Camp de silence - Bovendonk, 1er août 1989, par Vimala Thakar

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U~ievhu ef m,Iblmihz wi~ Kiefmfhbf fu Wizjim Cib~hdu

PHKIMI UCIOI^

JIKW EF ZHMFBJF + NDPFBEDBO idu 9838

9f~ IDVU 9838

U~dhz wi~uhjhwibuz dbu efkibe mi zhlbh`hjiuhdb ev zhmfbjf" Yvfzu+jf yvf mf zhmfbjf 4 kf

efkibefbu+hmz" Fu yvfmmf fzu mi yvimhu ev zhmfbjf yvh wf~kfuu~ihu ef zuhkvmf~ miwuhuvef

wf~jfpdh~ 4

Afzw~f nhfb yvf mfz yvfzuhdbz bihzzfbu evb uiu ef bdb+jdbbihzzibjf" Fu yvfmmfz bf

bihzzfbu wiz ev ezh~ ef jdkwi~f~ jf yvh zf~i jdkkvbhyv hjh ipfj jf yvh i ea u jdmmfju

eibz mf wibhf~ ev jf~pfiv" Mi jdbbihzzibjf fkwjcf mjdvuf" Zh mi jdbbihzzibjf i u

u~ibz`d~kf fb jdkw~cfbzhdb fu fzu efpfbvf mi zvnzuibjf kkf ef pdu~f u~f- imd~z fmmf

fzu vbf ihef wdv~ mjdvuf" Kihz udvuf `d~kf ef jdbbihzzibjf fu mivud~hu yvh kibf ef

jfuuf jdbbihzzibjf bhknfbu mi zfbzhnhmhu fu fkwjcfbu mi ~jfwuhdb- ef udvufz zd~ufz ef

`idbz"

Imd~z- w~zvkdbz yvf bdvz bf zipdbz wiz ~fmmfkfbu jf yvfzu mf zhmfbjf- fu bdvz immdbz

ejdvp~h~ fbzfknmf mi zhlbh`hjiuhdb ef jf kdu- mi zvnzuibjf ef muiu ef jdbzjhfbjf eibz

mfyvfm mf zhmfbjf ~zhef~ihu fb uibu yvdjjvwibu"

Fufz+pdvz ea immz eibz mfz kdbuilbfz 4 Fmmfz bf wi~mfbu wiz- bfzu+jf wiz 4 Fmmfz phpfbu- mfz

kdbuilbfz phpfbu fu ~fzwh~fbu mi wihs" Mi wihs fzu mf wi~`vk ef mfv~ u~f fu- zh pdvz immfqp~ihkfbu pf~z fmmfz- zh pdvz ufz ipfj fmmfz ef kibh~f ikhjimf- fmmfz pdvz hkw~lbfbu ef mfv~

wihs" Mi wihs fzu mf jdbufbv ef mu~f efz kdbuilbfz" Fu mf zhmfbjf fzu jfuuf wihs"

Fufz+pdvz immz eibz mfz ndhz wi~ vb nfiv adv~ eu- mf jd~wz wvhz wi~ mi jcimfv~ dv mf

~ixdbbfkfbu ud~~hef ev zdmfhm ? fu pdvz fbu~fq eibz mfz ndhz" Mfz ndhz pf~uz- `~ihz- dkn~ilz

u~ibzkfuufbu pdu~f u~f mi wihs ef mfv~ u~f"

Mi wihs fzu mf miblilf ef mvbhpf~z" Mf zhmfbjf- jfzu jfuuf wihs efz ndhz" Mf zhmfbjf- jfzu jfuuf

wmbhuvef ef wihs efz fivs wihzhnmfz yvh jdvmfbu fb eh~fjuhdb efz djibz fu efz kf~z"

Iv mhfv ef efkibef~ jf yvfzu mf zhmfbjf- bf efp~hdbz+bdvz wiz bdvz efkibef~ jf yvfzu mf

miblilf wi~m 4

Mf jhfm fzu zhmfbjhfvs- mi uf~~f fzu zhmfbjhfvzf" Mf zdmfhm n~hmmf- wmfhb ef wihs fu ef l~jf eibz mi

kilbh`hjfbjf ev zhmfbjf" Jfzu mi ~ijf cvkihbf yvh i kibhwvm mbf~lhf ev zdb jdbufbv fb

fvs fu yvh i j~ mfz kduz" Mi pf~nimhziuhdb fzu mi j~iuhdb ef mi ~ijf cvkihbf" Jfzu vbf

kibhwvmiuhdb ef mbf~lhf ev zdb hbufbuhdbbfmmf- euf~khbf- bjfzzih~f mi jdkkvbhjiuhdb

ipfj bdz zfknminmfz"


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Edbj mf miblilf bfzu wiz muiu biuv~fm ef mi phf" Imd~z yvf mf zhmfbjf fzu mi ~fzwh~iuhdb

zwdbuibf ef mi phf uduimf"

Bdvz pdvmdbz iww~fbe~f fu ejdvp~h~ zh bdvz- mfz fbìbuz ef mi ~ijf cvkihbf- jdbehuhdbbz

wi~ mhkkfbzf c~huilf ef khmmhf~z ef zhjmfz wdvpdbz ejdvp~h~ jf wi~`vk ev zhmfbjf dv ef

mi wihs- zh bdvz wdvpdbz ejdvp~h~ mi uduimhu zwdbuibf ef bdu~f u~f" Imd~z- yvf ìhzdbz+bdvz yvibe bdvz pdvmdbz ejdvp~h~ jfuuf wihs- jf zhmfbjf 4 Bdvz u~dvpdbz vb jdhb dv vbf

jcikn~f u~ibyvhmmf- bdvz bdvz izzfxdbz wihzhnmfkfbu fu wf~zviedbz mf jd~wz- mhbufmmhlfbjf

ev jd~wz- eu~f f~kf" Mi f~kfu fzu mi exbikd ef mbf~lhf"

Edbj mf jd~wz fzu `f~kf- fu pdvz pdvz elilfq ev w~djfzzvz ef pf~nimhziuhdb- jfuuf ijuhphu

uxwhyvfkfbu cvkihbf- w~d`dbekfbu fb`dvhf eibz mf wzxjchzkf cvkihb"

Yvibe pdvz bf wi~mfq wiz- pdvz pdvz elilfq ev w~djfzzvz ef pf~nimhziuhdb" Jfuuf `f~kfu

ev jd~wz fu mf ìhu ef zinzufbh~ ef wi~mf~ bf zdbu wiz mfzzfbjf ev zhmfbjf" Zizzfdh~ eibz vbf

jf~uihbf wdzuv~f- kihbufbh~ mi `f~kfu ev jd~wz- udvu jfmi- jfzu jdkkf mi wfiv evb `~vhu"

Pdvz w~fbfq vbf wdkkf- fu pdvz fb fbmfpfq mi wfiv- wi~jf yvf pdvz ufz hbu~fzz wi~ mi

zvnzuibjf hbu~hfv~f ef mi wdkkf- wi~ jf yvf pdvz immfq kiblf~" Kihz mi zvnzuibjf

hbu~hfv~f ef mi wdkkf bf wfvu wiz zf epfmdwwf~ zibz mi wfiv" Mi wfiv w~dulf"

Ef mi kkf ìdb- jfuuf ejdvpf~uf evbf jcikn~f u~ibyvhmmf- jfuuf `f~kfu ev jd~wz-

minzufbuhdb ef udvu ehzjdv~z- mmdhlbfkfbu ef udvu n~vhu- udvz jfz zxkwukfz fsu~hfv~z

zdbu zfvmfkfbu efz zvwwd~uz fsuf~bfz- hmz bf zdbz wiz mi zvnzuibjf- kihz hmz zdbu ivzzh

bjfzzih~fz wdv~ iww~fbe~f fu ejdvp~h~ jf yvfzu mf zhmfbjf yvf mi wfiv evb `~vhu dv evb

mlvkf fzu bjfzzih~f mi j~dhzzibjf- mwibdvhzzfkfbu ef mfzzfbjf ev mlvkf dv ev

`~vhu"

Udvuf jfuuf jmi~h`hjiuhdb zfzu ip~f bjfzzih~f wi~jf yvf jfvs yvh dbu wdz mfz yvfzuhdbz

zdbu fbu~z eibz mfz euihmz"

Edbj bdvz efpdbz jdkkfbjf~ wi~ mf jdkkfbjfkfbu fu fbu~f~ eibz udvz mfz euihmz

wdzzhnmfz"

Imd~z jdbzhe~dbz vb kdkfbu yvvb jcf~jcfv~ i ~fkwmh udvufz mfz jdbehuhdbz w~iminmfz" Fu

yvhm zf u~dvpf ìjf ìjf ipfj mf kdvpfkfbu ef pf~nimhziuhdb zhmfbjhfvzf yvh jdbuhbvf fb

mvh" Hm zf u~dvpf ìjf ìjf ipfj mf kdvpfkfbu ef mi zu~vjuv~f ef mi wfbzf- mf kdvpfkfbu

ef mi jdbbihzzibjf- mf kdvpfkfbu ef mfsw~hfbjf- mf kdvpfkfbu ef mc~huilf fb mvh #dv fb

fmmf("

Hm bf wfvu wiz jdbu~ihbe~f jf kdvpfkfbu zi~~uf~ ? hm wfvu i``f~kh~ mf jd~wz- mf kfuu~f

eibz vbf jf~uihbf wdzuv~f- hm wfvu zinzufbh~ ef wi~mf~- udvufz jcdzfz yvh zdbu efz

kdvpfkfbuz pdmdbuih~fz" Kihz vb jcf~jcfv~ cdbbuf ejdvp~f ~iwhefkfbu- fb vb adv~ dv

efvs- yvf mf kdvpfkfbu ef mi zu~vjuv~f ef mi wfbzf bfzu wiz ev udvu vb kdvpfkfbu

pdmdbuih~f- yvhm bi ~hfb pdh~ ipfj zi pdmdbu- ~hfb pdh~ ipfj zdb ezh~ 1 hm i zdb w~dw~fkdvpfkfbu hbewfbeibu"


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Edbj mf zfvm jcdhs yvh mvh zdhu mihzz fzu ef ~fli~ef~ jf kdvpfkfbu zibz x udvjcf~" Jfzu wmvz

ìjhmf eh~f yv ìh~f" Bdvz ipdbz u fbu~ibz udvjcf~ udvuf jcdzf ipfj bdu~f wfbzf

ivzzhuu yvf bdvz mi ~fbjdbu~dbz #vb zdb- vb kdu- vb dnafu- vb hbehphev- vb e`h- vbf

eh``hjvmu( ? ivzzhuu yvf bdvz ~fki~yvdbz jfz jcdzfz- bdvz zdkkfz hkwiuhfbuz ef mfz

udvjcf~- ef ìh~f yvfmyvf jcdzf mfv~ zvafu- ipfj fmmfz- ef mfz jciblf~- ef mfz kdefmf~- ef mfz

ijjfwuf~- ef mfz ~fafuf~"

Vb jcf~jcfv~ jdkkfbjf fb buinmhzzibu ivjvbf ~fmiuhdb- ivjvbf hefbuh`hjiuhdb ipfj mf

kdvpfkfbu hbu~hfv~- kihz zhkwmfkfbu fb mf ~fli~eibu" Mi wv~f jdlbhuhdb- dv mi wv~f

wf~jfwuhdb fzu mf w~fkhf~ wiz fb eh~fjuhdb ef mi ehkfbzhdb ev zhmfbjf" Pdvz bf ~fli~efq wiz

ipfj hbufbzhu mf kdvpfkfbu ef mi zu~vjuv~f ef mi wfbzf- pdvz bf ìhufz wiz ef``d~u wdv~

mpimvf~" Pdvz bimmfq wiz mf jciblf~" Ihbzh- hm x i vb fzwijf ehbbdjfbjf fbu~f mi khzf bv

ev kdvpfkfbu ef mi wfbzf fu pdu~f ~jfwuhphu dv pdu~f ~jfwuhdb" Pdxfq nhfb jfjh 1 jf

bfzu wiz jfmvh yvh ilhu yvh pdhu- jf bfzu wiz mfsw~hkfbuiufv~ fsu~ixibu mi zvnzuibjf evbf

bdvpfmmf fsw~hfbjf" Bh vb jdbbihzzfv~ yvh pfvu zipdh~ yvfmyvf jcdzf jf zvafu 1

wdv~yvdh hm x i jf kdvpfkfbu- wdv~yvdh hm fshzuf- jdkkfbu mi~~uf~- zfb mhn~f~" Hm bx i ~hfb

ef udvu jfmi 1 pdvz ufz ipfj mvh- wi~jf yvf mf kdvpfkfbu ef mi wfbzf fzu fb pdvz" Pdvz

ufz ipfj mvh wi~jf yvf pdvz ufz mvh"

^fki~yvf~ yvf mf kdvpfkfbu ef mi zu~vjuv~f ef mi wfbzf fzu mhbu~hfv~ ef kdh- fzu

hbewfbeibu ef ki pdmdbu- yvhm fzu hbewfbeibu ev kdvpfkfbu ef mfld- jfmi wdv~~ihu

u~f mi w~fkh~f ejdvpf~uf" Jf ~fli~e hbbdjfbu wfvu j~f~ + dv kkf j~f + vbf hmmvzhdb ef

ehphzhdb fbu~f pdvz fu jf yvh fzu fswdz pdu~f zfbzhnhmhu jdkkf kdvpfkfbu ef mi wfbzf"

Immdbz kihbufbibu wmvz w~d`dbe" Uibehz yvf pdvz mf ~fli~efq pdvz ipfq mhkw~fzzhdb yvf mf

kdvpfkfbu ef mi wfbzf fu pdvz ufz efvs fbuhuz eh``~fbufz- wi~jf yvhm bi ~hfb pdh~

ipfj pdu~f pdmdbu" Pdvz zfbufq yvhm fzu vbf fbuhu zwi~f" Fu wvhz- zh mf ~fli~e fzu

kihbufbv- pdvz zfbufq yvf pdvz ufz mvh- yvhm fzu pdvz 1 mf af- mf kdh- mfld bi wiz vbf

fshzufbjf zwi~f fb efcd~z ev jdv~ibu efz zdvcihuz- efz hefz- efz wfbzfz- efz edbbfz

ef mhb`d~kiuhdb yvdb iwwfmmf jdbbihzzibjf fuj" Imd~z pdvz efpfbfq jdbzjhfbu yvf pdvz ufz

fbu~ihb ef ~fli~ef~ pdu~f w~dw~f ~f`mfu" Jfmvh yvh ~fli~ef fu jf yvh fzu ~fli~e bf zdbu yvvb

zfvm fu kkf wcbdkbf" Mdnzf~piufv~ fu jf yvh fzu dnzf~p zdbu vb fu bdb efvs"

Fu jfmi ki~yvf mi `hb ef mijuhdb ef ~fli~ef~ dv ednzf~pf~" Mdnzf~piuhdb ipihu vbf ~ihzdb

eu~f uibu yvf pdvz biphfq wiz w~hz jdbzjhfbjf yvf mi zu~vjuv~f ef mi wfbz f uihu pdu~f

w~dw~f jdbufbv- uihu mi zvnzuibjf ef jf yvf pdvz iwwfmhfq pdu~f w~dw~f fzw~hu- pdu~f zfm`-

pdu~f fld"

Edbj jciyvf kdvpfkfbu hbu~hfv~ fzu mf kdvpfkfbu ef mc~huilf ev wizz" Jciyvf

kdvpfkfbu hbu~hfv~ fzu jdbehuhdbb wi~ mf wizz fu hm bx i wiz ef mhnf~u eibz mi ehkfbzhdb

ef zdb kdvpfkfbu" Mi zu~vjuv~f kfbuimf bf jdbbiu wiz ef mhnf~u- yvf mi wfbzf phfbbf efz

Peiz- efz Vwibhzciez- ev Jd~ib- ef mi Nhnmf" Vbf hef- vbf wfbzf- vbf inzu~ijuhdb ef jf

yvh `vu wf~v wi~ mfz ibjhfbz bi wiz ef exbikhzkf" Pdvz fb w~fbfq jdbzjhfbjf fu- ef jf ìhu-

mi ~fjcf~jcf mihef efz kduz- mi ~fjcf~jcf u~ipf~z mf kdvpfkfbu j~n~im w~fbe `hb"


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Vb wi~uhjhwibu i efkibe 1 Yvfmmf fzu mi ~fmiuhdb fbu~f mf zhmfbjf fu mi ~fjcf~jcf 4 Wfvpfbu+

hmz jdfshzuf~ 4

Imd~z- bdvz bdvz udv~bdbz pf~z mi zfjdbef yvfzuhdb"

Mi ~fjcf~jcf jdkkf kdvpfkfbu j~n~immi ~fjcf~jcf u~ipf~z mf kdvpfkfbu ef mi

jdbbihzzibjf- u~ipf~z mfz mhp~fz dv mfz ehzjdv~z ef wf~zdbbfz zdh+ehzibu hmmvkhbfz dv

mhn~fz- dv udvu jf yvf pdvz pdve~fq- jfuuf ~fjcf~jcf zf uf~khbf ivzzhuu yvdb w~fbe

jdbzjhfbjf ev ìhu yvvb kdu fzu vbf inzu~ijuhdb- vbf hb`d~kiuhdb iv zvafu ef mi ~imhu- kihz

bf jdbzuhuvf wiz vbf ~fbjdbu~f ipfj mi ~imhu" Edbj mf w~djfzzvz yvh jdbzhzuf ~izzfknmf~

efz hb`d~kiuhdbz- fb ijyv~h~ ef bdvpfmmfz #vbf bdvpfmmf fsw~fzzhdb- ef bdvpfmmfz

pf~zhdbz( w~fbe `hb" Mf zhmfbjf- jfzu mi `hb ef mi ~fjcf~jcf fb uibu yvf kdvpfkfbu j~n~im"

Ivzzh mdblufkwz yvdb zfbu yvf mfz kduz wfvpfbu iwwd~uf~ vbf ihef- db pdxilf u~ipf~z mf

kdbef- wizzibu evbf ~fmhlhdb mivu~f- evb w~d`fzzfv~ vb ivu~f- ~izzfknmibu ef

bdvpfmmfz hefz- ef bdvpfmmfz hedmdlhfz- efz kdemfz ef wfbzf- efz jdefz ef jdbevhuf- zf

jdb`d~kibu efz ehzjhwmhbfz pi~hfz- fuj" Kihz iv kdkfbu d pdvz w~fbfq jdbzjhfbjf yvf mf

kdu bfzu aikihz mi jcdzf- yvvbf inzu~ijuhdb bf wfvu wiz w~djv~f~ jf yvf wfvu vbf

wf~jfwuhdb eh~fjuf- yvvb jdbjfwu bf wfvu wiz ~fkwmijf~ mi kiafzu evbf wf~jfwuhdb

hbuhkf- mf kdvpfkfbu j~n~im efphfbu zibz wf~uhbfbjf wdv~ miww~fbuhzzilf" Hm uihu

wf~uhbfbu md~zyvf pdvz jdkkfbjhfq mi ~fjcf~jcf ? fu wvhz phfbu vbf w~hdef d jf

kdvpfkfbu wf~e zi wf~uhbfbjf" Jf yvh `vu vbf ihef efphfbu vb dnzuijmf" Mi `hb ev w~djfzzvz

ef pf~nimhziuhdb- mi `hb ev kdvpfkfbu j~n~im- fzu vb kdkfbu u~z zhlbh`hjiuh` eibz mi phf

evbf wf~zdbbf" Miww~fbibu- yvh uihu efpfbv vb jcf~jcfv~- ~fudv~bf muiu eiww~fbibu-

kihz kihbufbibu- miww~fbuhzzilf zf ìhu zibz kduz ? kihbufbibu- miww~fbuhzzilf bfzu wmvz

w~hzdbbhf~ ev wizz ef mi ~ijf cvkihbf uduimf" Edbj- mhn~f ev wizz- mhn~f efz kduz- mhn~f ev

kdvpfkfbu j~n~im- pdvz pdvz u~dvpfq eibz mi zdmhuvef- mi zdmhuvef wzxjchyvf yvh fzu

zhmfbjf" Mi zu~vjuv~f kfbuimf bf `dbjuhdbbf wiz ? hm bx i edbj wmvz ef jdbjfwu ev ufkwz fu

pdvz ufz inibedbb fb w~zfbjf ef mi pijvhu ef muf~bfm w~zfbu" Mf zhmfbjf pdvz i

iwwd~u mf w~zfbu hbufkwd~fm" Hm bx i wmvz ef ehphzhdbz hbu~hfv~fz ufmmfz yvf mf kdh fu mf

bdb+kdh- mf Af fu mf kdbef- mf kdh fu mf jdzkdz" Mi ehphzhdb- mfz jcdjz- mfz ufbzhdbz- zfb zdbu

immz" Hm x i edbj vbf ~fmisiuhdb jdkkf zh pdvz uhfq ~fudv~b eibz pdu~f uduimhu- jdkkf jfz

kdbuilbfz yvh phpfbu eibz mi uduimhu ef mfv~ u~f" Fu imd~z- hm x i mi wihs" Pdu~f jdbzjhfbjfefphfbu wi~fhmmf ivs jhfvs hkkfbzfz eibz mfv~ pijvhu" Edbj mi zvzwfbzhdb dv mi~~u ev

kdvpfkfbu kfbuim wf~kfu iv ~hfb ef zf kibh`fzuf~"

Mf zhmfbjf fzu edbj mf ~fudv~ mi zdv~jf ef mu~f d pdvz bufz wf~zdbbf- d pdvz bufz

~hfb" Pdvz ufz zfvmfkfbu mu~f dv mu~fu "

Mi zu~vjuv~f kfbuimf ~fzuf+u+fmmf ehzzdvuf fb wf~kibfbjf 4 efkibef vb wi~uhjhwibu"

Yvfzu+jf edbj yvf mi wf~kibfbjf- kdbzhfv~ 4 Fu yvfzu+jf yvf mi ehzzdmvuhdb ef mi zu~vjuv~f

kfbuimf 4 Fzu+jf vbf zu~vjuv~f ìhuf ef n~hyvfz dv ef whf~~fz 4 Yvfmyvf jcdzf ef zdmhef- efphzhnmf- ef uiblhnmf- yvh zinibedbbf mi ehzzdmvuhdb 4 Mi wfbzf i+u+fmmf vbf fshzufbjf


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ìjuvfmmf- dv i+u+fmmf zfvmfkfbu vbf fshzufbjf jdbjfwuvfmmf 4 Fmmf fshzuf eibz mf kdu- fu mfz

kduz zdbu efz ilfbjfkfbuz ef zdbz" Pdvz ipfq iuu~hnv jf~uihbfz zhlbh`hjiuhdbz jf~uihbfz

jdknhbihzdbz ef mfuu~fz" Vb zfbz i u iuu~hnv jfz jdknhbihzdbz ef mfuu~fz fu

md~libhziuhdb efz zdbz- wi~ mi ~ijf cvkihbf" Fu jfmi wfvu u~f ivzzh bjfzzih~f mi zdjhu

cvkihbf yvf mi zu~vjuv~f efz nuhkfbuz eibz mfzyvfmz pdvz phpfq" Jfz zu~vjuv~fz ef whf~~fz-

ef n~hyvfz fu ef kd~uhf~ pdvz w~djv~fbu vb fbjmdz fu w~dulf mf jd~wz" Wfvu+u~f yvf jf yvf

pdvz iwwfmfq zu~vjuv~f ef mi wfbzf- jdbufbibu mi uduimhu ef mi jdbbihzzibjf fu ef

mfsw~hfbjf ef mi ~ijf cvkihbf fzu vbf zu~vjuv~f hbphzhnmf- hbuiblhnmf- jdbjfwuvfmmf- yvh j~f

vb fbjmdz eibz mfyvfm pdvz j~dxfq yvf pdvz ufz fb zjv~hu" Mi wfbzf fzu vbf kfzv~f ef

zjv~hu- bfzu+jf wiz 4

Edbj yvibe bdvz vuhmhzdbz mfsw~fzzhdb zu~vjuv~f ef mi wfbzf - af pdvz fb w~hf- zdxdbz

jdbzjhfbuz ev ìhu yvfmmf bi wiz ef zdmhehu- yvfmmf bi wiz ef jdbufbv ìjuvfm" Mf zdmfhm- mi

mvbf- dbu vb jdbufbv ìjuvfm- hmz fshzufbu fb uibu yvf ìhuz wcxzhyvfz" Kihz yvibe bdvz

wi~mdbz ev ufkwz- mfyvfm fzu vbf kfzv~f #fu pdvz mf kfzv~fq mihef ef pdz kdbu~fz fu ef

pdz wfbevmfz(- hm bi wiz ev udvu ef jdbufbv ìjuvfm" Mf ufkwz fzu eibz mf jf~pfiv ? jfzu vbf

kfzv~f vuhmf wdv~ mf jf~pfiv fu mfz ijuhphuz jdmmfjuhpfz ef mi zdjhu cvkihbf- kihz hm bi wiz

ef ~imhu" Mfz jdbjfwuz- mfz zxkndmfz- pdvz wdvpfq iwwfmf~ jfmi zu~vjuv~fz - wi~jf yvf

pdvz pdvmfq ej~h~f vb kdvpfkfbu hbu~hfv~" Pdvz efpfq vuhmhzf~ efz kduz- imd~z pdvz

iwwfmfq jfmi vbf zu~vjuv~f ef wfbzf " Ihbzh- pdvz wdvpfq wi~mf~ evbf zu~vjuv~f ev ufkwz

1 zfjdbefz- khbvufz- cfv~fz- adv~z- kdhz- ibbfz- zhjmfzKihz hm bfshzuf ~hfb ef ufm yvvb

zhjmf- hm bx i ~hfb ef ufm yvvbf ibbf- dv vbf cfv~f- dv vb kdhz" Jf zdbu udvz efz kfzv~fz ?

hmz dbu edbj vbf fshzufbjf jdbjfwuvfmmf- kihz wiz ef jdbufbv ijuvfm yvdb wvhzzf wf~jfpdh~"

Zhm pdvz wmiu- pdxfq nhfb jfmi"

Imd~z- jdkkfbu immfq+pdvz ìh~f wdv~ ehzzdve~f mf ufkwz 4 Jf yvh bfshzuf wiz bf wfvu+u~f

ehzzdvu" Fphefkkfbu" Edbj mi wfbzf dv mf kdu bi wiz ef ~imhu fb efcd~z ev jf~pfiv

cvkihb" Jfzu vbf kibh~f `hlv~iuhpf ef pdh~ md~zyvdb ehu yvf mi zu~vjuv~f ef mi wfbzf fzu

ehzzdvuf" Zhm pdvz wmiu- zdxdbz u~z jmih~z iv zvafu ef jcijvb efz kduz yvf bdvz fkwmdxdbz"

Bdvz wdvpdbz ~fli~ef~ mfz jdbjfwuz- mfz zxkndmfz fu mfz kfzv~fz yvf bdvz ipdbz j~z"

Bdvz wdvpdbz ~fli~ef~ jf yvf bdvz iwwfmdbz bdu~f jdbbihzzibjf- fu mi efzj~hwuhdb efz

pbfkfbuz yvh zf zdbu w~devhuz eibz bdu~f phf- fb mfz iwwfmibu fsw~hfbjfz" Bdvz wdvpdbz~fli~ef~ jfmi jdkkf bdvz bdvz ~fli~edbz eibz vb kh~dh~- jdkkf bdvz ~fli~edbz bdu~f

~f`mfu ? ipfj mihef ef mi kkdh~f 1 ~f kkd~hziuhdb- jdbufkwmiuhdb- ~f`mfu" Pdvz wdvpfq mfz

~fli~ef~" Kihz pdvz ~fli~efq yvfmyvf jcdzf ehbphzhnmf- ehbuiblhnmf- ef bdb ìjuvfm" Edbj

pdvz ~fli~efq mf kjibhzkf ef mi wfbzf- mf kdvpfkfbu ef mi wfbzf fu mfbe~dhu d zf

w~devhu jf kdvpfkfbu" Hm fzu mhbu~hfv~ ef pdvz- hm fzu eibz pdu~f zxzukf jchkhyvf- jfzu

vb kdvpfkfbu bfv~djchkhyvf mhbu~hfv~ ef pdvz- wi~jf yvf mbf~lhf ev zdb jdbpf~uhf fb

kduz i i``fju pdu~f zu~vjuv~f nhdmdlhyvf" Mc~huilf- jf bfzu ~hfb eivu~f yvf mi

jdbbihzzibjf hkw~hkf eibz pdu~f zxzukf bfv~dmdlhyvf fu eibz pdu~f jchkhf- eibz mi

zu~vjuv~f efz dz- eibz mi jdkwdzhuhdb ev zibl- ev wmizki- efz kvzjmfz- efz bf~`z- ef mi


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jchkhf" Hmz jdbuhfbbfbu udvu mf wizz cvkihb" Pdvz fu kdh- bdvz zdkkfz mf wizz cvkihb

jdbefbz- hkw~hk eibz bdu~f u~f- fb`dvh eibz bdu~f u~f"

Edbj pdvz mf ~fli~efq- pdvz mdnzf~pfq- pdvz jdkw~fbfq jf yvhm fzu- pdvz pdxfq zfz mhkhufz

fu- ef jf ìhu- mf zfbz ef mivud~hu ivudv~ ef mi wfbzf- ev wizz- ehzwi~iu"

Jfzu mivud~hu iv zvafu ef mi wfbzf yvh ehzwi~iu" Jfzu mf zfbz ef mhefbuh`hjiuhdb ipfj mf

wizz- ipfj mi jdbbihzzibjf yvh ehzwi~iu" Fu mi ehzwi~huhdb ev zfbz ef mivud~hu fu ef

mhefbuh hjiuhdb fzu iwwfmf evbf kibh~f `hlv~iuhpf ehzzdmvuhdb ef mi wfbzf " ^hfb bi

u j~ fu ~hfb bfzu ehzzdvu" Mfz jdbehuhdbbfkfbuz zdbu udvadv~z m wi~jf yvf mf jd~wz fzu m

fu yvf- eibz mfz zu~vjuv~fz nhdmdlhyvfz- mfz jdbehuhdbbfkfbuz zdbu m ? kihz hmz bdbu wiz ef

wf~uhbfbjf fb jf yvh jdbjf~bf pdu~f wf~jfwuhdb- pdz ~ijuhdbz- pdz ~fmiuhdbz- wi~jf yvf pdvz

ipfq jdkw~hz yvfm wdhbu hmz zdbu kjibhyvfz- yvfm wdhbu hmz zdbu ~wuhuh`z fu jdkkf hmz

wfvpfbu fkwjcf~ pdu~f ~fmiuhdb eh~fjuf wf~zdbbfmmf- ipfj mf w~zfbu"

Bdvz wi~mdbz ef ehzzdmvuhdb ef mhlbd~ibjf wi~ mi jdkw~cfbzhdb" Kihz mhlbd~ibjf ipihu+fmmf

vbf fshzufbjf 4 Ipihu+fmmf vbf zu~vjuv~f 4 Kihz pdvz wdvpfq vuhmhzf~ mi wc~izf 1 Yvibe aih

jdkw~hz mi ~imhu- mhlbd~ibjf ehzwi~iu- dv fzu ehzzdvuf " Pdvz wdvpfq vuhmhzf~ jfuuf wc~izf

wdv~ mi jdkkvbhjiuhdb" Jf yvh fzu bfzu wiz ehzzdvu" Mi `d~kf jciblf ? mi jdkwdzhuhdb

jciblf" Mvuhmhu mi zvhuf ev jciblfkfbu ef `d~kf- mfz hbl~ehfbuz- mfz jdkwdzibuz

jciblfbu" Hm bx i bh j~iuhdb bh efzu~vjuhdb" Hm x i kf~lfbjf- wvhz ~fudv~ mhkkf~lfbjf" Hm x

i hbehphevimhziuhdb fu ~fudv~ mi bdb+hbehphevimhziuhdb" Hm x i mijuhphu yvh jdbzhzuf `d~kvmf~

efz jdbjfwuz fu efz hefz- `d~lf~ efz kduz- mfz vuhmhzf~- jdkw~fbe~f mfv~z mhkhufz fu

zd~uh~ ef mfv~z l~h``fz" Mi jdbbihzzibjf pdvz zd~u ef mhlbd~ibjf fu mi jdkw~cfbzhdb pdvz

zd~u ef pdu~f jdbbihzzibjf- efz kduz yvh dbu ikfb mi jdbbihzzibjf"

Edbj- kfz ikhz- mi zu~vjuv~f ef mi wfbzf bfzu wiz ehzzdvuf kihz bdvz jdkw~fbdbz fu

iww~jhdbz zfz mhkhuiuhdbz"

Zh mi zu~vjuv~f ef mi wfbzf- mi kkdh~f- mfsw~hfbjf- bdu~f c~huilf zdbu jdkwmufkfbu

mhkhbz- wdv~~fq+pdvz php~f fb zdjhu 4 Pdvz ipfq ìh~f pdu~f kbilf- u~ipihmmf~ jdkkf

w~d`fzzfv~- jdkkf edjufv~- jdkkf ipdjiu- jdkkf cdkkf ei`ìh~f- yvfmyvf wi~u eibz mf

ldvpf~bfkfbu dv ivs Biuhdbz Vbhfz- dv udvu jf yvf pdvz pdvmfq" Pdvz efpfq `dbjuhdbbf~-

pdvz efpfq vuhmhzf~ mf jf~pfiv" Iw~z udvu- mi wfbzf- mi jdbbihzzibjf- jfzu vb kdvpfkfbuj~n~im- jfzu vb kdvpfkfbu bfv~djchkhyvf" Zh mi zu~vjuv~f ef mi wfbzf fzu jdkwmufkfbu

ehzzdvuf- imd~z hm bx iv~i wiz ef zdvpfbh~z fu pdvz bf wdv~~fq wiz `dbjuhdbbf~ ev udvu" Mf

kdu- mi jdbbihzzibjf fb ~fmiuhdb ipfj mfbph~dbbfkfbu kiu~hfm dbu vbf wf~uhbfbjf" Imd~z

pdvz mfz vuhmhzfq 1 wdv~ ~lmf~ vb kilbudwcdbf- wdv~ ~lmf~ vb khj~d fb ~fmiuhdb ipfj mf

pdmvkf fu mi civufv~ ev zdb zfmdb mf ehzjdv~z ef md~iufv~" Edbj- mhb`d~kiuhdb ìjuvfmmf yvh

w~fbe ivzzh mi `d~kf evbf wfbzf i vbf wf~uhbfbjf fu m- pdvz mvuhmhzfq ipfj jdkwufbjf

udvufz mfz `dhz yvf jfzu bjfzzih~f" Zibz mi khzf fb vp~f ef mi zu~vjuv~f kfbuimf- hm bx

iv~ihu wiz ef Nfivs+i~uz- wiz ef kvzhyvf- ef eibzf- ef ucu~f- ef mhuu~iuv~f- ef wdzhf- wiz

ef u~ibzwd~uz- ef jdkkvbhjiuhdbz- wiz ef jvhzzdb efz ~fwiz- udvu jfmi bjfzzhuibu vbf

ijuhphu wzxjcd+wcxzhyvf"


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Jciyvf yvfzuhdb ~fkhzf wi~ mfz wi~uhjhwibuz i~~hpf Phkimi fu hm b,x i wiz ef jdkhu ef

zmfjuhdb" Hm zfknmf yvf jhbyvibuf wf~zdbbfz izzhzufbu jfz ~fbjdbu~fz wdv~ mi w~fkh~f

`dhz- fu yvfmyv,vb i hkilhb yv,hm x ipihu vb jdkhu ef zmfjuhdb- jcdhzhzzibu jf~uihbfz

yvfzuhdbz- fb ~fafuibu e,ivu~fz" Kihz bdvz bf `dbjuhdbbdbz wiz ef jfuuf kibh~f" Hm fzuhkwdzzhnmf wcxzhyvfkfbu ef w~fbe~f udvufz mfz yvfzuhdbz- fu j,fzu ivzzh vbf yvfzuhdb ef

ufkwz" Edbj db fb ~fuhfbu ivuibu yv,hm fzu wdzzhnmf- fu db w~fbe mfz yvfzuhdbz yvh zf

~iwwd~ufbu iv uckf ef jf jikw" Imd~z- zh mi yvfzuhdb ef yvfmyv,vb b,fzu wiz ~fufbvf-

wf~zdbbf e,ivu~f yvf m,d~iufv~ b,fb fzu ~fzwdbzinmf"

M,vb efz bdvpfivs pfbvz wdzf vbf yvfzuhdb p~ihkfbu wf~uhbfbuf1 .Mf zhmfbjf fzu vbf

kibh~f wf~zdbbfmmf e,fswmd~iuhdb" Imd~z wdv~yvdh bdvz izzfxdbz+bdvz hjh jdmmfjuhpfkfbu- fu

wdv~yvdh x i+u+hm vb w~djfzzvz jdmmfjuh` 4. Fu mf yvfzuhdbbfv~- u~z cvknmfkfbu - iadvuf yvf

pfbibu hjh wdv~ mi w~fkh~f `dhz- mi yvfzuhdb wfvu zfknmf~ inzv~ef- kihz yv,hm i nfzdhb e,u~fjmih~"

Fu af kf ~fbez jdkwuf ef mi eh``hjvmu"

W~fkh~f jcdzf1 yvibe bdvz bdvz ~vbhzzdbz hjh- bdvz bf efpfbdbz wiz vbf jdmmfjuhphu"

Yvibe mfz kfkn~fz e,vbf ìkhmmf zf ~vbhzzfbu wdv~ wizzf~ yvfmyvfz adv~z fbzfknmf-

efphfbbfbu+hmz vbf jdmmfjuhphu 4 Yvibe efz ikhz phfbbfbu zf ~fu~dvpf~ vbf `dhz wi~ ib dv

udvz mfz efvs ibz wdv~ ehzjvuf~ zv~ jf~uihbz zvafuz- wdv~ wi~uilf~ efz fsw~hfbjfz- wdv~ mi

adhf ef mi ~fbjdbu~f- hmz bf efphfbbfbu wiz vbf jdmmfjuhphu" I kdhbz yv,hm b,x ihu vb

fb~lhkfbufkfbu fu vbf zuibei~ehziuhdb ef kdemfz ef wfbzf- hmz bf `d~kfbu wiz vbf

jdmmfjuhphu" Edbj- af pdvz fb w~hf- pdxfq nhfb mi eh``~fbjf fbu~f vbf ~fbjdbu~f e,ikhz fu vbf

jdmmfjuhphu d mfz wf~zdbbfz zdbu hbphufz fu ~izzfknmfz eibz vb nvu zwjh`hyvf- wdv~

d~libhzf~ zuibei~ehzf~ mfv~ jdkwd~ufkfbu mi kihzdb fu eibz mi zdjhu"

Kihz bdvz zdkkfz vbf ìkhmmf ef jcf~jcfv~z ~wibevf zv~ udvuf mi wmibuf" Bdvz zdkkfz

vbf ìkhmmf ef jcf~jcfv~z yvh dzfbu fbyvuf~ e,vbf kibh~f bdb ivud~huih~f" Mi wf~zdbbf

izzhzf hjh bf w~ufbe wiz u~f pdu~f ldv~dv dv pdu~f kiu~f" Fmmf iwwd~uf zdb ihef

m,hbpfzuhliuhdb pf~nimf wi~jf yvf m,hlbd~ibjf hbufmmfjuvfmmf zf u~dvpf jcizzf wi~ mi

jdkw~cfbzhdb pf~nimf"

Fmmf fzu edbj hjh jdkkf ikhf- jdkkf wf~zdbbf ixibu pdv zi phf mi ~fjcf~jcf ev zfbz ef

mi phf fu php~f mi p~hu yv,fmmf i jdkw~hzf Jfuuf wf~zdbbf dzf jdkkvbhyvf~- ehzjvuf~-

jmi~h`hf~ z,hm x i efz edvufz- fswmhyvf~ z,hm x i efz yvfzuhdbz" Jfuuf jdkkvbhjiuhdb ikhjimf-

bdb ivud~huih~f- fzu z~fkfbu yvfmyvf jcdzf ef bdvpfiv wdv~ mf wzxjchzkf cvkihb"

Mfz yvfzuhdbz yv,db zf wdzf iv zvafu ef mi ehphbhu- m,fswmd~iuhdb ef m,vmuhkf ~imhu dbu u

jdbzhe~fz wi~ mi ~ijf cvkihbf jdkkf vb ~dxivkf d m,ivud~hu hzzvf ef m,fsw~hfbjf- ef

mi jdbbihzzibjf e,vbf wf~zdbbf uihu vbf jdbehuhdb w~iminmf wdv~ yvf mf jcf~jcfv~ fbu~f


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eibz jf jcikw e,hbpfzuhliuhdb" Jfmi- j,fzu mi u~iehuhdb- jf `vu mi u~iehuhdb fu vbf jdbpfbuhdb

uijhuf udvu ivudv~ ev kdbef"

Fu bdvz zdkkfz hjh- yvfmyvfz+vbz e,fbu~f bdvz #vbf wdhlbf e,fbu~f bdvz eibz jciyvf wixz(

yvh ipdbz dz nimixf~ m,ivud~hu efz wf~zdbbfz- efz wf~zdbbimhuz- efz j~huv~fz- efz

ucd~hfz- efz jdbjmvzhdbz ~hlhefz- fu yvh ipdbz dz fswmd~f~ wi~ bdvz+kkfz"

Ndb" Jfjh fzu zvwwdz u~f vb jikw ef zhmfbjf" Efz wf~zdbbfz zdbu pfbvfz hjh wdv~ fsikhbf~

hbehphevfmmfkfbu mfv~z ~fmiuhdbz ipfj mf w~djfzzvz ef pf~nimhziuhdb yvh jdbuhbvf fb fmmfz- adv~

iw~z adv~- wfbeibu yvi~ibuf- jhbyvibuf- zdhsibuf+ehs ibz- wdv~ fswmd~f~ zh fmmfz wfvpfbu

u~f ipfj fmmfz+kkfz fu ipfj mfv~z zfknminmfz- zibz i~uhjvmiuhdb- zibz pf~nimhziuhdb- zibz mf

kdvpfkfbu ef mi wfbzf- efz zfbuhkfbuz- efz kduhdbz" Bdvz zdkkfz hjh wdv~ fsikhbf~

jdkkfbu zv~lhzzfbu mfz ~ijuhdbz adv~ iw~z adv~- fu jdkkfbu fmmfz j~fbu efz jdbu~ihbufz

hbu~hfv~fz- bfv~dmdlhyvfz fu jchkhyvfz" Mi jdbu~ihbuf edhu z,fsw~hkf~ eibz mfz kduz- eibz

mfz lfzufz" Bdvz zdkkfz hjh wdv~ fsikhbf~ mf w~djfzzvz jdkwmfu ef pf~nimhziuhdb- mfkdvpfkfbu ef mi wfbzf- fu bdvz pfbdbz hjh- eibz jfuuf whjf- fu wizzdbz +ehzdbz + fbph~db

yviu~f dv jhby cfv~fz fbzfknmf iv jdv~z ef mi adv~bf- iww~fbibu bdvz kfuu~f

wcxzhyvfkfbu eibz vbf zhuviuhdb ef bdb kdvpfkfbu- fblilf~ mf jd~wz ~fzuf~ `f~kf- mfz

xfvs zf `f~kf~ ef ìdb eufbevf- ef zd~uf yv,hmz bf zdhfbu fb ~fmiuhdb ipfj ivjvb dnafu

fb efcd~z e,fvs- wi~u e,fvs" J,fzu mi wf~jfwuhdb efz dnafuz fu mf w~djfzzvz yvh jdbzhzuf mfz

bdkkf~ fu mfz hefbuh`hf~ yvh kfu fb n~ibmf mi kkdh~f fu zuhkvmf mfz ~ijuhdbz"

Bdvz iww~fbdbz edbj `f~kf~ mfz xfvs e,vbf kibh~f eufbevf fu yvhuuf~ mf kdbef efz

dnafuz wdv~ fbu~f~ eibz m,d~nhuf ef m,fzwijf hbu~hfv~ d mfz ijuhdbz yvh jdbzhzufbu bdkkf~-

hefbuh`hf~- ~fli~ef~- zipdh~- b,dbu ivjvbf wf~uhbfbjf"

Bdvz mf ìhzdbz hbehphevfmmfkfbu" Bdvz pfbdbz hjh wdv~ iww~fbe~f bdvz kfuu~f eibz vb

uiu e,inzfbjf ef kdvpfkfbu j~n~im"

Yvibe bdvz immdbz eibz vbf jdmf dv eibz vbf vbhpf~zhu- yvf bdvz zvhpdbz efz jmizzfz-

ehzdbz ef u~fbuf- phblu dv jhbyvibuf uvehibuz- bdvz iww~fbdbz fbzfknmf- b,fzu+jf wiz 4

Kihz jfmi bf efphfbu wiz vb w~djfzzvz jdmmfjuh`"

Mi ìdb kdef~bf ef php~f- zwjhimfkfbu eibz m,ckhzwc~f ef m,Dvfzu- fu hm kf zfknmf ivzzh

eibz m,ckhzwc~f ef m,Fzu- b,fzu wiz vbf ihef wdv~ jfuuf fswmd~iuhdb bdb j~n~imf1 wizzf~

ev ufkwz ipfj zdh+kkf- zibz ~hfb ìh~f fsu~hfv~fkfbu dv hbu~hfv~fkfbu- u~f ipfj zdh+

kkf zibz kduz- zibz hefz" Php~f- j,fzu m,yvhpimfbu ef zipdh~- e,ijyv~h~- ef ~izzfknmf~-

e,ijjfwuf~- ef ~fafuf~- ef ndvlf~ udvu mf ufkwz- ndvlf~ fu fbjd~f ndvlf~" D~ bdvz pfbdbz hjh

wdv~ lduf~ mi zipfv~ ef m,inzfbjf ef kdvpfkfbu fu ef m,inzfbjf e,ijuhdb- m,ivu~f

ehkfbzhdb ef mi phf"

Nhfb yvf bdvz zdxdbz wmvz ef jfbu wf~zdbbfz eibz jfuuf whjf- fb ìhu bdvz zdkkfz eibz mi

zdmhuvef fu mi w~zfbjf ef jcf~jcfv~z jmih~z fb~hjchu pdu~f zdmhuvef" Pdvz ufz vbf

wf~zdbbf zdmhuih~f izzhzf eibz jf cimm? iv kdhbz fzu+jf mf jiz wdv~ m,d~iufv~"


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Hm x i ef u~z bdkn~fvzfz yvfzuhdbz" Ivzzh edhu+db u~ihuf~ jciyvf yvfzuhdb wmvuu

n~hpfkfbu" J,fzu wdv~yvdh bdvz immdbz jdbuhbvf~ wi~ mi zvhpibuf1

.Af k,izzhfez wihzhnmfkfbu- kihz kdb fzw~hu bf efphfbu wiz wihzhnmf" Hm ìhu zv~lh~ vb l~ibe

bdkn~f e,hefz- hm zf jdkwi~f ivs ivu~fz fu ehu1 .Ic) m,ivu~f wf~zdbbf i ~imhz jf~uihbfz

jcdzfz yvf af b,ih wiz ~imhzfz." M,fzw~hu ehu1 .Wdv~yvdh b,ih+af wiz m,hmmvkhbiuhdb 4 Yvibeiv~ih+af m,hmmvkhbiuhdb 4 " Edbj hm b,x i wiz ef zhmfbjf".

Pdvz pfbfq hjh fu pdvz pdvz izzfxfq fu m,fzw~hu jdkkfbjf nipi~ef~ .Db jdkw~fbe yvf j,fzu

vbf i`ìh~f wmvuu zuvwhef- kihz i bf z,i~~uf wiz.- ehu mf yvfzuhdbbfv~"

Fzu+jf yvf jfuuf jdbzuibuf pf~nimhziuhdb fzu pdu~f kibh~f ef php~f 4 I kdhbz yv,hm b,x ihu fb

bdvz mf n~vhu efz wfbzfz- bdvz bdvz zfbudbz zfvmz" M,inzfbjf ev kdvpfkfbu efz wfbzfz

bdvz f``~ihf? kkf mf kdu .phef. bdvz uf~~h`hf" Imd~z- bdvz bdvz j~dbz vbf jdkwilbhf

hbu~hfv~f ef wfbzfz- e,hefz- ef zdvpfbh~z- e,iknhuhdbz- e,izwh~iuhdbz fu bdvz bdvz zfbudbz

wmvuu w~dulz- fb zjv~hu- b,fzu+jf wiz 4 Bdvz wfbzdbz- bdvz hkilhbdbz- zdvcihudbz-

jimjvmdbz- fbu~fufbdbz vbf kibhwvmiuhdb jdbjfwuvfmmf hbu~hfv~f1 jdkkfbu hb`mvf~ zv~ mf

jdkwd~ufkfbu ef pdu~f ki~h- ef pdu~f `fkkf- ef pdu~f wfuhu ikh- ef pdu~f wfuhuf ikhf- ef

pdz fbìbuz- ef pdz wi~fbuz- ef pdz ikhz 4 Jdkkfbu - ipfj cinhmfu- mfv~ ìh~f ìh~f jf~uihbfz

jcdzfz 4 "

Kihbufbh~ efz ehphzhdbz- efz `~ilkfbuiuhdbz hbu~hfv~fz- d~libhzf~ efz jdkwi~uhkfbuz

m,hbu~hfv~ ev wzxjchzkf fu f~~f~ u~ipf~z jfz ehphzhdbz- jfmi fzu jdbzhe~ jdkkf mf

kdvpfkfbu ef mi phf" J,fzu m jf yvf bdvz ìhzdbz"

Edbj yvibe bdvz pfbdbz hjh- dv kkf jcfq bdvz- eibz bdu~f jdhb wf~zdbbfm- eibz bdu~f

phmmilf- bdu~f phmmf dv b,hkwd~uf d- bdvz bdvz izzfxdbz fu bdu~f fzw~hu i m,djjizhdb ef ìh~f

zv~lh~ udvu zdb n~hj++n~ij fu ef m,fswdzf~ pdu~f iuufbuhdb1 Wi~jf yvf- ivu~fkfbu- pdvz ufz

fsu~kfkfbu djjvw" Mi ìdb kdef~bf ef php~f kihbuhfbu m,hbehphev wzxjcdmdlhyvfkfbu

fsu~kfkfbu djjvw- u~ipihmmibu ivs eh``~fbuz bhpfivs e,vb zxzukf jdbdkhyvf

fkn~dvhmm fu e,vb zxzukf wdmhuhyvf jdkwmhyv"

Imd~z- udvu biuv~fmmfkfbu- hjh d bdvz zdkkfz vb wfv eufbevz- mfz wfbzfz- mfz hefz- mfz

iknhuhdbz- mfz zfbuhkfbuz- mfz iuuijcfkfbuz fuj" yvf bdvz hlbd~hdbz- yvf bdvz bf phphdbz wiz

wmfhbfkfbu wi~jf yvf bdvz uhdbz u~dw djjvwz- zv~lhzzfbu" B,fzu+jf wiz biuv~fm 4

Wi~kh uibu e,hefz- hm x i jfmmf ef m,hmmvkhbiuhdb" .a,ih mv efz mhp~fz iv zvafu ef wf~zdbbfz

hmmvkhbfz fu mhn~fz1 mfz Ndveeciz- mfz Jc~hzuz- mfz Jdb`vjhvz- mfz zihbuz hbehfbz fuj" Imd~z a,ih

u izjhbf wi~ mi efzj~hwuhdb ef m,uiu e,hmmvkhbiuhdb.

Jfvs yvh dbu jdkkvbhyv mfv~z w~dw~fz fsw~hfbjfz hbu~hfv~fz wfvpfbu m,ipdh~ ìhu wdv~ mi

adhf ev wi~uilf dv wi~jf yv,db mfv~ i efkibe jf yvf j,uihu" Hmz dbu fsw~hk mfv~ fsw~hfbjf

fb kduz? kihz yvibe bdvz mhzdbz jfmi- bdvz ~evhzdbz mfv~z jdkkvbhjiuhdbz- mfz efzj~hwuhdbz

ef jf yvh mfv~ fzu i~~hp- vb uiu zuiuhyvf- vbf hef ~hlhef" Bdvz wdvpdbz kkf bdvzkdbuf~ mi uuf ipfj jfuuf hef- u~f fsjhuz jf zvafu? fu wvhz bdvz pdvmdbz dnufbh~ jfu uiu-


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m,ijyv~h~ ef kkf yvf pdvz ijyv~fq ef m,i~lfbu- yvf pdvz ijyv~fq ev w~fzuhlf" Pdvz

jdbzu~vhzfq vbf kihzdb- pdvz immfq m,vbhpf~zhu- efpfbfq edjufv~- ipdjiu- hblbhfv~-

hbevzu~hfm" Edbj pdvz hkilhbfq jdkkfbu pdvz wdvpfq ijyv~h~ m,hmmvkhbiuhdb- jdkkfbu

efpfbh~ hmmvkhb fu pdvz ~evhzfq mi jdkkvbhjiuhdb vb dnafu e,ijyvhzhuhdb fu vb uiu ef

jdbzjhfbjf wi~uhjvmhf~" Z,hm pdvz wmiu- pdxfq nhfb jfmi1 yvf pdvz m,iwwfmhfq hmmvkhbiuhdb dv

u~ibz`d~kiuhdb- pdvz ~evhzfq yvfmyvf jcdzf ef phpibu vbf hef kd~uf"

Wdv~ jfvs yvh b,dbu aikihz izzhzu efz ~fbjdbu~fz ef Phkimi- wvhz+af eh~f yv,hm b,x i ~hfb

ijyv~h~ eibz mi zwh~huvimhu" Mi zwh~huvimhu fzu vb ~dxivkf d db ufbuf ef jdkw~fbe~f mi phf

ufmmf yv,fmmf fzu- fu php~f jf yv,db i jdkw~hz j,fzu m,fzzfbjf ef mi zwh~huvimhu" Hm b,x i ef wmijf

wdv~ ivjvbf ijyvhzhuhdb- ef wmijf wdv~ ivjvbf ~fbdbjhiuhdb" Mi ~fbdbjhiuhdb zf epfmdwwf

m,dkn~f ef m,ijyvhzhuhdb" Jf

b,fzu bh ijyvhzhuhdb- bh w~djfzzvz ef efpfbh~" Pdvz wdvpfq uvehf~- dnufbh~ vbf mhjfbjf- vb

ehwmkf- pdvz wdvpfq efpfbh~ w~d`fzzfv~ dv edjufv~? kihz eibz mi zwh~huvimhu- hm b,x i wiz efw~djfzzvz ef efpfbh~"

Pdvz pdvz ~pfhmmfq mf kiuhb- pdvz dvp~fq mi `fbu~f- mi mvkh~f ev zdmfhm hbdbef pdu~f

jcikn~f" Pdvz pdxfq jfuuf mvkh~f fu pdvz ehufz1 .Hm x i ef mi mvkh~f." M,dnzjv~hu z,fb fzu

immf- mi phf fzu hbdbef ef mvkh~f" Fu j,fzu fsijufkfbu jf yvh i~~hpf eibz jf yvf pdvz

iwwfmfq .hmmvkhbiuhdb." Db dvp~f mfz `fbu~fz ef zdb u~f- db zd~u ef jfu fbjmdz j~ wi~ mf

zfbz ef mi jdbzjhfbjf ev .af.- ev .kdh.- ef m,fld- ef udvufz jfz w~dw~huz j~n~imfz ef mi

jdbbihzzibjf- ef m,fsw~hfbjf- efz pimfv~z- efz j~hu~fz" Db zd~u ef udvz jfz fbjmdz- efz

ehphzhdbz `ihufz wi~ m,cdkkf- efz ~fmhlhdbz- efz biuhdbimhuz- fu db ehu1 .Ic) mi phf fzu vbf- mi

phf fzu hbehphzhnmf- mi phf bf wfvu wiz u~f `~ilkfbuf #mi `~ilkfbuiuhdb fzu `ihuf wi~

m,cdkkf("

Edbj pdvz pdxfq mf udvu d~libhyvf ef mi phf- bdb wiz vbf uduimhu j~f i~uh`hjhfmmfkfbu wi~

efz ucd~hfz fu efz hefz hbul~ibufz" Mi phf b,fzu wiz vbf uduimhu? fmmf b,fzu wiz jdbzu~vhuf

zv~ efz ucd~hfz? j,fzu vb udvu d~libhyvf ixibu mi ehphbhu e,vbf kilbh`hyvf hbuf~~fmiuhdb Bdb

wiz m,hbuf~jdbbfshdb ef jfz kijchbfz yvf j~fbu mfz u~fz cvkihbz" Hm x i efz

hbuf~jdbbfshdbz eibz mfz d~ehbiufv~z- eibz pdz pdhuv~fz- pdz kdudz- mfz `vzfz" Kf~pfhmmfvzfz

hbuf~jdbbfshdbz, Mfz wi~uhfz zdbu fb hbuf~jdbbfshdb- kihz hjh- mfz u~fz zdbu fb hbuf~~fmiuhdb"

Kkf vbf ldvuuf e,fiv jdbuhfbu mf kxzu~f ev L~ibe Udvu ef mi phf" Hmz ~fw~zfbufbu mf

L~ibe Udvu ef mi phf jdzkhyvf- jfuuf ldvuuf e,fiv- jf n~hb e,cf~nf"

Wi~ jdbzyvfbu- db pdhu mf Udvu d~libhyvf fu m,hbuf~~fmiuhdb zij~f ef udvu jf yvh fzu- ef

jciyvf u~f yvh fshzuf- fu mfz wf~jfwuhdbz nizfz zv~ mi ehphzhdb ef mi phf fb .kdh. fu .bdb+

kdh.- mf .kdh. fu mf .udh. ehzwi~iu" M,dnzjv~hu ef jfuuf hlbd~ibjf- ef jfuuf ehphzhdb- ef jfuuf

`~ilkfbuiuhdb z,fb fzu immf- fu hm i mi mvkh~f ev Udvu- ef m,uiu d~libhyvf- ef m,hbuf~~fmiuhdb?

fu bdu~f jdbzjhfbjf ef jfuuf hbuf~~fmiuhdb pfhmmf mi ufbe~fzzf ef m,ikdv~ fu ef mi

jdkwizzhdb"


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M,hmmvkhbiuhdb b,fzu wiz yvfmyvf jcdzf ef kxzu~hfvs" J,fzu mi wf~jfwuhdb ef mi phf ufmmf

yv,fmmf fzu- fu mf jdv~ilf ef php~f mi p~hu ef pdu~f w~dw~f wf~jfwuhdb- yvdh yv,hm i~~hpf" J,fzu

udvu"

Mi mhn~iuhdb- j,fzu mi jdkw~cfbzhdb ef mi biuv~f ef mi jdbzjhfbjf ev .af. yvh jdbuhbvf ipfj

zfz izzf~phzzfkfbuz? fu yvibe pdvz wf~jfpfq mi biuv~f efz iuuijcfz- ev ~zfiv efz iuuijcfz-efz `f~z fu efz jcibfz j~ wi~ mi jdbzjhfbjf ev .af. fu yvh pdvz hzdmf ev L~ibe Udvu ef mi

phf- jfuuf wf~jfwuhdb pdvz mhn~f efz l~h``fz ef mi jdbzjhfbjf ev .af." M,fld- mf kdh- mf zfm`-

b,fzu wiz vbf fbuhu yvh edhpf u~f eu~vhuf- kihz m,hefbuh hjiuhdb ef mi phf ipfj mf kdvpfkfbu

ef jfuuf hef ehzwi~iu" Imd~z pdvz ehufz yvf mi wf~zdbbf fzu mhn~f"

Edbj- kfz ikhz - yvh yvf jf zdhu yvh ihu wdz mi yvfzuhdb fu yvh fzu pfbv hjh wdv~ mi w~fkh~f

`dhz- zijcfq yv,hm b,x i wiz ef w~djfzzvz ef efpfbh~ eibz mi zwh~huvimhu"

Fzu+jf yvf j,fzu jfuuf zhkwmhjhu ef mi zwh~huvimhu yvh ejdbjf~uf mfz lfbz 4 Fu wdv~yvdh

efp~ihu+db zf jdkwi~f~ ivs ivu~fz 4 Jdkkfbu wdvpfq pdvz avlf~ yv,vbf wf~zdbbf i

.iuufhbu. dv .b,i wiz iuufhbu. 4 #af ~fw~fbez mf uf~kf vuhmhz eibz mi yvfzuhdb("

A,w~dvpf ef m,fbphf- wi~jf yvf a,hkilhbf yvf mfz ivu~fz .dbu iuufhbu. fu yvf .af b,ih wiz

iuufhbu." Fzu+jf yvf mi ehphbhu- fzu+jf yvf mi p~hu- fzu+jf yvf mi ~imhu- j,fzu yvfmyvf jcdzf

yvh fzu cd~z ef pdvz- yvfmyvf jcdzf pf~z yvdh pdvz efphfq ipibjf~ 4 Fzu+jf yvfmyvf jcdzf ef

zuiuhyvf eibz m,fzwijf fu mf ufkwz- pf~z yvdh pdvz immfq ~ikwf~ dv pf~z yvdh pdvz immfq pdmf~ 4

Edbj hm b,x i ~hfb yvh edhpf u~f jcf~jc- ~hfb yvh edhpf u~f ijyvhz- fu ~hfb yv,db wvhzzf

efpfbh~- dnufbh~- yvdh db edhpf i~~hpf~" J,fzu vbf yvfzuhdb ef wf~jfwuhdb wv~h`hf" Db edhumi wv~lf~ ef udvz mfz jdbehuhdbbfkfbuz- ef udvufz mfz hefz- efz ucd~hfz- mi eni~~izzf~ ef

udvufz mfz udshbfz efz ucd~hfz fu efz hedmdlhfz" Fu yvibe mi wf~jfwuhdb zf~i wv~h`hf- hm x

iv~i jdkkvbhdb ipfj jf yvh fzu"

J,fzu vbf jdkkvbhdb zibz f``d~u? fmmf i m,mlibjf ef mi zwdbuibhu" Fu nhfb yvf pdvz-

jdkkf kdh+kkf- ihkf~hfq+pdvz pdvz ufbe~f zv~ jfuuf yvfzuhdb- bdvz efpdbz jdbuhbvf~"

.Chf~- pdvz ipfq wi~m ef mi uduimhu fu ef mi wihs efz kdbuilbfz fu efz i~n~fz- fu pdvz mfv~

jdkwi~fq mfz u~fz cvkihbz" J,fzu vbf `ivzzf jdkwi~ihzdb" Mfz u~fz cvkihbz zdbu jiwinmfz

ef wi~mf~- e,ibimxzf~" Edbj hm `ivu yv,hm x ihu wdv~ mfz u~fz cvkihbz vb w~djfzzvz eh``~fbu

wdv~ j~du~f eibz mf udvu" Z,hm pdvz wmiu- jmi~h`hfq jfuuf yvfzuhdb"

A,fzw~f yvf mf yvfzuhdbbfv~ ipihu ijjdkwilb m,d~iufv~ ev envu mi `hb ev ehzjdv~z- wi~jf

yv, mi `hb hm i u ehu yvf- jdkkf mi `mfv~ dv jdkkf mf `~vhu bf uh~f wiz zdb fshzufbjf- zi

nfivu- zdb wi~`vk ef mi khbvzjvmf fu ufbe~f uhlf- ef mi n~hbehmmf dv ef mi n~ibjcf kihz yv,hm

uh~f zdb fshzufbjf fu zdb fzzfbjf ef mi uduimhu ef m,i~n~f- jciyvf lfzuf- jciyvf kdvpfkfbu-

jciyvf kdu efp~ihu uh~f~ zdb fzzfbjf ef mi uduimhu ef m,u~f cvkihb" Db b,i wiz bh mi

wf~uhbfbjf ef mi wfbzf fu ef zdb kdvpfkfbu" B,i+u+db wiz ehu chf~ yvf mf kdvpfkfbu ef mi

wfbzf uihu bjfzzih~f wdv~ php~f fb zdjhu 4 B,i+u+db wiz ehu yvf pdvz efphfq ijyv~h~ mijdbbihzzibjf efz zjhfbjfz - ef mi ufjcbdmdlhf- ef mi wdmhuhyvf- ef m,jdbdkhf- ef udvufz jfz


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zu~vjuv~fz ìhufz wi~ m,cdkkf- eibz mfzyvfmmfz pdvz efpfq cinhuf~ fu yvf pdvz efpfq

kibvp~f~ mf zipdh~- m,ijyvhzhuhdb efz hb`d~kiuhdbz- mfv~ d~libhziuhdb- mf ìhu e,ipdh~ vb

jf~pfiv imf~uf yvh wfvu kibhwvmf~ efz zxzukfz jdkwmhyvz ef jdbbihzzibjf fu efz

ehzjhwmhbfz ef ìdb f``hjijf" M- j,fzu p~ihkfbu wf~uhbfbu"

Kihz jf yvh fzu bjfzzih~f- j,fzu ef nhfb pdh~ yvf jf kdvpfkfbu ef mi wfbzf ipfj m,ihef efzkduz- efz kfzv~fz- efz zxkndmfz- efz jdbjfwuz- j,fzu vbf hbpfbuhdb ef m,cdkkf" Mfz kduz

b,dbu wiz ef phf wi~ fvs+kkfz" mf kdu b,fzu wiz mi jcdzf" Mf kdu b,fzu wiz mi phf" Pdvz immfq

ìh~f vbf w~dkfbief eibz mfz ndhz fu pdvz pdxfq eh``~fbufz wibji~ufz" Mi wibji~uf b,fzu wiz

mf jcfkhb" Fmmf pdvz kdbu~f mi eh~fjuhdb" Fmmf wfvu pdvz edbbf~ mf bdk ev jcfkhb- pdvz

kdbu~f~ mi eh~fjuhdb- fmmf wfvu pdvz edbbf~ mi ehzuibjf fb ohmdku~fz dv fb khmmfz dv udvu jf

yvf pdvz pdvmfq- kihz mi wibji~uf b,fzu wiz mf jcfkhb- fu pdvz bf pdvz ijj~djcfq wiz mi

wibji~uf zh pdvz ufz hbu~fzz wi~ mi w~dkfbief" Pdvz mi mhzfq fu pdvz jdbuhbvfq pdu~f

jcfkhb"

Edbj jf yvf m,d~iufv~ fzzixihu ef wi~uilf~ ipfj pdvz chf~- j,uihu jfuuf u~ilehf ef mi ~ijf

cvkihbf yvh i wf~ev m,mlibjf ef ~fzuf~ eibz mi uduimhu udvu fb ilhzzibu wi~ mi zu~vjuv~f ef

mi wfbzf- fb ilhzzibu wcxzhyvfkfbu fu wzxjcdmdlhyvfkfbu" Mi u~ilehf- mi jdbehuhdb

wiucuhyvf ef mi ~ijf cvkihbf fzu evf m,iuu~hnvuhdb e,vbf `hbimhu iv kdu- m,hef- mi

zu~vjuv~f efz kfzv~fz yvf bdvz ipdbz j~fz- ivs zxkndmfz- ivs jdbjfwuz- iv ìhu ef mfv~

iuu~hnvf~ vbf ~imhu" Hmz ~fw~zfbufbu mi ~imhu- kihz- wi~ fvs+kkfz- hmz bf jdbzuhuvfbu wiz

mi ~imhu" Mf kdu .ehfv. b,fzu wiz mi ehphbhu" Fphefkkfbu- mf kdu .ehfv. hbehyvf yvf mi

ehphbhu fshzuf" J,fzu udvu" Pdvz wdvpfq ~fbe~f vb jvmuf iv kdu .ehfv. ipfj efz `mfv~z- dv

nhfb pdvz wdvpfq j~f~ efz zxkndmfz fb ijjd~e ipfj pdz lduz wdv~ ~fw~zfbuf~ jfuuf hefef ehfv - kihz mfz hkilfz fu mfz hedmfz yvf bdvz ipdbz jdbzu~vhufz- mfz ufkwmfz- mfz lmhzfz- mfz

zxbildlvfz yvf bdvz ipdbz jdbzu~vhuz- bf jdbzuhuvfbu wiz mi ehphbhu"

Db i edbj fzzix ef eh~f yvf mfz kdbuilbfz- phpibu eibz mfv~ uduimhu- mfv~ zdv``mf kkf

uihu wihs" A,fzw~f yvf pdvz bf ~fli~efq wiz mfz kdbuilbfz jdkkf efz dnafuz" Jf zdbu efz

u~fz jdkkf pdvz fu kdh" Mi wmibuf udvu fbuh~f fzu vb u~f" Mf jdzkdz fzu vb u~f" Hm i vbf

.u~fu." Hmz bf zdbu wiz ef mi kiuh~f- kihz ef m,bf~lhf zdmheh`hf"

Edbj mfz kdbuilbfz zdbu ef m,bf~lhf zdmheh`hf- mfz i~n~fz zdbu ef m,bf~lhf" A,fzw~f yvf

pdvz bf zdv``~fq wiz ef m,hmmvzhdb yvf bdvz mfv~ zdkkfz zvw~hfv~z fu yv,hmz zdbu hjh- izzf~phz

iv wmihzh~ ef m,cvkibhu"

Mf ezyvhmhn~f jdmdlhyvf ~ipilfv~ fu mi wf~uf ef zibu yvf bdvz zvnhzzdbz ivadv~e,cvh zdbu

evz m,hmmvzhdb yvf mi ~ijf cvkihbf fzu zvw~hfv~f ivs ivu~fz u~fz bdb cvkihbz ipfj

mfzyvfmz bdvz efpdbz php~f- cinhuf~- wi~uilf~ mi wmibuf"

.Wdv~yvdh mfz hkilfz bf wfvpfbu+fmmfz wiz u~f jiwufz iv kdkfbu d fmmfz iwwi~ihzzfbu 4

Jdkkfbu wdvpdbz+bdvz ~fkehf~ jf kibyvf ef phlhmibjf 4 .


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Yvibe bdvz zdkkfz izzhz fb zhmfbjf- eh``~fbufz hkilfz zf w~zfbufbu efpibu kdh"

Z~fkfbu mfz hkilfz bf zdbu wiz jdbzu~vhufz iv kdkfbu d bdvz mfz ~fki~yvdbz" Fmmfz

edhpfbu fshzuf~ ea- fmmfz edhpfbu ipdh~ u hkw~hkfz eibz bdu~f zxzukf bfv~dmdlhyvf fu

jchkhyvf" Edbj fmmfz bf zdbu wiz jdbzu~vhufz iv kdkfbu d bdvz mfz ~fki~yvdbz" D"O 4 J,fzu

vb efz wdhbuz"

Pdvz efkibefq1 .Wdv~yvdh fzu+jf yvf af bf mfz ~fki~yvf wiz yvibe fmmfz iwwi~ihzzfbu 4

Fmmfz zv~lhzzfbu- af jcfkhbf ipfj fmmfz fu iv ndvu e,vb kdkfbu- af zvhz jdbzjhfbu yvf a,uihz

fb jdkwilbhf ef jfz hkilfz dv ef jfz hefz".

J,fzu u~z zhkwmf- u~z u~z zhkwmf" Bdvz ipdbz u fbu~ibz efwvhz m,fbìbjf jdbzu~vh~f

vbf hkilf ef bdvz+kkfz fu efz ivu~fz" Bdvz pdmvdbz - wi~ fsfkwmf- m,jdmf- iv jdmmlf-

eibz mi zdjhu- fu yvfmyv,vb zf jdkwd~uf e,vbf kibh~f zuvwhef dv e,vbf kibh~f nhqi~~f"

Mi ìdb hbhbufmmhlfbuf ef zf jdkwd~uf~ #jdkwd~ufkfbu pf~nim- wcxzhyvf dv wzxjcdmdlhyvf(

z,uihu kibh`fzuf wi~ efz ~ijuhdbz nhqi~~fz- .ud~evfz.- hbjd~~fjufz" Pdvz mf ~fki~yvfq-pdvz m,fzyvhpfq- dv pdvz fzzixfq ef mf jd~~hlf~ z,hm x i ef m,ikhuh- ef mi ~jfwuhphu ef mi wi~u

ef m,ivu~f wf~zdbbf dv zh pdvz ipfq mi ~fzwdbzinhmhu ef w~fbe~f zdhb ef jfuuf wf~zdbbf Pdvz

wf~zviefq jfuuf wf~zdbbf ef jd~~hlf~ zdb jdkwd~ufkfbu" Mi jcdzf efp~ihu z,i~~uf~ m- b,fzu+

jf wiz 4 Pdvz m,ipfq ~fbjdbu~- pdvz m,ipfq ~fki~yv- pdvz ipfq wf~zvie mi wf~zdbbf" Dv

nhfb fmmf jd~~hlf zdb jdkwd~ufkfbu- dv nhfb fmmf bf mf jd~~hlf wiz" Pdvz b,fb ufz wmvz

~fzwdbzinmf" M,i`ìh~f efp~ihu z,i~~uf~ m" Pdvz efp~hfq kdv~h~ m,pbfkfbu udvu fbuhf~" D~

jfmi bf zf w~devhu wiz1 ef jfu izwfju nhqi~~f ev jdkwd~ufkfbu- pdvz eevhzfq yvf mi

wf~zdbbf fzu zuvwhef" A,ih edbj ~evhu mi wf~zdbbf udvu fbuh~f jfu pbfkfbu wi~uhjvmhf~

ef zdb jdkwd~ufkfbu dv ef zdb fsw~fzzhdb" Edbj af ehz1 .jfuuf wf~zdbbf fzu zuvwhef- jfuufwf~zdbbf fzu kivpihzf- jfuuf wf~zdbbf fzu nhqi~~f."

Yvfmyv,vb pdvz wmiu fu hkkehiufkfbu pdvz jdbzu~vhzfq vbf hkilf1

pdvz ihkfq jfuuf wf~zdbbf" Vbf fsw~hfbjf il~inmf ìhu biu~f vbf iuuhuvef ef zxkwiuchf fu

vbf fsw~hfbjf ezil~inmf ìhu biu~f vbf iuuhuvef e,ibuhwiuchf #w~`~fbjf- w~avl-

zxkwiuchf- ibuhwiuchf( fu wvhz pdvz ipfq pdu~f dwhbhdb"

Pdvz ~fbjdbu~fq phblu wf~zdbbfz eibz vbf adv~bf fu pdvz ipfq phblu hkilfz eh``~fbufz" Z,hm

pdvz wmiu- pdxfq nhfb jfmi" J,fzu m jf yvf bdvz ìhzdbz fu j,fzu ihbzh yvf bdvz zfkdbz mfzl~ihbfz ef bdu~f zdv``~ibjf" Jf b,fzu wiz mi phf yvh bdvz hb`mhlf efz zdv``~ibjfz- j,fzu bdvz+

kkfz"

Jfmi- j,uihu mi w~fkh~f wi~uhf ev w~djfzzvz ef ìn~hjiuhdb efz hkilfz"

Kihz m,ivu~f wf~zdbbf pdvz ijjfwuf- pdvz ~fjdbbiu- pdvz mdvf- pdvz `miuuf- fu pdvz nuhzzfq

vbf hkilf ef pdvz+kkf" Hm zf wfvu yvf pdvz ixfq ìhu yvfmyvf jcdzf ef nhfb- yvf pdvz

ixfq k~hu efz mdviblfz fu yvf pdvz fb zdxfq cfv~fvs" Kihz udvu edhu z,i~~uf~ m"

Zfvmfkfbu udvuf jfuuf fsw~hfbjf mihzzf efz ~zhevz1 .Af zvhz vbf wf~zdbbf ~fmhlhfvzf- af zvhzvbf zihbuf wf~zdbbf- af zvhz vbf wf~zdbbf lb~fvzf". Mi lb~dzhu z,fzu fsw~hkf fb vb


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kdkfbu wi~uhjvmhf~- kihz pdvz ipfq jdbzu~vhu vbf hef ~hlhef- vbf hkilf ef pdvz+kkf"

Edbj mi w~djcihbf `dhz yvf bdvz bdvz ~fbjdbu~f~dbz- a,fzzihf~ih ef w~zfbuf~ m,izwfju ef kdb

jdkwd~ufkfbu yvf pdvz ipfq ihk fu pdvz fzzihf~fq ef w~dafuf~ m,hkilf yvf a,ipihz ihkf"

Wi~ jdbzyvfbu- bdu~f ~fmiuhdb efphfbu vb kdvpfkfbu ef w~dafjuhdb e,hkilfz"

Mf kdvpfkfbu efz ~fmiuhdbz efphfbu vb kdvpfkfbu ef w~`~fbjfz fu ef w~avlz-e,iuu~ijuhdbz fu ef ~wvmzhdbz- e,ijjfwuiuhdbz fu ef ~fafuz- nizz zv~ mfz hkilfz jdbzu~vhufz

wi~uh~ e,fsw~hfbjfz" M,pbfkfbu fzu wizz- kihz bdvz bf mvh wf~kfuudbz wiz ef `hbh~" Zh

m,pbfkfbu z,fzu uf~khb zv~ mf wmib wcxzhyvf dv kiu~hfm- bdvz mvh hbzv``mdbz ef mi phf- bdvz

mvh hbafjudbz ef mi phf fb mf ~evhzibu dv fb mf u~ibz`d~kibu fb vbf hkilf- fb vbf hef" J,fzu

m jf yvf bdvz ìhzdbz efwvhz m,fbìbjf fu ef ufmmfz hkilfz zdbu jdbzhe~fz jdkkf efz

kjibhzkfz ef e`fbzf" Jf zdbu efz li~ef+`dvz"

Edbj- zh- efkihb- pdvz ~fbjdbu~fq mi wf~zdbbf- pdvz zipfq jdkkfbu pdvz jdkwd~uf~ ipfj

fmmf fu jdkkfbu kibhwvmf~ zdb jdkwd~ufkfbu" Jdkkf zh mi phf uihu vb jcikw ef niuihmmf-jdkkf zh mi phf uihu vbf yvfzuhdb ef phjudh~f dv ef eìhuf" Yvfmmf i``~fvzf jcdzf bdvz

ipdbz ìhuf ef mi phf )

Yvibe- pdvz pdvz izzfxfq wihzhnmfkfbu- mfz hkilfz yvh fbjdkn~fbu pdu~f jdbzjhfbjf-

jdbzu~vhufz efwvhz m,fbìbjf wi~ mfz ivu~fz fu wi~ pdvz+kkf- ~fkdbufbu" Fmmfz zdbu pdz

jdkwilbfz udvu iv mdbl ef mi phf- fmmfz bf pdvz inibedbbfbu wiz" .X i+u+hm vb kdxfb ef zf

mhn~f~ ef udvu jfmi 4. efkibef mf yvfzuhdbbfv~"

I jf ji~~f`dv~- hm x i efvs pdhfz- wi~jf yvf bdvz zdkkfz efz iww~fbibuz- yvf bdvz bdvz

evyvdbz bdvz+kkfz" Bdvz wdvpdbz iww~fbe~f ef efvs kibh~fz1

9 fb b,iuuijcibu ivjvbf ivud~hu ivs hkilfz yvh fshzufbu ea fb bdvz" Mfz hkilfz phfbbfbu-

fu- zhkwmfkfbu- bdvz mfz hlbd~dbz- bdvz bf mfv~ ijjd~edbz ivjvbf pimfv~" J,fzu vbf ìdb ef

w~djef~"

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efz hkilfz phfbbfbu wdv~ ~lmf~ bdu~f wf~jfwuhdb fu wdv~ jdbu~mf~ bdz ~ijuhdbz" Bdvz

efpfbdbz jdbzjhfbuz ef jfmi fu bdvz iww~fbdbz mfz nimixf~- mfz hlbd~f~"

Zh vbf wf~zdbbf fzu u~z euf~khbf fu yv,hm x ihu vbf w~d`dbefv~ eibz zi ~fjcf~jcf- wfvu+

u~f yv,vbf `dhz yvf mf w~djfzzvz ef ìn~hjiuhdb i u pv- mi wf~jfwuhdb w~devhu

hkkehiufkfbu m,inibedb ef udvuf m,i`ìh~f" Iv jiz d hm z,ilh~ihu ef jcf~jcfv~z

wi~uhjvmh~fkfbu i~efbuz fu zfbzhnmfz- zf jdbzij~ibu mi ~fjcf~jcf jfjh wfvu zf w~devh~f-

jfjh zf w~devhu" Kihz z,hm b,x i wiz jfuuf jdbzj~iuhdb- zh mi phf udvu fbuh~f b,fzu wiz d~hfbuf

pf~z jfuuf fswmd~iuhdb- bf mvh fzu wiz jdbzij~f- imd~z db edhu immf~ wiz wiz- cfv~f wi~

cfv~f- khbvuf wi~ khbvuf- kdkfbu wi~ kdkfbu" M,hkilf phfbu- fzzihf e,fkwdhzdbbf~ mi

wf~jfwuhdb- hbchnf mfz ~ijuhdbz- pdvz fb ufz jdbzjhfbu- fu pdvz m,hlbd~fq" J,fzu ihbzh yvf

pdvz jdkkfbjfq iww~fbe~f" Zh pdvz dzfq m,hlbd~f~- imd~z jciyvf kdkfbu d pdvz m,hlbd~fq

fu mi nimixfq hbufbzh`hf mi zfbzhnhmhu" Fu yvibe pdvz ipfq ihbzh u~ipihmm zv~ pdvz ipfj


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Ipfj pdu~f jddw~iuhdb- bdvz u~ihuf~dbz fbph~db ehs yvfzuhdbz jfu iw~z+kheh"

Yvfzuhdb1 .Wdv~yvdh iwwfmfq+pdvz .u~fz. mfz kdbuilbfz- mfz ~hph~fz fu mfz i~n~fz 4 Yv,fzu+

jf yv,vb u~f 4 .efkibef vb wi~uhjhwibu"

Pdvz zipfq jf yv,fzu vbf jcdzf1 j,fzu jf yvh fzu jdbzu~vhu wi~ mi kihb ef m,cdkkf- jdbzu~vhu

wi~ mi wfbzf ef m,cdkkf" Vbf jcdzf i efz wi~uhfz yvh wfvpfbu u~f zwi~fz fu yvh wfvpfbu

u~f ~izzfknmfz Mfz zu~vjuv~fz yvf pdvz jdbzu~vhzfq fu yvf pdvz iwwfmfq kihzdbz- mfz

pdhuv~fz- mfz ivudnvz- mfz iphdbz- mfz `vzfz yvf pdvz jdbzu~vhzfq- zdbu efz jcdzfz jdbzuhuvfz

ef wi~uhfz pi~hfz" Hm `vu vb ufkwz d fmmfz b,fshzuihfbu wiz fu- iw~z ipdh~ u ipfj pdvz

yvfmyvf ufkwz- mi zvhuf e,vzv~f- fmmfz zf zdbu eu~hd~fz" Fmmfz dbu vb envu fu vbf `hb" Hm x

i vbf ev~f ef phf wdv~ mfz kijchbfz- wdv~ mfz nuhkfbuz- wdv~ udvufz mfz jcdzfz yvf

m,cvkibhu i jdbzu~vhufz"

Mi phf b,i wiz u jdbzu~vhuf wi~ m,cvkibhu" J,fzu vb wcbdkbf zibz jdkkfbjfkfbu fu

zibz `hb" Mf jdzkdz- jdkwdz e,vbhpf~z hbbdkn~inmfz- b,fzu wiz vbf j~iuhdb ef mi wfbzf

cvkihbf dv ef mi kihb ef m,cdkkf" Hm fzu lb~ wi~ mvh+kkf- hm zf kihbuhfbu mvh+kkf- fu

m,hbuf~~fmiuhdb fbu~f mfz eh``~fbufz fsw~fzzhdbz ef mi phf b,fzu wiz yvfmyvf jcdzf yvh zf

u~dvpf kibhwvm wi~ mf jf~pfiv cvkihb- yvh zdhu niz zv~ jf~uihbfz ucd~hfz- zv~ jf~uihbfz

hefz" M,hbuf~~fmiuhdb fzu m,fzzfbjf ef m,fshzufbjf"

Edbj mfz kdbuilbfz b,dbu wiz u j~fz wi~ bdvz- b,fzu+jf wiz 4 Pdvz wdvpfq wmibuf~ vbf

l~ihbf fu ihef~ mi l~ihbf lf~kf~- fu ihef~ mf lf~kf j~du~f fb vb i~n~hzzfiv- fu m,i~n~hzzfivfb i~n~f- fb m,i~~dzibu fu fb fb w~fbibu zdhb? kihz m,bf~lhf j~iuhpf jijcf eibz jf

khbvzjvmf wfuhu kd~jfiv- jfuuf wfuhuf l~ihbf b,fzu bh pdu~f bh ki j~iuhdb" Imd~z- mfz

kdbuilbfz- mfz ~hph~fz dbu vb uiu e,u~f- dbu vbf yvimhu e,u~f" Fu yvfmmf fzu jfuuf yvimhu

41 vbf bf~lhf j~iuhpf hbwvhzinmf"

Mi phf- j,fzu mf ji~iju~f hbwvhzinmf ef m,bf~lhf j~iuhpf" Mfz `d~kfz wfvpfbu jciblf~-" kihz

hm b,x i ~hfb ef zfknminmf vbf efzu~vjuhdb" Hm x i kf~lfbjf efz `d~kfz fu ~fudv~ efz

`d~kfz eibz mfv~ zdv~jf kkf"

Edbj mfz wfuhuz ~vhzzfivs aihmmhzzfbu efz ~djcf~z ef mi kdbuilbf fu l~ibehzzfbu fb ~hph~fz- fu

mfz ~hph~fz pf~zfbu mfv~ fiv eibz mfz djibz- fu mi jcimfv~ hbufbzf ev zdmfhm u~ibz`d~kf mfz

fivs zimfz fb piwfv~z fu fb bvilfz efzzimz- fu mfz bvilfz pf~zfbu mfv~ edvs bfjui~- m,fiv-

yvh ~fudv~bf mi uf~~f" Pdxfq+pdvz mf jxjmf 4 Pdvz pf~~fq jf jxjmf- yvf pdvz pdvz ~`~hfq iv

kdbef khb~im- iv ~dxivkf pluim- iv ~dxivkf ibhkim dv m,fzwjf cvkihbf"

Vbf pdhuv~f dv vb d~ehbiufv~ bf j~f wiz vb ivu~f d~ehbiufv~ dv vbf ivu~f pdhuv~f" Kihz vb

dhzfiv- vb ibhkim- vb i~n~f- vb ibhkim cvkihb wfvu w~dj~f~ zdb zfknminmf"

Edbj mi phf- j,fzu vbf bf~lhf j~iuhpf hbwvhzinmf- fu m,fsw~fzzhdb ef jfuuf bf~lhf j~iuhpf

hbwvhzinmf zdvz mi `d~kf ef kdbuilbfz- ef ~hph~fz- e,i~n~fz- wfvu u~f iwwfmf .u~fz." Jf


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zdbu bdz jdkwilbdbz- bdz zfknminmfz- ipfj yvh bdvz efpdbz wi~uilf~ mf jdzkdz" Bdvz

efpdbz wi~uilf~ ipfj fvs mfz jhfvs- mfz djibz- mi uf~~f"

Kihz jfmi b,fzu wiz mf uckf ef jfu iw~z+kheh" Ipfj jfvs e,fbu~f pdvz yvh zf~dbu ipfj bdvz

mfz adv~z w~djcihbz yvibe bdvz efp~dbz u~ihuf~ ef .kvuiuhdb wzxjchyvf. fu ef .wihs

kdbehimf.- bdvz efp~dbz iww~d`dbeh~ jf wdhbu"

A,fzw~f yvf- ed~bipibu- mi eh``~fbjf fbu~f .jcdzfz. fu .u~fz. zf~i jmih~f wdv~ pdvz"

Yvfzuhdb1 .Yvfmmf fzu mi ~fmiuhdb fbu~f miblilf fu zhmfbjf 4.

Mfz kduz bihzzfbu ev zdb- mf zdb yvh fshzuf ea eibz mf jdzkdz" Ipfq+pdvz aikihz jdvu mf

zdb ef m,fiv jdv~ibuf e,vbf ~hph~f 4 mf zdb jdbufbv eibz mfz djibz 4 mf zdb jdbufbv eibz

mfz ndhz 4 mf zdb ef mi uf~~f 4

Edbj mfz kduz bihzzfbu ev zdb" Pdvz u~ihufq fu kibhwvmfq mfz zdbz fu pdvz nuhzzfq- pdvz

jdbzu~vhzfq efz kduz- efz mfuu~fz fu- jdd~edbbibu mfz phn~iuhdbz zdbd~fz ef jfz mfuu~fz- pdvz

jdbzu~vhzfq efz kduz- pdvz i~~iblfq mfz kduz fu pdvz jdbzu~vhzfq vbf wc~izf fuj"

Fu mf zdb- j,fzu vbf fswmdzhdb ef zhmfbjf" Jf b,fzu wiz vbf pvf ef wduf1 mfz zipibuz dbu

kihbufbibu ejdvpf~u yvf mf jdzkdz udvu fbuhf~ uihu vbf fswmdzhdb ef phef" Hm fzu b ev

phef" Fu hm kf zfknmf yvf mf zhmfbjf fswmdzf fu w~fbe mi `d~kf ev zdb1 hm i vbf fshzufbjf

phn~iudh~f" Mf zdb fzu vbf w~dehlhfvzf bf~lhf- fu mf lbhf cvkihb vuhmhzf jfuuf bf~lhf ev zdb

fu jdbzu~vhu mfz miblvfz- mi mhuu~iuv~f- mi wdzhf- mfz ~dkibz- mi `hjuhdb- mfz fzzihz- mi kvzhyvf

fu udvz mfz Nfivs+i~uz"

Jfuuf j~iuhdb efz miblvfz uihu bjfzzih~f wdv~ mi jdkkvbhjiuhdb" Iv mhfv ef php~f fb u~hnvz

f~~ibufz- mi ~ijf cvkihbf i pdvmv z,hbzuimmf~? fmmf hbpfbui m,il~hjvmuv~f- m,cd~uhjvmuv~f- pdvmvu

jdbzu~vh~f jf yv,db iwwfmmf vbf zdjhu- ~fzu~fhlbibu mi mhnf~u hbehphevfmmf- fu emlvibu mi

~fzwdbzinhmhu fu mfz wdvpdh~z vbf ilfbjf iwwfmf .uiu.? fu fmmf i pdvmv ~lmfkfbuf~ mfz

~fmiuhdbz" J,fzu ihbzh yvf edhpfbu ipdh~ u jdbzu~vhufz wiz wiz1 m,jdbdkhf- mi wdmhuhyvf- mi

jvmuv~f- mi ~fmhlhdb- m,evjiuhdb"

Edbj mi miblvf fzu vb kdxfb ef jdkkvbhjiuhdb? fmmf fzu ivzzh vb kdxfb e,fsw~fzzhdb

wf~zdbbfmmf? fu fmmf i zdb vuhmhu eibz bdu~f phf- eibz mi kfzv~f d bdvz bihzzdbz eibz vbfzdjhu fu bdb eibz mi `d~u dv eibz mi avblmf" Bihzzibu eibz vbf zdjhu cvkihbf- bdvz

ipdbz mi ~fzwdbzinhmhu ef bdvz fsw~hkf~ wf~zdbbfmmfkfbu- ef jdkkvbhyvf~- e,ipdh~ efz

jciblfz- ef wi~uilf~ efz ~fbzfhlbfkfbuz- e,d~libhzf~ m,hb`d~kiuhdb- jf yv,db iwwfmmf

jdbbihzzibjf"

Wi~ jdbzyvfbu- mi pf~nimhziuhdb fzu vb fsf~jhjf zfbzhnmf fu zihb efz miblvfz1 j,fzu vbf

bjfzzhu" Db bf kw~hzf wiz ev udvu mf kdvpfkfbu ef pf~nimhziuhdb- kihz mf kdu fzu vuhmhz

wdv~ hbehyvf~ vb dnafu1 mf kdu .jcfpim.- b,fzu wiz vb jcfpim" Hm hbehyvf vb ibhkim ivyvfm bdvz

ipdbz iuu~hnv mf bdk .jcfpim. #dv .pijcf.- dv .jchfb.(" Mf kdu b,fzu wiz mi pijcf- mf jchfb-

mf jcfpim"


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Edbj mfz kduz zdbu efz hbehjiufv~z" J,fzu udvu jf yv,hmz wfvpfbu `ih~f" Jdkkf pdvz ipfq

jdeh`h mfz uf~kfz fu mi bdkfbjmiuv~f iv zvafu ev kdbef dnafjuh` fsu~hfv~- pdvz + m,cvkibhu

+ pdvz pdvz udv~bfq pf~z m,hbu~hfv~ fu fzzixfq e,hefbuh`hf~ fu ef bdkkf~ mfz kdvpfkfbuz

bfv~djchkhyvfz eibz mf jd~wz" Edbj yvibe hm x ipihu #dv yvibe hm x i( vb jf~uihb

e~iblfkfbu bfv~djchkhyvf- db m,iwwfmmf .jdm~f.- fu jf kdvpfkfbu i zfz zxkwukfz"

Pdvz ipfq vbf ivu~f zd~uf ef e~iblfkfbu bfv~djchkhyvf yvh e~iblf m,yvhmhn~f- fu pdvz

m,iwwfmfq .aimdvzhf." Mf kdbef hbu~hfv~ zvnafjuh`- mvh ivzzh- fu zdb kdvpfkfbu zdbu ibimxzz-

bdkkz fu hefbuh`hz

Mfz kduz zdbu edbj vuhmfz wdv~ zf ~`~f~ ivs pbfkfbuz hbu~hfv~z # jf yvh zf w~devhu

m,hbu~hfv~- jf yv,db iwwfmmf m,fsw~hfbjf( fu hmz zdbu vuhmfz ivzzh wdv~ wi~uilf~ mi

jdbbihzzibjf iv zvafu ef jf yvh fzu fsu~hfv~ fu dnafjuh`"

Kihz mf kdu bf wfvu wiz ej~h~f dv e`hbh~ jf yv,fzu mf zhmfbjf" Hm wfvu ej~h~f jf yv,fzu mf

zdb? hm wfvu kkf pimvf~ mf zdb- wi~jf yvf mf zdb i vbf fshzufbjf kiu~hfmmf1 hm i vbf

fshzufbjf phn~iudh~f" Mfz phn~iuhdbz wfvpfbu u~f kfzv~fz- mfv~ udb - mfv~ `~yvfbjf- mfv~

eh~fjuhdb- udvu wfvu u~f kfzv~" Kihz vbf `dhz yvf pdvz ipfq wf~khz iv zdb ef z,i~~uf~ fu

yvf pdvz ufz eibz mf zhmfbjf- mf kdu efphfbu zibz wf~uhbfbjf" Mf zhmfbjf bf wfvu wiz u~f

kfzv~- pimv- ej~hu- e`hbh" Jdkkfbu wdvpfq+pdvz ej~h~f mf phef 4 Vbf jcdzf wfvu u~f

ej~huf- dv kkf e`hbhf- pimvf" Kihz jdkkfbu mf .^hfb. wfvu+hm u~f ej~hu" Mf

.yvfmyv,vb. wfvu u~f ej~hu" Mf .wf~zdbbf. bf wfvu wiz m,u~f"

Ef mi kkf kibh~f- mi zdv~jf ef mi phf yvh fzu jf `dbefkfbu ehphb- inzdmv ef m,fshzufbjf- mi

zdv~jf ef mi phf yvh fzu mi Zvw~kf Hbufmmhlfbjf- yvh i jivz m,kf~lfbjf e,vb jdzkdz

d~edbb- hbuf~ ~fmh- kilbh`hyvf- bf wfvu wiz u~f ej~huf dv e`hbhf wi~ mfz kduz"

Edbj mi miblvf i vbf wf~uhbfbjf- kihz mi zdv~jf ef mi pf~nimhziuhdb mf zhmfbjf- i vb ji~iju~f

zij~"

Mi wi~dmf- yvh jdbuhfbu mfz kduz fu mfz zdbz- i vbf bf~lhf" Mf zfbz yvh i u iuu~hnv ivs

kduz wi~ mfz l~ikkih~hfbz- wi~ mfz u~iehuhdbz eibz eh``~fbuz jcikwz e,ijuhdb zdjhimf- dbu

iadvu vbf bf~lhf iv kdu- bf~lhf jdbehuhdbbf" Kihz m,bf~lhf jdbufbvf eibz mf phef ev

zhmfbjf b,fzu wiz yvimh`hf- kdeh`hf- fmmf b,fzu jdbehuhdbbf e,ivjvbf kibh~f" Mf ji~iju~f

zij~ fshzuf wi~udvu d hm x i vb uiu ef bdb+jdbehuhdbbfkfbu" Ef jf `ihu- bdvz ehzdbz1 mi

wfbzf b,fzu wiz zij~f? j,fzu vb hbzu~vkfbu vuhmf- vb hbzu~vkfbu jdkkdef- kihz yvf jf

zdhfbu mfz kduz e,vb O~hzcbi- e,vb Ndveeci- e,vb Azvz ef Biqi~fuc" ez yvf jfmi i w~hz

`d~kf ef kduz- hmz zdbu mhkhuz- jdbehuhdbbz" Mf zhmfbjf fzu zij~? mi wfbzf b,fzu wiz zij~f"

Kihz jdkkf bdvz ipdbz ef bdkn~fvzfz ivu~fz yvfzuhdbz- jdbuhbvdbz wi~ mi u~dhzhkf

yvfzuhdb1

Yvfzuhdb1 .Zh mf ufkwz fzu vbf kfzv~f- yv,fzu+jf yvf mf wizz 4 Fu yvfmmf fzu mi ~fmiuhdb fbu~f

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Iwwfmmf~hfq+pdvz .chf~. mf wizz 4 Jfmi z,fzu wizz" Bdvz bdvz zdkkfz ~izzfknmz hjh- kihz-

wfvu+u~f yvf wfbeibu mi bvhu- mfz wf~zdbbfz yvh z,uihfbu ~vbhfz chf~ dbu jcibl

hbu~hfv~fkfbu" Bdb wiz nhdjchkhyvfkfbu- kihz wzxjcdmdlhyvfkfbu" Bdvz bf zipdbz wiz" Hm

zf wfvu yvf bdvz bf zdxdbz wiz mfz kkfz wf~zdbbfz yvf jfmmfz yvf bdvz uhdbz chf~ hjh"

J,fzu vbf ~fbjdbu~f ~fmhlhfvzf" A,fzw~f yvf jfmi bf pdvz f``~ihf wiz zh af ehz yv,hm zf wfvu yvfbdvz bf zdxdbz wiz mfz kkfz wf~zdbbfz yvf jfmmfz yvh zf zdbu l~dvwfz chf~" Bdu~f

~fbjdbu~f- jf yvf bdvz iwwfmdbz chf~- j,uihu vb pbfkfbu" Hm b,fzu wmvz m" Jf `vu vb

pbfkfbu" Wdv~ jdkkvbhyvf~ w~dwdz ef jfu pbfkfbu- pdvz vuhmhzfq mf uf~kf .wizz.-

fu jf yvh zf w~devhu kihbufbibu hjh- pdvz m,iwwfmfq .w~zfbu." Fu wdv~ m,ibuhjhwiuhdb ef jf yvh

pi zf w~devh~f- pdvz vuhmhzfq mf uf~kf .`vuv~." J,fzu vbf uf~khbdmdlhf yvf mi ~ijf cvkihbf i

`d~lf"

Edbj mf wizz b,i wiz e,fshzufbjf- ziv` eibz mi kkdh~f" Fu yv,fzu +jf yvf mi kkdh~f 4 Jf

yvh z,fzu wizz chf~ wfvu ipdh~ mihzz jf~uihbfz u~ijfz eibz m,fzw~hu- eibz mf zxzukfbfv~dmdlhyvf" Pdvz ihkfq jf~uihbfz jcdzfz- pdvz eufzufq jf~uihbfz jcdzfz- pdvz ipfq u

e~iblz fb fbufbeibu jf~uihbfz jcdzfz- pdvz ipfq u fbbvxz wi~ jf~uihbfz ivu~fz jcdzfz"

Edbj- mi kkdh~f- jf zdbu jfz ~zhevz ijjvkvmz efz pbfkfbuz ef mi phf? mf wizz b,i wiz

e,fshzufbjf fb uibu yv,fbuhu" Mf w~zfbu- mf wizz- mf `vuv~ zdbu efz ehphzhdbz ìhufz wi~ mf

jf~pfiv cvkihb yvh pfvu j~f~ ivudv~ ef mvh efz jmuv~fz yvibe hm efphfbu jdbzjhfbu ef

m,hb`hbhu ef mi phf- ef m,bf~lhf j~iuhpf hbwvhzinmf dv ef mi ehphbhu ef mi phf- ef m,uf~bhu ef

mi phf" Hm zf zfbu bv efpibu jfuuf uf~bhu fu jfuuf hb`hbhu- hm pfvu zf puh~ e,hefz"

Edbj wdv~ jdbzu~vh~f vbf ~fmiuhdb ipfj jfuuf hb`hbhu fu jfuuf uf~bhu- pdvz jdkkfbjfq mfz

kfzv~f~1 ivadv~e,cvh- efkihb- mfz cfv~fz mfz adv~z- mfz kdhz? udvu jfjh- jf zdbu efz jimjvmz

cvkihbz" Kihz mi phf j,fzu vb uiu e,u~f- vbf kf~lfbjf fu vb ~fudv~ m,vbhu? fmmf i vb

kdvpfkfbu jxjmhyvf- vb kdvpfkfbu jh~jvmih~f- wiz ef jdkkfbjfkfbu fu wiz ef `hb- wiz ef

j~iuhdb fu wiz ef efzu~vjuhdb" Vb hb`hbh #a,czhuf fkwmdxf~ jf kdu- kihz vuhmhzdbz+mf eibz

m,hbu~u ef mi jdkkvbhjiuhdb( vb djib e,hb`hbhu dv e,uf~bhu- vb uiu e,u~f ef mi phf- zibz

jdkkfbjfkfbu- zibz `hb- cd~z evyvfm kf~lfbu mfz `d~kfz yvh `mduufbu wvhz z,hkkf~lfbu ef

bdvpfiv"

Mf wizz- mf w~zfbu- mf `vuv~- jdkkf hefz- jdkkf jdbjfwuz- fshzufbu zfvmfkfbu eibz mf

jf~pfiv cvkihb"

Efvshkfkfbu- yv,fzu+hm i~~hp 4 Yv,fzu+jf yvf mi ~ijf cvkihbf z,fzu ìhu fmmf+kkf fb

jdbehuhdbbibu mfz jdvjcfz wcxzhyvf- pf~nimf fu wzxjcdmdlhyvf ef zdb u~f 4 #j,fzu jdbufbv

m,hbu~hfv~ ef pdvz fu ef kdh( Yv,fzu+jf yvf mf w~fkhf~ cdkkf i ìhu fb mvh #dv fb fmmf( 4 jfz

ijuhphuz- mf kdvpfkfbu ef ~fmiuhdb ipfj mi biuv~f- mf kdvpfkfbu ef ~fmiuhdb ipfj mfz

dhzfivs- ipfj mfz ibhkivs- ipfj m,fzwjf cvkihbf- udvu jfmi fzu u~ibzkhz eibz pdu~f jd~wz fu

eibz kdb jd~wz- fu j,fzu jf yv,db iwwfmmf m,c~huilf"

Edbj- j,fzu jf yv,db iwwfmmf mf wizz- jdkkf vbf jdbuhbvhu iv bhpfiv wcxzhyvf fu iv bhpfivwzxjcdmdlhyvf- wi~jf yvf bdvz zdkkfz mf w~devhu ef m,pdmvuhdb cvkihbf uduimf- ef mi


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jhphmhziuhdb- ef mi jvmuv~f" J,fzu jf yvf bdvz ipdbz zvll~ fb ehzibu yvf bdvz uhdbz bz

eibz mi zdjhu cvkihbf" Fu hm x i eh``~fbufz ~ijfz ixibu eh``~fbuz zjckiz ef

jdbehuhdbbfkfbu- eh``~fbufz jvmuv~fz- eh``~fbufz miblvfz- eh``~fbuz kdemfz ef ~ijuhdbz-

ef kjibhzkfz ef e`fbzf" Pdvz pdxfq 4 Zv~ jf lmdnf- zv~ jfuuf wmibuf- jfu hkkfbzf ai~ehb

d eh``~fbuz efzzhbz ef jdbehuhdbbfkfbuz dbu `mfv~h- zf zdbu wibdvhz- fu dbu iadvu iv

nhfb+u~f ef mi phf cvkihbf"

Edbj- mfz zu~vjuv~fz wcxzhyvfz- nhdmdlhyvfz jdbehuhdbbfz- mfz zu~vjuv~fz wzxjcdmdlhyvfz

jdbehuhdbbfz- jfmi kdbu~f jf yvh z,fzu wizz + jf yvh z,fzu wizz ipibu"

Mf ufkwz- fb uibu yv,hef- b,i wiz ef jdbufbv ìjuvfm- kihz jf yvf mi ~ijf cvkihbf z,fzu ìhu

fmmf+kkf i vbf fshzufbjf eibz mi `d~kf ev jd~wz fu ev jf~pfiv cvkihbz" Dnzf~pfq mf

jf~pfiv1 hm i pdmv u~ipf~z efz khmmhdbz e,ibbfz? pdxfq mi kilbh`hjfbjf ev jf~pfiv

cvkihb fu ef mi kibh~f edbu hm `dbjuhdbbf" W~fzyvf hbzuibuibkfbu hm jdbpf~uhu vbf

hkwvmzhdb mfju~hyvf fb vbf hbuf~w~uiuhdb- fu fb vbf ~ijuhdb jfuuf hbuf~w~uiuhdb" I wfhbfmf zxzukf zfbzd~hfm i+u+hm iwwd~u vbf zfbziuhdb yvf mf jd~wz udvu fbuhf~ jdbpf~uhu mi

zfbziuhdb fb vbf hkwvmzhdb mfju~dkilbuhyvf1 fmmf pdxilf eibz mf jd~wz- fmmf kdbuf

avzyv,iv jf~pfiv- fu m,hbuf~w~uiuhdb zf w~devhu- mi ~ijuhdb zf w~devhu" Ipfq+pdvz aikihz

dnzf~p mi uf~~hnmf- m,f``~ixibuf phufzzf ef jf yvh zf wizzf- mf jdkwmfsf d~libhzkf nhdmdlhyvf

eibz mfyvfm bdvz phpdbz 4

Edbj jfuuf jdkwmfshu ef m,d~libhzkf nhdmdlhyvf fu ef mi zu~vjuv~f wzxjcdmdlhyvf hbehyvf

yv,hm x i fv vb w~djfzzvz ef jdbehuhdbbfkfbu" Db bf wfvu wiz bhf~ mf ufkwz jc~dbdmdlhyvf"

Pdvz ipfq mi mvkh~f ev zdmfhm- pdvz m,iwwfmfq .adv~.- fu pdvz m,iwwfmmf~fq .bvhu. yvibe

m,dnzjv~hu efzjfbe~i zv~ mi uf~~f" Pdvz ehufz yv,vb fbìbu fzu l e,vb adv~- dv e,vb ib #dv

yvfmyv,vb ef jhbyvibuf ibz( zfmdb pdz jimjvmz Kihz mi phf jdbufbvf eibz m,fbìbu- yvh zf

kibh`fzuf eibz mf jd~wz- b,fzu bh kmf bh `fkfmmf- fmmf b,i wiz vb ib dv jhbyvibuf ibz" Mf

jf~pfiv- mvh- i jfu lf- kihz m,bf~lhf ef phf jdbufbvf eibz mf jf~pfiv fzu zibz lf"

Yvfzuhdb 1 .Yvfm fzu mf nvu fu yvfmmf fzu mi zhlbh`hjiuhdb ef udvufz mfz kucdefz fu ef udvz mfz

fbzfhlbfkfbuz yvh dbu u hbpfbuz iv jdv~z efz lfz 4.

.Fzu+jf yvf mi yvfzuhdb .Yvh zvhz+af 4. fzu wf~uhbfbuf eibz m,uiu ef zhmfbjf 4.

Yvfm fzu mf nvu fu yvfmmf fzu mi zhlbh`hjiuhdb ef udvufz mfz kucdefz fu ef udvz mfz

fbzfhlbfkfbuz""" 4 Kucdefz fu fbzfhlbfkfbuz iv zvafu ef mi zwh~huvimhu zibz edvuf Fu

nfivjdvw ef jfz fbzfhlbfkfbuz wfvu+u~f mi wmvwi~u e,fbu~f fvs- phfbbfbu ef m,Fzu" Af kf

efkibef zh j,fzu fvs yvf ìhu immvzhdb mf yvfzuhdbbfv~1 uibu~i+jcizu~i- uibu~i+xdli- kibu~i+

xdli- ~iai+xdli - fu efz edvqihbfz ef eh``~fbufz zjhfbjfz- ef eh``~fbufz ufjcbhyvfz yvh zdbu

pfbvfz ef m,Fzu pf~z m,Dvfzu" M,Fzu fzu +dv wmvuu `vu + uf~~hnmfkfbu hbu~fzz wi~ mi ejdvpf~uf

ev zfbz ef mi phf- wi~ mi ejdvpf~uf ef jf yv,fzu mf .af.- ev zfbz ef ,,u~f+af.- ev zfbz ef

.u~f+kdh.- ef jf yv,fzu mi ehphbhu- zh kkf hm x i vb ehfv dv vbf efzzf" Fu hmz dbu epfmdww

vb zxzukf u~z jdkwmfsf wdv~ z,evyvf~ zdh+kkf- wdv~ z,yvhwf~ i`hb yvf mi ejdvpf~ufwvhzzf ipdh~ mhfv" Mf ciuci+xdli bf pdvz ehu wiz yvf zh pdvz w~iuhyvfq pdvz zf~fq mhn~" Mf


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ciuci+xdli pdvz ehu- fb uibu yvf zjhfbjf- jdkkfbu wv~h`hf~ mfz zxzukfz pi~hz eibz pdu~f

jd~wz" J,fzu mi zjhfbjf ef mi wv~h`hjiuhdb ef mi zu~vjuv~f nhdmdlhyvf- ef mi zu~vjuv~f pf~nimf- ef

mi zu~vjuv~f kfbuimf" Edbj pdvz `ihufz xiki bhxiki- w~ibixiki- izibi- w~iuxici~i fuj" Hm x

efz pdhfz fu efz pdhfz wdv~ z,yvhwf~ ef zfbzhnhmhu- e,hbufbzhu- ef wv~fu" Hm x i ivzzh mi pdhf

ev kibu~i+xdli- yvh vuhmhzf m,bf~lhf ev zdb fu d~libhzf efz kibu~iz" Db vuhmhzf mfz zdbz

fshzuibuz u~ipf~z mfz kibu~iz" Fu jfmi- wdv~ zuhkvmf~ pdz wdvpdh~z miufbuz" Jfmi ivzzh fzu

vuhmhz cinhuvfmmfkfbu jdkkf nizf ef mi wv~h`hjiuhdb" J,fzu edbj pdvz e,vuhmhzf~ vbf

jf~uihbf kucdef wdv~ pdu~f evjiuhdb wf~zdbbfmmf" Pdvz wdvpfq uvehf~ mf xdli- mf ciuci+

xdli- pdvz wdvpfq vuhmhzf~ efz kibu~iz wdv~ mi jdbjfbu~iuhdb fu ~fb`d~jf~ pdu~f fzw~hu" Pdvz

wdvpfq vuhmhzf~ mf uibu~i+xdli fu zvnmhkf~ m,bf~lhf zfsvfmmf- wi~ jf kdxfb mhkhbf~ udvufz mfz

udshbfz ef mi mvsv~f fu wv~h`hf~ m,u~f udvu fbuhf~"

Jf b,fzu wiz mf kdkfbu e,fbu~f~ eibz udvz jfz euihmz" Hm x i efz w~djfzzvz evjiuh z- kihz mfz

ufjcbhyvfz- mfz kucdefz- mi ~wuhuhdb efz ufjcbhyvfz dv efz kucdefz b,dbu ~hfb pdh~

ipfj mf zhmfbjf dv mi kehuiuhdb"

Mi ,kehuiuhdb- j,fzu mi `hb ef udvu kdvpfkfbu pdmdbuih~f- ef udvufz mfz ijuhphuz wzxjcd+

wcxzhyvfz"

Yvfmyv,vb e,ivu~f k,i efkibe1 .Wfvu+hm x ipdh~ yvfmyvf ijuhphu wzxjcd+wcxzhyvf wdv~

ihef~ mf zhmfbjf dv mi kehuiuhdb 4.

Mfz ijuhphuz wzxjcd+wcxzhyvfz wfvpfbu ihef~ vbf wf~zdbbf zf nuh~ vb jd~wz fb ndbbf

zibu" Pdvz w~fbfq zdhb ef pdu~f ~lhkf imhkfbuih~f- fu pdu~f jd~wz fzu zdvwmf fu fb ndbbf

zibu- wmfhb e,bf~lhf""""

Pdvz mvh w~djv~fq m,fsf~jhjf wcxzhyvf bjfzzih~f fu udvz mfz zxzukfz #kvzjvmih~f-

lmibevmih~f- bfv~dmdlhyvf( zdbu udvadv~z `~ihz fu wmfhbz e,bf~lhf" Hm b,x i wiz ef muci~lhf- wiz

ef kdmmfzzf- wiz e,hbf~uhf" Kihz mi kehuiuhdb b,i wiz ef kucdef fu wiz ef ufjcbhyvf"

.Fzu+jf yvf mi yvfzuhdb .yvh zvhz+af-. i yvfmyvf wf~uhbfbjf wdv~ mf zhmfbjf 4

Wdv~yvdh kfuu~f fb yvfzuhdb zfvmfkfbu .Yvh zvhz+af 4." Kfuufq udvu fb yvfzuhdb- edvufq ef

udvuf jcdzf" Kfuufq udvu fb yvfzuhdb- b,ijjfwufq aikihz yvdh yvf jf zdhu wi~ j~dxibjf dv

wi~ ivud~hu- fu jfmi e,ivjvbf wf~zdbbf yvfmmf yv,fmmf zdhu" Wdv~yvdh bf kfuudbz+bdvz wiz

udvuf jcdzf fb yvfzuhdb 4

Fphefkkfbu- pdvz wdvpfq pdvz efkibef~ .Yvh zvhz+af 4. ^ikibi- jf li~db w~jdjf- m,lf

ef edvqf ibz yvhuui zdb edkhjhmf- immi I~vbijcimi- z,izzhu eibz vbf l~duuf" J,uihu m zi pdhf

wdv~ fswmd~f~ zdb wzxjchzkf" Edbj hm ipihu jdkkfbj efkibef~1 .Yvh zvhz+af 4. Kihz zh

pdvz zvwwdzfq yvf mi yvfzuhdb .Yvh zvhz+af-. jdbevh~i iv zhmfbjf- wfvu+u~f yvf pdvz

w~zvkfq u~dw- wi~jf yv,hm zf wfvu yv,hm b,x ihu ivjvb .yvh. fb pvf" Bdvz ipdbz vb jd~wz- hm i

vb bdk? ivzzh wdvpfq+pdvz efkibef~1 .Yvh i dvpf~u mi wd~uf 4. S-X-Q i dvpf~u mi wd~uf" Mf

jd~wz i vb bdk"


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u~ibz`d~kiuhdb dv mi kvuiuhdb zf zdhu dv bdb w~devhuf fb pdvz" Zh mfz l~ihbfz zdbu zfkfz fu

zh mf jcikw uihu w~u- nhfb mindv~- imd~z mi lf~khbiuhdb zf w~devhu"

Yvibe db ehu yvf m,iuufbuhdb dv yvf mi phpijhu fzu bjfzzih~f- mi phpijhu- j,fzu m,uiu ev

zxzukf bfv~dmdlhyvf? m,iuufbuhdb- j,fzu mi `f~kfu ef mi wf~jfwuhdb yvibe pdvz b,ufz wiz

inzfbu- ehzu~ihu dv u~dvnm- yvf pdvz ufz zfknminmf vbf `mikkf e~dhuf" Yvibe hm x i`f~kfu eibz mi wf~jfwuhdb- pdvz m,iwwfmfq iuufbuhdb" Yvibe hm x i ef mi zfbzhnhmhu- ef mi

phuimhu- yv,hm b,x i wiz e,iuuijcfkfbu vbf hedmdlhf dv vbf wf~zdbbimhu- pdvz m,iwwfmfq

phpijhu" J,fzu vb uiu- fu bdb vb f``d~u #immdbz- af pihz u~f ph`- af pihz u~f iuufbuh`( Jf b,fzu

wiz vb f``d~u ef pdmdbu" M,f``d~u fzu bjfzzih~f wdv~ z,evyvf~ fu z,yvhwf~" J,fzu mf w~fkhf~

fu mf ef~bhf~ wiz"

Yvfzuhdb 1 .Iw~z ipdh~ jdvu mfz jivzf~hfz- m,fswmd~iuhdb ef mi biuv~f ev ufkwz fu ef m,fld

z,fzu ìhuf- kihz mi u~ibz`d~kiuhdb bf z,fzu wiz w~devhuf" Hm edhu kibyvf~ yvfmyvf jcdzf ef

`dbeikfbuim".

Fzu+jf yvf m,jdvuf efz jivzf~hfz ef I- N- J dv E ipihu ef m,hkwd~uibjf 4 Fzu+jf yvf m,jdvuf

efz jivzf~hfz uihu vb kdxfb fb pvf e,vbf `hb 4 Fzu+jf yvf mi `hb uihu mi wi~uhf `hbimf efz

kdxfbz 4 Z,hm pdvz wmiu- pdxfq jfmi ipfj kdh"

Zh af pdvz jdvuf ipfj mi w~d`dbef kduhpiuhdb jmibefzuhbf yvf jfuuf jdvuf pi kf edbbf~ mi

u~ibz`d~kiuhdb- pi kf edbbf~ mi kvuiuhdb- yv,fzu+jf yvf af ìhz 4 Af zvhz iv jdkwudh~ ev

ki~jcibeilf- vuhmhzibu m,ijuhdb e,jdvuf~ wdv~ ijyv~h~ yvfmyvf jcdzf" Mi "u~ibz`d~kiuhdb

wfvu+fmmf u~f ijyvhzf 4 M,ikdv~ wfvu+hm u~f ijyvhz 4 Wfvu+hm u~f dnufbv 4 Wfvu+hm u~f ijcfu

4 #m,ikdv~- mi nfivu- mi jdkwizzhdb- mi p~hu(""" Edbj- yvibe a,jdvuihz mfz jivzf~hfz- yvf zf

wizzihu+hm fb kdh 4 Af zvhz imm eibz mi whjf- dv zdvz mi ufbuf- dv jf yvf pdvz pdvmfq- fu a,ih

jdvu wi~jf yvf af pdvmihz mi u~ibz`d~kiuhdb? af pdvmihz mi kvuiuhdb- mi mhn~iuhdb-

m,hmmvkhbiuhdb- iwwfmfq jfmi ef b,hkwd~uf yvfm bdk" Dv af pdvmihz Ehfv- mi ~imhziuhdb ef Ehfv"

Yvibe af ehz yvf mi u~ibz`d~kiuhdb b,i wiz fv mhfv- dv yvibe af ehz yvf af pdvmihz mi

u~ibz`d~kiuhdb "dv mi kvuiuhdb wi~ m,jdvuf efz jivzf~hfz dv mi mfjuv~f ef mhp~fz- yv,fzu+jf

yvf a,hkwmhyvf 4 Fzu+jf yvf af b,hkwmhyvf wiz yvf a,ih vbf hef ef jf yv,fzu mi u~ibz`d~kiuhdb

4 - vbf hef `hbfkfbu zjvmwuf- vbf hef nhfb e`hbhf1 jfjh- j,fzu mi u~ibz`d~kiuhdb" D m,ih+af

fvf- jfuuf hef 4 + Dv nhfb a,ih vbf hef ef Ehfv #dv ef mi Efzzf( Yvh hm fzu- dv yvh fmmf fzu- yvdh hmz ~fzzfknmfbu" Yvf `f~dbu+hmz ipfj kdh yvibe af mfz ~fbjdbu~f~ih- mfz ehfvs dv mfz

efzzfz ef m,Fzu + dv mi mhn~iuhdb dv m,hmmvkhbiuhdb ef m,Dvfzu 4

Imd~z- mi efvshkf jcdzf edbu af k,djjvwf yvibe a,jdvuf mfz jivzf~hfz- j,fzu ef ~evh~f mfz

jdkkvbhjiuhdbz jf yvf af k,uihz fswdz kdh+kkf- imd~z yv,fmmfz zdbu mf zdv``mf phpibu

ef mi phf e,vbf wf~zdbbf? fmmfz jdbuhfbbfbu mi phf" " Fu mi jdkkvbhjiuhdb- mi jdkkvbhdb

fbu~f m,d~iufv~ fu mfz ivehufv~z uihu yvfmyvf jcdzf ef phpibu" Kihz a,ih jdvu efz kduz #a,fb

ih ea uibu fbufbev)( A,ih pimv mfz kduz fu a,ih ehu1 .Ic) a,ihkf jfjh" Jfjh kf zfknmf avzuf".

E,vbf ìdb ijiekhyvf- ucd~hyvfkfbu- af wfzihz mfz jdkkvbhjiuhdbz? fu wvhz a,ih jdbjmvyvibe af zvhz zd~uh ef mi whjf- a,ih khz mi jdbjmvzhdb 1.Jfjh fzu mi u~ibz`d~kiuhdb." Yvfmyvf


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jcdzf ef phpibu i u ~evhu vbf hef" Af pihz jdv~h~ iw~z jfmi jdkkf mfz lfbz pdbu eibz

mfz ufkwmfz- eibz mfz kdzyvfz- eibz mfz zxbildlvfz" A,ih vbf zxbildlvf dv vb ufkwmf

hbu~hfv~1 jfuuf hef" Fu jciyvf adv~- af zvhz djjvw jdkwi~f~ kdb jdkwd~ufkfbu jfuuf

hef ef u~ibzkvuiuhdb fu ef u~ibz`d~kiuhdb" Yv,ih+af ìhu ef kdh+kkf- kfzzhfv~z 4 Vbf

niuihmmf kdef~bf jdkwmfsf- vbf ehphzhdb fbu~f jf yvh edhu u~f fu jf yvh fzu"

Edbj iw~z ipdh~ jdvu mfz jivzf~hfz wfbeibu"" phblu dv phblu jhby ibz- wvhz+af u~f ipfj jf

yvf af zvhz fu bf aikihz zd~uh~ ef jf yvh fzu m wdv~ immf~ pf~z jf yvh edhu u~f- iv bdk ef mi

u~ibz`d~kiuhdb dv ef mi kvuiuhdb" Wvhz+af u~f ipfj mf ìhu ufm yv,hm fzu 4 Bf wiz `vh~"

Jdkw~fbe~f jf yv,hm fzu- ipfj m,ibldhzzf fu mi edvmfv~ yv,hm jdkwd~uf- ipfj mf uf~~hnmf fu

w~d`dbe jcil~hb yv,hm wd~uf ipfj mvh" Af phz ipfj jf jcil~hb" Af bf jdv~z wiz iw~z m,hef ef

kvuiuhdb" Fzu+jf yvf jfmi wfvu k,i~~hpf~ 4

Kfz ikhz- hm ìvu u~f ipfj mfz ìhuz ufmz yv,hmz zdbu- u~f ipfj mi phf ufmmf yv,fmmf fzu- u~f ipfj

jf yvf pdvz ufz- zibz jdbeikbiuhdb- zibz j~huhyvfz- zibz ijjfwuiuhdb- zibz ~fafu- zibz`~vzu~iuhdb" M,ivzu~hu e,u~f jf yvf pdvz ufz mhn~f"

Edbj mi jcdzf `dbeikfbuimf yvh kibyvf- jf wfvu u~f e kdb iuuhuvef fb ìjf ef m,jdvuf-

jf yvf a,ih ìhu ipfj kdh+kkf uibehz yvf a,jdvuihz yvfmyv,vb dv yvf af mhzihz mfz mhp~fz ef

yvfmyv,vb" Edbj- zd~uh~ ef mi whjf mfz kihbz phefz- ipfj wiz ev udvu e,hefz

Bdvz ipdbz jdvu- bdvz ipdbz wi~m- bdvz ipdbz u fbzfknmf" zh mi jdkkvbhjiuhdb i fv

mhfv- z,hm x i fv khzzhdb fu ~jfwuhdb- mi ~fbjdbu~f + ji~ m,jdvuf fzu ivzzh hkwd~uibuf yvf mf

ehzjdv~z- zh jfmi z,fzu w~devhu- imd~z mi ~fbjdbu~f + i iuufhbu zdb nvu" J,fzu vbf jdkkvbhdb

zij~f yvh zf w~devhu" Fu fmmf i u pjvf wi~ mi uduimhu ef kdb u~f" Af bf wdvpihz ìh~f wmvz"

A,uihz jdkwmufkfbu m- a,jdvuihz- bf jdkwi~ibu bh b,pimvibu- bf ehzibu wiz1 .Af edhz ipdh~

jfjh? jf yvh fzu i~~hp eibz zi phf edhu i~~hpf~ eibz ki phf. M,fld imd~z b,uihu wiz m+niz-

jcf~jcibu `dvhmmibu- hkwiuhfbu e,dnufbh~- e,ijyv~h~- ef efpfbh~" Kihz hm x ipihu mi u~ibyvhmmhu-

mi z~bhu ef mi ~jfwuhphu"

Yvibe pdvz w~fbfq vb ~fwiz- pdvz ufz wmfhbz ef jdb`hibjf" Pdvz ìhufz jdb`hibjf iv jd~wz1

.A,ih w~hz vb ~fwiz? hm pi kf bdv~~h~? fu jf yvf a,ih inzd~n- ef yvfmyvf biuv~f yvf jf zdhu- zf~i

ibimxz m,hbu~hfv~- zf~i jdbpf~uh fb ehpf~z wmizkiz jchkhyvfz fu imhkfbuf~i mfz uhzzvz- mfz

ufbedbz- mfz kvzjmfz fuj" E,fmmf+kkf- m,bf~lhf j~iuhpf ibimxzf~i mfz w~devhuz jchkhyvfz-mfz jdbpf~uh~i- fu jfmi efphfbe~i vbf wi~uhf ef ki phf? hm efphfbe~i mi zvnzuibjf ef ki phf- mf

~fwiz yvf a,ih w~hz"

Ipdbz+bdvz jdb`hibjf eibz mi ~fbjdbu~f- mi ~jfwuhdb- mi jdkkvbhdb- ef mi kkf kibh~f

yvf bdvz ipdbz jdb`hibjf eibz mf ~fwiz 4 Iw~z ipdh~ w~hz vb ~fwiz- bdvz bf bdvz izzfxdbz

wiz uinmf dv eufbev eibz vb ìvufvhm- ehzibu1 .Dc) J,uihu vb ndb ~fwiz" Af edhz ehl~f~ jf

yvf a,ih kibl" Ic) Yvfmmf w~fvpf).

Dvh- kdbzhfv~- j,fzu nhfb jfmi1 m,hbufmmhlfbjf j~iuhpf jdbufbvf fb bdvz `f~i mf ~fzuf" Kihz

bdvz pdvmdbz mi kibhwvmf~- bdvz pdvmdbz ivlkfbuf~ mi phufzzf- bdvz pdvmdbz mvh edbbf~


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`d~kf- mi ~lmfkfbuf~- mi jdbu~mf~" J,fzu vb efz izwfjuz ef mi yvfzuhdb- fu m,ivu~f izwfju

zfknmf u~f jfmvh+jh1 wdv~yvdh jdvuf~ efz jivzf~hfz dv wi~uhjhwf~ efz jikwz 4 Zvwwdzdbz

yv,db ihu ~fbjdbu~ vb adxiv1 mi p~hu ef mi phf" Db m,i jdkw~hzf- fu db i pv- mi mvkh~f ef

jfuuf p~hu- m,f~~fv~ yvh uihu eibz zi phf " Imd~z- yvf ìh~f 4 Udvu iv kdhbz- db efp~ihu mihzzf~

udknf~ m,f~~fv~" Fb jdvuibu efz jivzf~hfz- db jdkw~fbe mi p~hu" Kihz yvibe db phu mi

kihzdb- fb ìkhmmf- ipfj efz ikhz- eibz mi zdjhu- ìhzibu zfz i`ìh~fz- zdb u~ipihm- dv

b,hkwd~uf yvdh- m,f~~fv~- mf kfbzdblf- mfz cxwdj~hzhfz- mfz edlkfz ~hlhefz zfmdb mfzyvfmz bdvz

ipdbz pjv- fzu+jf yvf bdvz mfv~ wf~kfuudbz ef jdbuhbvf~ eibz bdu~f phf 4 Wdvpdbz+bdvz

u~f biuhdbimhzufz iw~z ipdh~ jdkw~hz yvf bdvz zdkkfz vbf ìkhmmf cvkihbf lmdnimf 4

Wdvpdbz+bdvz ipdh~ vb mdximhzkf fsjmvzh` fbpf~z efz ucd~hfz fu efz edlkfz fu efz

pimviuhdbz iv bdk efz ~fmhlhdbz uinmhfz- iw~z ipdh~ pv mi ehphbhu ef mi phf uduimf 4

Kihz bdvz bdvz ijj~djcdbz m,f~~fv~" Bdvz ehzdbz1 jfmi j,uihu mi ~fmhlhdb" Bdvz ipdbz jdvu

efz jivzf~hfz- bdvz zdkkfz immz vb jikw wfbeibu u~dhz adv~z? j,fzu izzfq" Kihbufbibu

bdvz ~fpfbdbz fu bdvz efpdbz u~f w~ilkiuhyvfz- zvhp~f mi mhlbf ef mi zdjhu" Wfvu+u~f mi

zdjhu fzu+fmmf bp~duhyvf- wfvu+u~f fzu+fmmf nizf zv~ mi phdmfbjf fu m,fswmdhuiuhdb Kihz

yvdh 4 Af edhz php~f ipfj fmmf" Edbj af bf wfvs wiz mihzzf~ udknf~ ef ki phf mfz kfbzdblfz-

mfz ìvzzfuz- mfz mdximhzkfz fsjmvzh`z- mfz `~ilkfbuiuhdbz" Iv bdk ef mi phf w~iuhyvf- af

jdbuhbvf ipfj m,f~~fv~" Fu j,fzu mi jdbuhbviuhdb ef jfuuf f~~fv~ yvh ~fjdvp~f mi

jdkw~cfbzhdb yvh z,uihu w~devhuf wfbeibu mfz jivzf~hfz mfz jikwz fu mfz ~fbjdbu~fz"

Jciyvf f~~fv~ mi ~fjdvp~f ef wdvzzh~f" Fu wvhz- bdvz zdkkfz zv~w~hz1 ixibu jdvu mfz

jivzf~hfz wfbeibu phblu dv phblu+jhby ibz- jdkkfbu zf ìhu+hm yvf mi u~ibz`d~kiuhdb bf zf

zdhu wiz w~devhuf 4

Yvfzuhdb1 .Jdkkfbu wvhz+af zuhkvmf~ m,ikdv~ ef zdh jcfq mfz ivu~fz zibz mfz ~fbe~f

ewfbeibuz ef kdh 4.

Wdv~yvdh efp~ihz+af zuhkvmf~ m,ikdv~ ef zdh jcfq mfz ivu~fz Fzu+jf yvf af k,ihkf kdh+kkf 4

#bdb wiz mf zfm`- m,fld- kihz mf jd~wz- mi phf yvf af kbf" Fzu+jf yvf af m,ihkf dv fzu+jf yvf a,ih

ef mi ~ibjvbf jdbu~f kdh+kkf 4 Fzu+jf yvf af kf cihz 4 Fu fzu+jf yvf af ehz1 .Jfuuf wi~uhf

ef kdh fzu hlbdnmf- eufzuinmf 4 Af zdvcihuf bf wiz ipdh~ jfmi? dv af zdvcihuf ipdh~ jfmi 4

J,fzu u~z eh``hjhmf ef ~fbjdbu~f~ efz u~fz cvkihbz yvh z,ihkfbu fvs+kkfz- yvh dbu ev

~fzwfju wdv~ fvs+kkfz- yvh w~fbbfbu zdhb ef mfv~ u~f" Fu wdv~yvdh fzu+jf zh eh``hjhmf 4

Wi~jf yvf bdvz zdkkfz jdbzuikkfbu fb u~ihb ef bdvz jdkwi~f~ ivs ivu~fz" Zh bdvz bdvz

ihkhdbz bdvz+kkfz- bdvz jdkwi~f~hdbz+bdvz ipfj mfz ivu~fz 4 Bdvz bdvz edbbf~hdbz mi

wdzzhnhmhu ef `mfv~h~- ef bdvz wibdvh~- ef bdvz kibh`fzuf~" Kihz- phpibu eibz vbf zdjhu

jdkwuhuhpf- bdvz bdvz jdkwi~dbz- bdb zfvmfkfbu jdbdkhyvfkfbu fu `hbibjh~fkfbu-

kihz wzxjcdmdlhyvfkfbu" Fjdbdkhyvfkfbu- pdvz wdvpfq fbu~f~ fb jdkwuhuhdb?

wzxjcdmdlhyvfkfbu- pdvz bf mf wdvpfq wiz" Edbj pdvz pdvz hb`mhlfq ef mi zdv``~ibjf wi~

jfuuf jdkwi~ihzdb"

Pdxdbz e,ind~e zh bdvz ipdbz jdkw~hz1 a,ih dnzf~p fu a,ih jdkw~hz jf yvf af zvhz- mf

kjibhzkf ev jd~wz- zfz ìhnmfzzfz- zfz ehzud~zhdbz- zfz yvimhuz- zdb c~huilf- zdb izwfju


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mikfbuinmf- zfz zhblvmi~huz- mfz zu~vjuv~fz wzxjcdmdlhyvfz- mf ìhu e,u~f b eibz vbf ìkhmmf

chbedvf- eibz vbf ìkhmmf hbehfbbf- eibz vbf ìkhmmf jiucdmhyvf- jdkkf Cdmmibeihz- jdkkf

Iblmihz"+Udvuf mi zu~vjuv~f- fu mi jchkhf ef jfuuf zu~vjuv~f"

Db ìhu edbj jdbbihzzibjf ipfj zdh+kkf- db iww~fbe ~fzwfjuf~ jf yvh fzu m? db mhkhbf

mfz hkwv~fuz- ef zd~uf yv,hm b,x ihu ef ezyvhmhn~f ivjvb bhpfiv" Imd~z- vbf ufmmf wf~zdbbf-yvh fzu eufbevf eibz m,ikdv~ fu mf ~fzwfju e,fmmf+kkf i mi phuimhu ef php~f ipfj mfz ivu~fz

eibz m,ikdv~ fu mi jdkwizzhdb"

^fli~efq- kfz ikhz- zh bdvz phpdbz fbzfknmf fu zh pdvz b,iuufbefq ~hfb ef kdh- pdvz ìhufz jf

yv,hm ìvu- pdvz hlbd~fq kfz inzv~ehuz dv kfz zuvwhehuz- fu pdvz ~ilhzzfq mi zhuviuhdb"

Yvibe af kf udv~bf pf~z pdvz wdv~ ipdh~ vb iphz- pdvz wi~uilfq ipfj kdh pdu~f

jdkw~cfbzhdb" Imd~z- wi~ fsfkwmf- zh pdvz kf ìhufz jfjh kdh- ki ~vefzzf- ki ev~fu- ki

l~dzzh~fu jdkkfbjfbu ehkhbvf~ zibz yvf af k,fb ~fbef jdkwuf- wi~jf yvf pdvz ufz

efpfbv vbf jfmmvmf phpibuf e,ikdv~ fu ef jdkwizzhdb" Pdvz bf jdbeikbfq wiz- pdvz~fki~yvfq mfz f~~fv~z fu mfz ìvufz- kihz pdvz bf jdbeikbfq wiz- fu bdvz ipdbz jf

zfbuhkfbu e,iwwi~ufbibjf yvf edbbf m,ikdv~" Zh pdvz kf ìhufz jfjh- biuv~fmmfkfbu jfmi

zuhkvmf~i mi kkf zd~uf e,iuufbuf fb kdh zibz yvf pdvz k,ixfq efkibe ef mf ìh~f" J,fzu

m,iuuijcfkfbu yvh ìhu yvf m,ivu~f wf~zdbbf fzu ewfbeibuf ef pdvz" M,ikdv~ mhn~f- aikihz hm

bf mhf- wi~jf yv,hm ~fzwfjuf mi mhnf~u"

Edbj zh m,ikdv~ ìhu zdb iwwi~huhdb eibz kdb jv~ fu z,hm z,wibe eibz mfz ~fmiuhdbz- imd~z hm

udvjcf mf jv~ efz ivu~fz" Af b,ih ìh~f ivjvb f``d~u jdbzjhfbu wdv~ zuhkvmf~ mf ~fzwfju ef

zdh fu m,ikdv~ ef zdh jcfq mfz ivu~fz"

Kimcfv~fvzfkfbu- mi kibh~f ef php~f yvf bdvz ipdbz fb jfuuf `hb ev phbluhkf zhjmf b,fzu

wiz ev udvu vb zdvuhfb wdv~ vbf kibh~f ef php~f ivucfbuhyvf fu ~fmhlhfvzf" J,fzu vbf

zdjhu zh n~vuimf fu bp~dzf yvf jfmmf eibz miyvfmmf bdvz phpdbz) Imd~z- mfz lfbz dbu vbf

wfv~ zibz bdk- vbf ~ibjvbf zibz bdk- bdb wiz eh~hlf jdbu~f yvfmyv,vb hbehphevfmmfkfbu-

kihz vbf ~ibjvbf jdbu~f mi phf- vbf ikf~uvkf" Mfz jdbu~ihbufz fu mfz ufbzhdbz ef mi phf fb

phmmf pdvz kihbuhfbbfbu eibz vb uiu ef kjdbufbufkfbu jdbzuibu- bdb wiz eh~hl pf~z efz

hbehphevz- kihz eh~hl pf~z mi phf- fu wfvu+u~f eh~hl pf~z pdvz+kkf" #Hm zf wfvu yv,hm zf eh~hlf

pf~z pdvz+kkf(

Edbj- hm kf zfknmf yvf- zh db bf zf jdkwi~f aikihz ivs ivu~fz- zh db bf pfvu wiz efpfbh~

zfknminmf yvh yvf jf zdhu- kihz zh db wf~kfu iv wdufbuhfm yvh fzu fb zdh ef zf kibh`fzuf~ fu

ef `mfv~h~- db b,fzu wiz vb kfbehibu iv jdkwudh~ efz ~fmiuhdbz- yvkibeibu m,ijjfwuiuhdb dv

mi ~fjdbbihzzibjf? kihz db zf zfbu eibz zi pdjiuhdb fb fsw~hkibu jf yv,db fzu- fb

ejdvp~ibu mf jdbufbv ef zdb u~f w~dw~f

Imd~z- m,ijuf ef php~f efphfbu zdb w~dw~f ijjdkwmhzzfkfbu- hm efphfbu zi w~dw~f ~jdkwfbzf

fu pdvz phpfq eibz mi eufbuf ef m,ikdv~ fu ef mi jdkwizzhdb"


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Jdkkf jfvs yvh pdbu iv nd~e ef mi kf~ zfbufbu mi n~hzf `~ijcf- jdkkf jfvs yvh l~hkwfbu

udvu fb civu ef mi kdbuilbf jdbufkwmfbu mi pizuf ufbevf efz jhfvs fu ef m,fzwijf- ef mi

kkf kibh~f- jfvs yvh phpfbu ju dv yvh z,iww~djcfbu ef wf~zdbbfz phpibu eibz vb uiu

ef jdbzjhfbjf bdb jdkwi~iuh`- bdb jdkwuhuh`- mhn~fz ef udvuf iuufbuf fu wdv~ yvh m,ijuf ef

php~f fzu vb jvmuf ~fbev iv ehphb- jfvs+m zfbuh~dbu m,ikdv~- fu hm zf wdv~~ihu yvf jfmi zuhkvmu-

hm zf wdv~~ihu yvf mf jdbuiju ef m,ikdv~ fb pdvz zuhkvmu ivzzh- zibz yvf pdvz ndvlhfq vb

edhlu- m,ikdv~ fu mf ~fzwfju fb fvs"

Af wfbzf yvf bdvz `f~hdbz nhfb e,i~~uf~ kihbufbibu"

Camp de silence - Bovendonk, 1er août 1989, par Vimala Thakar

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