglax jors ver moerio~ 78 wuxel RamiT 79 wminda sanTlebi iwvis 80 nostalgia 81 sanTlebi aminTeT 82 mainc moval gipovni 83 iqneb sul ar damenaxe 84 me ver gavZleb uSenod 85 vis sWirdeba piramida agebuli 87 Cemi xatia 88 roca mTvrali var 89 siyvarulis dRe 90 cisferTvaleba qalo 91 Cemo cicinaTelav 92 ar vitkinoT gulia 93 anTebuli sanTlebi 94 uflis rwmeniT davinamo 95

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pirvel gazafxuls 97 mxolod RmerTi Seiyvare 98 Semodgomis qari 99 TeTri raSiT mohyavda 100 sicocxlis wyarov 101 vagoni qroda 102 mawvalebs Seni bageni 103 veRar movToke eg guli 104 moRerebuli yeli 105 kalTa cremlebiT ivseba 106

parlamenti qarTuli 107

megobruli SarJi, milocvebi da mogonebebi aleqsandres 109 aleqsandres (sandros) (Cems naTluls) 110 9 wlis giorgi ZiZigurs 111 Tengiz Turqias xsovnas 112 guram xaxutaSvilis xsovnas 113 cotne-iuri tuRuSs 114 sergi kvantalians 115 konstantine “qarTvels” 116 poet eTer gogeSvil-isakaZes 118 eTer-dao 120 poet zurab gorgilaZis xsovnas 121 zaza gorgilaZes `uflisas~ 122 qeTevan sesiaSvils 123 qeTi yvelaSvils 126 Cems lamaz Svilebs 128 esma _ qali 130 Tamuna 131 gigi oqropiriZes 133 levan 135 Tamar meliqiZes (mama akakis qaliSvils) 136 TaTia abulaZes 137 das da mgosans erisao 138 sarCevi: 140

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